For me, as much as I felt and knew I should feel for Ning Yue, I actually felt more for Lu Yi. Why? Because he was all alone in every sense. There was absolutely no one who understood him. Not even Ning Yue when he was alive. With his partner's su*cide, the policemen condemned him, his partner's friend condemned him, and even their parents condemned him.

Imagine that.

Even your own parents didn't understand you.

Lu Yi is a cold man, but only in the sense that logic and reasoning makes sense to him, not emotions. That doesn't mean he rejects emotions. At least, not when they are emotions pertaining to Ning Yue. Lu Yi is just speaking a different language than everyone else, but still tries in his own way to learn it.

I'm not saying he's faultless. Undoubtedly, he's one half of the reason for this disaster. He was unable to give his partner the support he needs. He was unable to give Ning Yue a sense of being able to rely and confide in him, or a sense of trust in their relationship. Yes, from the very start he was incapable of it, but his failure to do these things doesn't change the fact that his partner suffered from it.

These are the things that the people in the novel condemn him for.

But I can't help but feel that Ning Yue failed too. Why didn't he understand Lu Yi? That's the biggest heartache for me. As someone who loved Lu Yi, why didn't he try to understand him? Or if he did, why didn't he try to help him? Yes, in the end the responsibility of changing himself and bettering himself lies in Lu Yi, but Ning Yue was his partner. Lu Yi's parents were his parents. Is it wrong for the people closest to him to try to help him understand his place with them, and his place in his relationship? Isn't there some small obligation to attempt to be his support system just as he will learn to be their's?

These are all my personal opinions, but it broke my heart to see Lu Yi have no one to understand him, his thoughts, and his way of thinking from start to finish.

he's an ice cube through and through, but he's not hiding his feelings for some s*upid dogblood reason. He has never acted maliciously, and has no ill intent whatsoever.

i am always raring to make a scum gong suffer, but this gong is just sad and a little precious. Even though he's a block of solid metal, he loved the shou in his own way. It's just that no one, not even the gong, realized it until the worst happened.