I was quite shocked that the only real gay man was a rapist fighting for the right to be openly gay, and while some people might say that it wasn't r*pe but "questionable consent", I personally see beating someone, handling them so rough that they are bruised all over, and forcing them into submission until they go along with it, as r*pe.

Not only that, but he even strangled him when he tried to leave.

I'm certainly not someone who cares about representation, yet even I feel rather miffed when I see "gay rights" coupled with r*pe, it's a very poor choice.

We have a person who has to take care of his mentally disabled brother all on his own, starting when he was still a child, both of them being neglected by their father, bullied by other kids, then he gets send to prison for being gay and supporting the wrong political movement, their father dies of cancer, then he himself gets cancer, all on top of the brothers' relationship which causes all sorts of problems, before Xu Ping nearly dies of drowning.

This is a drama overkill, one instance after another, finished with Xu Ping's cancer that finally makes him realise that the romantic love for his brother should be lived out instead of repressed.

In a way it almost feels like the younger brother simply viewed his older brother as his entire universe from a young age and being together was a natural result, as he could not find solace or comfort with anyone else. The older brother was driven by guilt and then a twisted mutation of such feelings, to become attached and focused on his younger brother. I think having such a neglectful parent also allowed for such feelings to take on a life of itself and grow into that romantic kind of love.

It's easy to also see how the MCs desperation drove him to do what he did at the end at the expense of taking advantage of his brother, however if I look at what their circumstances were since childhood, I don't think the younger brother would have ever coped without his brother.

It contains fluffy nsfw. You know, 18+ scenes. Don't get the first few chapters to fool you. Be patient. Oh and top Xu Zheng and bottom Xu Ping.

ah right. The older brother, Xu Ping, did not die. He only nearly drowned.

I understand the tag rap*. It did not mean between brothers, but this colleague of Xu Ping nearly rap**d him. But it stopped during the prepping with fingers. It did not go further of penetration.

I did not remember that man's name because I Fcking hate him and he doesn't deserve to be remembered. Anyways, it is where Xu Ping wanted to borrow some of his learning materials for the entrance examination and thus he goes to the man's apartment. But the man has other plans. Fck him.