who's so violent after he was betrayed and lost his one eye.

In Vol 1 Xinlu is violent. There's a lot of reasons why he's acting that way. First could because the anger when he felt betrayed by Taeui and Ilay. Second when he wanted to killed Ilay but he was stopped by Yuri. Third could be fatigue that he experienced when he lost his one eye. He has different kind of emotions that triggered every time he remembers something.

Xinlu is the definition of husband scared of his wife lmao, the way he keeps on asking Yuri if he is mad, and Yuri being the adult he is keeps on saying no.

When Xinlu killed someone then noticed that Yuri saw him killing someone, he's scared because Yuri might think bad about him, but yuri thought that it's better if others get hurt as long as it's not Xinlu that got hurt (pardon my grammar).

Most iconic scene within the novel. Xinlu, with a bouquet of flower beside him, sit outside the door to prevent Yuri from leaving (he overheard Yuri talk about going back to germany). Then he threaten Yuri that he will drain all of the sea water if he leave while crying (this one is funny af 🤣). Yuri then explained that he's going to the germany to sell his house since he's going to live with Xinlu in china. Lmao I can't with xinlu 🤣

Xinlu- he is Mr Perfect. He literally has everything from look to skills and is exceptionally good at everything he do. On top of all these, his family spoils him rotten too. So he is borderline arrogance and put his pride about all else. He never show his true self to anyone except his parents.

But Yuri see all of him- From the beautiful mask he put on for show to the darkest corner of his heart. He knows Xinlu's smiles are fake, knows he is a prideful man that can be crazy at times and knows he didn't really love Tay. And he is not afraid to call him out on his wrong doings even if this means Xinlu will get irritated and try to harm him.

He isn't masochist or anything like that. He is intentionally letting Xinlu hit him so Xinlu's anger will fade without him harming himself. He knows getting his pride shatter is the most shameful thing for Xinlu and that moment may be the darkest days of his life so he choose to stay with him out of his love for him - hoping to get him back to his normal self even though he knows Xinlu hates him as much as he hates Ilay (because he was there when Xinlu was at his rock bottom.)

And also he is not someone who would act like a victim for things he himself choose. He already knows what staying with Xinlu is gonna be like after Xinlu got his pride and eye ruined.

Xinlu's unwillingness to be an open book to someone and Yuri's ability to confront things head on cause many clashes at the start of their story but this is also the very reason why their love feel really genuine and tranquil like water at the end of this story. Those arguments gave them the leverage to be honest with each other.

This may be a little hard to see but every time Yuri confront him like that, Xinlu's way of thoughts sway to a better direction. He may try to cover it with anger or causal remarks but if you really pay attention to him, you will know that he listens to Yuri's words almost every time. If Yuri express he is unsatisfied with something Xinlu did, he won't do it again.

Xinlu trying to hold onto Tay is actually him trying to hold onto his shattered pride. He hate being worse than someone in everything he do. So losing Tay is like a failure or a stain in his perfect life. That's why he is doing everything to get him back. He doesn't care whether Tay is alive or death, or whether he hate him or not

Some may think he is obsessed and in love with Tay from the outer perceptive but when you get to know the real lover boy Xinlu, all of this become crystal clear.

For me, when he decided to swim together with Yuri after they talked about that old couple, I instantly get the feeling that he is in love. Ling Xinlu- who can kill the one he claimed to love for his pride is trying to cherish a little time together with Yuri even though he isn't a morning person, even though he hates swimming and never set his foot in water after almost drowning once in his childhood, just so he won't have regrets when he grows old. Later, even when he gets upset with Yuri about the contract, he still swim every morning with him.

And the second one is when he first said Yuri smell like water. It's not that Yuri really smells like water. It's a feeling he got for Yuri. Yuri told him once about what water means to him and wished Xinlu would find someone like that too -Someone like water- and yup Xinlu think Yuri smell like one.

When Xinlu is truly in love, his world literally revolve around his lover.