when he got kidnapped when he was a child, the kidnapper—who was after his sister was a MALE GUIDE. He didn't hate men. There's only a specific man he hates, and that's the male guide. So he isn't homophobic. He can sleep with a male esper, an ordinary citizen male, but he couldn't with a male guide.

What I don't get or understand in the story is that they didn't give more details about what happened—how deep his trauma is. It's just that when he was kidnapped, the kidnapper guided him because he was afraid of repercussions and forcibly guided him. Was he touched in an inappropriate way? Because he wouldn't throw up, have a panic attack, or worse, faint just from a male guide touching or guiding him if it weren't something serious. The trauma was so deep. Regardless of that, they don't give much detail and kind of brushed it off in the story, overshadowed by him being prideful and selfish—because he didn't want someone to find out that it's his weakness—and a defensive way of acting every time he has occasional advantages over the MC. He don't want to talk about that memory in detail, because it said it makes him vomit every time. It's kind of a shame, I was expecting his backstory because it gives more substance in his character.

I also hate the fact that the ML doesn't apologize for his mistakes asap even though he got a redemption arc in the main story. He has self-awareness that he has a shitty personality. The thing is, he just said, "Didn't I say I like you?" He really didn't confess. He thinks he did. "I did this because I like you." Like bruh. Why not apologise first before confessing? He should be apologizing first. He realizes that's a dumb move if he didn't see the MC giving up on living his life. Kinda glad tho because there is development that happen I was just rushing to see maybe there wasn't.

MC got depression from it.