The Decade of Deep Love

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They had been together since high school. Together, they faced the cold faces of their parents and the satirical or disdainful eyes of others, started a business and experienced all kinds of ups and downs. When their company was on the right track, He Zhishu was asked to give up his career to stay at home, while Jiang Wenxu gradually changed and began to indulge in merry-making. However, Zhishu chose to forgive him. Zhishu got an incurable disease, while Jiang Wenxu was still indifferent. Zhishu still chose to forgive him. Love had become a kind of habit, which was equal to an incurable disease.

In a peaceful sunny day, Zhishu quietly left Jiang Wenxu and the house in which they had lived for a long time without an advance notice.

Soon he was gone. A man with pure spirit and deep love for Jiang Wenxu disappeared from this world forever…

Sometimes love cannot stand the test of time. Someone will not know how to cherish the love until he loses it…

Associated Names
One entry per line
Mười năm yêu anh nhất
The Ten Years That I Loved You The Most
The Ten Years When I Loved You So
最爱你的那十年
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karwasama
karwasama
Apr 27, 2020
Status: c86
I really don't give a sh*t about the ML.

Those of y'all feeling bad for him? Couldn't be me.

I've just finished the novel and am filled with a paradoxical mix of grief, frustration, and bittersweet satisfaction, so I'm just going to word vomit my emotions into this review. Will probably contain a bunch of spoilers, so be warned.

Back to my original point — ML is a f*cking piece of garbage. If he was on fire I wouldn't even piss on him to put out the flames. I actually can't comprehend why... more>> anyone would feel sympathy for him. Sure, the author gave us scenes from the ML's perspective where we see him "suffer" and "regret". So what? He reaped what he sowed, and actually, I feel like he didn't suffer nearly as much as the MC.

Jesus f*cking Christ. Let's recount how the ML f*cked up, shall we? First of all, from the beginning, ML forced MC to quit his job. That's never a good sign, is it? Partners should have mutual respect for each other's occupation, but here we have ML asking MC to resign over the mere fact he wants "control" over him.

Next, and most importantly, ML is a f*cking C H E A T E R. He cheated on the MC multiple times, with multiple people. I don't buy that bullsh*t of "oh but it doesn't count because he doesn't love them he only loves the MC". Are you a moron? It's common f*cking sense to know that when you're in a relationship, especially one in which the your significant other has literally given up everything (his job, his family) for, you don't f*cking sleep with other people. I don't care that you're feeling pent up because you can't have rough s*x with MC you piece of shit. Cheating is inexcusable. It was revolting how the ML tried to justify it, and how he actually got jealous when the MC noticed but didn't say anything about it.

In fact, even his treatment of his outside lovers made me sick. ML's boy toy was no angel, and I hate him too. He was fully aware that the ML had a significant other but still slept with him anyway, and in a fit of jealousy he has the audacity to look for MC, confront him, and ask the MC to leave the ML. What the hell? I can't even articulate the actual shock and anger I felt while reading that — this homewrecker is actually asking the legitimate partner to leave, and even implying that he is better than the MC for ML in every way? It almost makes me feel as if the boy toy deserves what happened to him, but I still despise the ML for dishing out the karma. Like it says the ML used unsafe BD*M techniques on him and almost killed him, which is horrifying. And then he indirectly causes the boy toy's death and can't be bothered to care, which literally blows my mind. How can someone be this selfish and uncaring?

Not just that, but the ML is abusive toward the MC too, so you can't even try to excuse his behavior. He f*cking slaps the ML, shoves him around, and god damn r*pes him. The ML is so full of himself that even though he's the chronic cheater in the relationship, when the MC just has the scarf of another person, ML goes ballistic thinking MC is committing adultery. What the hell? Hypocritical, much? And to actually hurt him and make him bleed.... he's actually sickening. I am so disgusted by this man.

He even admits later on that he started their relationship knowing that he loved himself more than the MC. Then he claims that eventually he grew to love the MC more, but that sounds like a guilty conscious talking. Honestly, the thing that I hate the most about him is that he keeps using love as an excuse. "Oh, I'm cheating on the MC but I only love him so that's okay. Oh, I'm abusing the MC and calling him a dirty who*e but I'm only so upset because I care. Oh, I've caused the MC so much pain and suffering but it's okay because I've loved him from past to present." f*ck off, will you?

Also, the second ML (SML for short) is just so much better than him. I feel like he serves as a foil to who the ML was before he let his ego inflate and his morals wither away. SML is so sweet and cares so deeply for the MC despite not having known him for 14 years as the ML had. To be honest, I thought it was slightly unrealistic to have the SML love him so much after so short a period of time, but love is fickle and I won't try to act as if romance is something that can only happen after a specified number of months.

I have complaints about the MC, but I do feel he was pretty realistic. For the majority of the first half of the novel I was screaming at him to leave the ML, and calling him an idiot for staying with someone who was so blatantly cheating on him. Every time he stayed, kissed the ML, or acted cute with him despite the obvious signs ML was being an as*hole killed a little piece of my soul. However, I understand that MC is so dependent on the ML that it would have been hard to just leave him or do something about the situation. The MC cut off all familial relations with his parents for the ML and lost all his former friends and coworkers after he quit his job and became a "house-wife". He had no one to lean on for social/emotional support other than the ML, and he was even financially dependent on his partner after he gave his stocks to him. Lowkey, it feels like during those moments when he was deliberately pretending that everything was fine and that ML wasn't a cheating a**hole, he was trying to convince himself that he hadn't thrown away all these meaningful relationships and his own life away for nothing. This crushing emotion is one that I, for one, can relate to. So while I found MC frustrating, I don't hate him or think he's a doormat. I think he tried his best, but sometimes, life punches you in the face after its shoved you off a cliff.

Overall, this novel was V E R Y similar to Gaze at the Scenes of Debauchery (GSD). Not saying this likeliness is bad or anything, but I will admit I like GSD a little more than this. Decade of Deep Love (DDL) was a long, drawn out version of GSD but with cancer and more of the ML rambling on about his regrets, and while I like the ML suffering, it felt more like the author was trying to get her readers to sympathize with the ML. Which, as I said earlier, couldn't be me. I was so irritated by how the story progressed to where all of the sudden the ML is suicidal and so tortured by grief that he can't bother to even live anymore. I wanted to slap him in the face and be like, "You caused this you piece of shit! Man the f*ck up and accept that you have no right to expect the MC to forgive you, wait for you, or even want to exist in the same plane as you. Stop being a melodramatic teenager who feels sorry for yourself. Forgiveness is something you earn, and cutting your wrists and causing trouble for the one friend who actually cares for you is by no means helping." God, even after the MC dies the ML is annoying.

Also, in GSD the MC was much more ruthless to the ML. Most of the faceslapping from that novel came from the MC directly, as he points out how hypocritical and selfish the ML is, while in DDL the ML is scolded by third parties. It's somehow more satisfying when the victim roasts the hell out of their cheating, abusive partners, and I just wish our MC here could have said more to absolutely destroy the ML.

Anyway, I hope I didn't give off the impression I didn't like the novel. I actually very much enjoy this genre, though I tend to get very angry and frustrated while reading. Thank you for the translators for uploading this novel! I rate this a solid 4.0/5.0 stars.


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thundersh
thundersh
Apr 05, 2019
Status: --
If you're searching novel that will make you cry till your eyes is swollen, you can try, to read this one. This novel is so heart-wrenching and tragic.
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sadly, He Zishu still died. However! He kind of find someone who really love and treasure him (not Jiang Wenxu) and the happiest thing for me is Jiang Wenxu repent, but got no second chance!!! ((I dont think he deserve it!!!!))

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Reading it through MTL is understandable and still make you cry, however some details might be missed.
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Skyline7
Skyline7
Jun 19, 2019
Status: --
I'm so surprised to see this novel in here ????

I just took a glimpse of the summary and when I saw He Zhishu name, I was like OMG!!! I KNOW THIS!! I READ THE MANHUA COMIC ???? (Btw the title of the comic is 10 years where I loved you the most

I cried in almost every single chapters ???? Damn this novel, I don't want to read it but I still checking this Novel everytime ???

I'm torturing my soul and also my fragile heart ???
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rhianirory
rhianirory
Apr 04, 2019
Status: c5
I'm not a fan of tear-jerkers and this one looks like pure reader abuse so I'm not sure i'll stick around but i'll stay through chapter five at least before I decide.

edit: yup, this one isn't for me.
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i don't understand how someone willingly stays with a person after they've cheated more than once and been such a selfish, self indulgent *sshole for so long. I don't like the MC nor do I understand the ML, and this isn't a story where the ML grows a backbone or the MC changes for the better. I don't feel sorry for the ML so much as angry that he wasted so much of his life on a slag. I don't understand that kind of love.

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Efu-sama
Efu-sama
Oct 22, 2019
Status: --
I read this after I read MDZS. Damn, it's like going from Heaven to Earth?? No, more like slamming down from heaven to hell!! from the gentlest, coolest, and romantic gong/seme, Lan Zhan, then suddenly meet this scummy gong, Jiang whatever! what should I do... QAQ

Actually, I don't like this story since the gong is so despicable, and the uke/shou is so damn tragic. I mean, I still can tolerate it if the uke later would counterattack the seme, like, make him regret his actions, taking back the wealth... more>> he originally owns, and dump the seme on the street LOL. However, in this case, the counterattack is just too much, which means the uke just ended up dead, sigh...I don't want him to die honestly QAQ

Really, , , , , I'm in urgent need of a transmigrator, a revenger, or some host and system to take down and abuse this scum gong/seme!!

And I really am in need of a gentle, righteous, and faithful gong now QAQ I need to brainwash myself with gentle Lan Wangji again, re -read the beautiful MDZS chapter with great care to wash this grieve, sigh...

Can't help comparing it since I just finished reading MDZS, really, LOL! Please don't blame my rambling. I'm just in a state of shock and despair as I encounter this scum Gong Jiang right after I read the beautiful romance of the century of WangXian, lol. It's just so painful! I really, really hate this Jiang or something Gong for being a 5-star slag male.

I should've given this a 3-star from my subjective view, but since the author and the translator work their best for the novel, I still give it a 4-star, minus one because I don't like a tragic uke. That's right, I'm one of the groups who can't stand it when the uke is tragically abused!! QAQ

But still, objectively speaking, from the point of literary, and from the point of tragedy genre, this novel is really good, really can make you bawling your eyes out the entire night, truly worth for a 5-star!

.... for people who just wanted to cry for the abusive love. Or perhaps not love? I don't know.... it's not love if it's hurting you, yet the only thing the uke can get in this novel is all about abuse, so, is it still love after all? Sometimes normal people really can't understand the feeling of willingly being abused because of love, lmao. <<less
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RoseAmethyst remembrance
RoseAmethyst
Feb 22, 2020
Status: Completed
This is so strikingly similar to Gaze at the Scenes of Debauchery. The main difference was that the MC in GSD was pretty much given up from the very beginning whereas this MC strive to make the most of his remaining days.

The CPs in both novels are just full of relationship problems that lead to the inevitable and tragic outcome. These novels' portrayal of relationships are so realistic in stark contrast to the idealistic endings in other romance novels. It just goes to show that feelings alone cannot hold a... more>> relationship together because they can fade with time as little problems between them starts growing. As you read these novels, you see how these problems wear down on the MCs both physically and emotionally.

One thing I couldn't help but noticed about this particular novel is how incompatible the MC and ML were. I don't think I've ever seen a more incompatible CP than these two and these incompatibilities contributed to the outcome:
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1. They're sexually incompatible. There was never a time where both partners could enjoy their intimacy to the fullest. In fact, the ML himself admitted that this is what caused him to start cheating. The ML liked rough s*x, but the MC was too fragile so the ML resorted to relieving himself in other people to avoid hurting the MC.

2. The MC always wanted to have a pet, but the ML disliked animals and absolutely refused to let the MC have one. It wasn't until the MC was diagnosed that he started being assertive in getting a pet and finally fulfilled this part of his dreams. Taking a pet was probably the first step he made in taking control over his own life.

3. The MC had such a successful career and so ambitious, but the ML wanted him to stay at home as a housewife. The ML sought to control the MC which lead to his physical and emotional degradation.

The bad s*x life and wasting his days at home with no animal companions.... it's no wonder why the MC finally snapped.

The MC cut ties with his family to be with the ML. While this may seem romantic and all, the reality is that this took an emotional toll on the MC. Not to mention he lost the family support that could've have to guide him through his relationship problems.

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The second lead syndrome is like FOR REAL here. He's so likable and so perfect for the MC in every way. Everything the ML did wrong, the 2nd ML did right. He's total different from the 2nd ML in Gaze at the Scenes of Debauchery. As we read through this novel, we see how well-suited they are for each other, BUT (there's always that "but")...

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It's really unfortunate that the MC feel so deeply and so hard for the scum ML that he couldn't reciprocate the 2nd ML's love. The 2nd ML did everything right, whereas the ML did everything wrong. The MC was touched by the 2nd ML's sincerity and truly wanted to give him a chance, but he just couldn't let go of his love for the ML. Because after all, he had A Decade of Deep Love that left a permanent impression on the MC.

It was because of the 2nd ML that the MC was able to have some of his dreams fulfilled in his remaining days. The MC 's dreams lives on in the 2nd ML even after his death. I thought it was really sad when the MC told the 2nd ML that that if they reincarnated, they would definitely be together.

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kirakiryuu
kirakiryuu
Apr 04, 2019
Status: --
Wow!! Someone finally translate this one. Tear jerking and really amazing.

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[I really want to kill Jiang Wenxu. He betrayed He Zishu in most painful way. Zishu sacrificed everything for him and left with nothing, not even enough money for his coffin. At least, there is Dr Ai to accompany him during his most painful time, Wenxu doesn’t deseve that memory. Let him regret for the rest of his life. Thre is also fanmade video at bilibili, that’s how I found this novel

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DiamondCupcake
DiamondCupca
May 11, 2019
Status: --
The first chapter made me cry, the second chapter made me cry, the third chapter made me cry, all chapters made me cry. If you are searching for a novel that will make your heart break and make you cry in agony. This is a perfect novel for you.
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Meloonseed
Meloonseed
May 01, 2019
Status: c5
To be honest, usually I don't read bl. Well, I don't really have anything against it, just that females are cuter. But angst is, well,

Bro, author, can you make this less flowery? All these sad descriptions, I just TTed.
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The Other Jenny
The Other Je
Aug 29, 2019
Status: --
When I first read this book, I feel bad for Zhi Shuhe. Now, I change my mind. Simply, their relationship is bad because Zhi Shuhe has been putting up with Wenshu Jiang, whereas, Wenshu Jiang has been doing whatever he want. Their relation is not equal, which also due to Zhi Shuhe’s unconditional tolerance. If I were Zhi Shuhe, I would def leave Wenshu Jiang. Being with Wenshu Jiang makes Zhi Shuhe lose himself. Zhi Shuhe has to learn love himself.
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NightFlower1412
NightFlower1
Nov 06, 2020
Status: c86
You will cry, but maybe not for the same reasons as everyone else. I liked it. I first read the manhua, and then this novel but I still think about the plot entirely. It was bittersweet, and I'm happy with how it ended. I usually hate tragedy endings, but this was fitting.

I didn't feel sorry for the ML, in the end. He made so many bad choices continuously over the years, that I could never and would never excuse his actions. Even in the extras, I still don't feel bad... more>> for him.

Spoiler

The ML's atonement after MCs death? Yeah, it wasn't showcasing his very late love and devotion to MC after his death. I felt his atonement was still about him. Was very disappointed, and did not feel bad at all. I'm glad MC was able to peacefully pass spending his last moments with the Second Male Lead.

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When I see reviews and comments bashing on the MC for choosing to stay quiet for so long and how he could endure the abuse, I felt even more pity for the MC. I would not go to the extremes and suggest people are victim-blaming, but there are reasons why someone would endure such abuse over the years. It's a harsh reality, and it does, in fact, happen in real life. So instead of saying I would have done things differently if I were in the MC's shoes, I would just say that at least I agree with the decisions the MC made at the very end. I cried not for the lost love between the MC and ML, but for the MC's pain. I cried for all bad decisions each character made. I cried when they described MC's last moments, because I thought he would no longer suffer.

I don't regret reading this, but this story is not something I would forget because it was hauntingly painful, yet beautiful. <<less
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cherryblossomsinsummer
cherryblosso
Jul 18, 2020
Status: Completed
Cried so much, my eyes were basically swollen and puffy LMAO. Recommended it to my friends and they all liked it and cried as well. Now we're drowning in pain.

In my opinion, this story is very realistic. It shows how dependant someone (the MC) could be on his partner, stayed by his side for decades, and willingly suffered in silence, even though the relationship is very toxic. It also shows us that regret really does come late and last. I've seen a few people say that the MC was s*upid... more>> for not immediately leaving the ML right off the bat. I'll tell you why, because love doesn't just work like that. He built their relationship from scratch, they were bound together for 15 years. You don't just walk out. You will always try to find endless excuses, one after another, believing that your beloved will change. You will endure and endure, slowly killing pieces of yourself. And that's what the MC did. The MC wasn't s*upid, he was just in love with a man that was confused and lost, a man that only learned to cherish his treasure when it broke.

I pitied the ML, truly. But did he deserve everything that happened to him tho? Yes, yes he did. He reaped what he sowed. He abused the MC both physically and mentally, asking for forgiveness and expecting the other to just let bygones be bygones. He had the audacity to keep countless boytoys outside yet lost his sh*t over a scarf and flower that the MC received. It may look like the author tried to "justify" his actions, and for me, that is what made this story even more realistic. He took for granted the MC's love, and only started to fear losing him when it was all too late. I know he loved the MC deep down, we all do, it was clear to see especially near the ending. But it was already useless. What pissed me off even more was that after being together for 15 years, nobody seemed to know that the ML actually had a real relationship with the MC?? All they knew was that messing around was his nature and he had a lot of flings. Although this part alone says a lot, all of these still couldn't stop me from bawling my eyes out when I read the letter that he wrote. He tried to redeem himself, but as I said, it was already useless.

There was also the second ML whom I pitied even more because it seemed that until the very end, he didn't manage to get the love that he wanted from the MC. Understandable, because you don't just fall in love with someone that you've only met for a few months just because he helps you to escape the toxic relationship that you've been in for 15 years. Given more time, he probably could have. Unfortunately, time waits for none. I also wish that they meet again in the next lifetime. <<less
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sflower481
sflower481
Oct 21, 2021
Status: --
I know scum gong x tr*sh shou is a popular genre in c-danmei novel. But, author... seriously? Are you f*cking kidding me? Your definition of deep love is betrayal, unfaithfulness, negligence and abuse? Or is it by being a doormat without bottom line? My INTJ self really cannot comprehend it.

This novel gave me a serious headache. Let's just forget about the ml, he's the lowest of the low that isn't even worth mentioning. What's wrong with the MC tho? Why would he let ML literally bullied him to death? Why... more>> would he quit his job just because ML asked him to? Why would he gave his 30% company shares to ml? Why would he gave the ownership of their house to ml? Why would he endured being abused for 4 years? Because of love? Even though ML swallowed his wealth, isolated him, cheated on him, lied to him, slapped him, kicked him, r*ped him, he still loved ml? The f*ck? Was he suffering from leukimia or brain impairment??

All of these sufferings wouldn't have to happen if MC was assertive. No matter how much he loved ml, he should have been independent; made his own money, had fun with his own friends, tried new hobbies, traveled around the world, etc. ML would have been too busy fawning over him and possessively guarding him from any potential love rivals to even think about cheating. <<less
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katkat16
katkat16
Aug 14, 2020
Status: --
Highly recommended if you want to cry in quarantine. Just take a lot of tissues and eat your ice cream and snacks while reading.

My advice

You're all asking how can you leave a long-term relationship that turned toxic in the end? That's very hard because it depends on how you love yourself. In real life, there's so many cases like these happening. Love yourself first before you enter a relationship. I think the MC is strong on his way for loving the ML even though he is a pure garbage. But... more>> I think he loves the ML more than himself which is VERY WRONG. It's not healthy no matter how you think of it. In fact, if you still love a person that much. You should ask for a therapist. <<less
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Rida
Rida
Dec 17, 2019
Status: --
This novel is extremely frustrating. The MC is the very definition of a doormat. He's so pathetic that I can't even feel sorry got him- I just get angry instead.

I should have read the reviews before starting to read this. I thought there was going to be some sort of revenge on the cheating boyfriend! (Spoilers: there wasn't).

I normally like sad endings, but at the end, I was just glad the story was over. Why did I force myself to read this?
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nyxzane
nyxzane
Jul 03, 2021
Status: --
i have a very weak heart so I m not going to read this dog blood novel. Thanks for the reviews dear reviewers. I know story must b good as u all are emotionally attached to it but I don't want to tear my eyes. I wish there could b a story about bad ass black belly ML who gets a face slap in end by MC who ditch him and find petfect someone and live happily ever after next door face slapping ML every day
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Doxen
Doxen
Sep 30, 2021
Status: c46
I have dropped this novel.

The prose is nice, but I can't really like the characters nor the story. I dislike Wenxu for various reasons and Zhishu because of his stagnant personality. Although the author likes to stress him as a victim, in reality a relationship takes two people. Wenxu is a problem and when faced with consequences to his actions, he seems to want to change. I cannot hate him for that, only that he is a bad person and fails at changing. Zhishu on the other hand, doesn't... more>> change, or doesn't want change. He faces the same problems for 40 straight chapters and fails to communicate because of his abundance of tolerance for his partner. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over, expecting different outcomes. If you're an adult at 30, you either realize that things have to change or get stuck in a rut. Zhishu choose the later, and yes, I believe it is his choice. Realistically speaking, it is difficult for people who are depressed or in pain to challenge themselves and initiate any change. However I expect more from a story, especially when the themes are so simple. If I saw that this story was written to be more ambitious, to deal with certain psychological problems to toxic relationships, I would've rated this higher. But the cadence of the novel thus far seems to be a slow buildup trying for a specific mood rather than an idea, if that makes sense...

The more you read, the easier it is to see when an author wants to lead you to a specific direction or a specific line of thought. That thought here is that Zhishu is pitiful and Wenxu is a dog. This type of writing, for me, is cheap and entirely biased; lacking the nuances that normally allow for your own perceptions to form. <<less
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kisa-chan
kisa-chan
Mar 31, 2020
Status: c86
AH FU*K..... I'VE BEEN BAWLING MY EYES OUT... 1st chapter in and I feel the heartache.. I've been tearing up the while time and... I dunno about your reading pace but I found myself in pain and tears flooding every 5 mins.... I thought my tears would've dried up as I approached the last chapter from all the crying, but there I was, in an even more unbearable grief....

I read this after a light and funny read so the sadness I felt was heightened...

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it was a devastating end for everyone.. including us, the readers...

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It digs really deep to your hearstrings... I'd say there was also some miscommunication... They all didn't know how to express themselves which led one thing to the other.. EVERYTHING JUST REALLY HURTS TwT

LET'S ALL CRY TOGETHER... PLEASE READ IT <<less
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arifah99
arifah99
Aug 16, 2019
Status: --
I think this story is very suitable for this song"way too good at goodbye" (Sam Smith). It just my opinion. You must think that I'm s*upid
You must think that I'm a fool
You must think that I'm new to this
But I have seen this all before

(This verse is when WJ thought that ZH don't know about his affair)

I'm never gonna let you close to me
Even though you mean the most to me

Cause every time I open up, it hurts

(When WJ ignored ZH even when ZH looks sick)

So I'm never gonna get too close to you
Even when I mean the most to you
In case you go and leave me in the dirt

(ZH didn't tell WJ about his illness and ZH didn't tell WJ that he knew about his affair cuz he is scared that WJ will leave him)

But every time you hurt me, the less that I cry
And every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry
And every time you walk out, the less I love you

(After ZH become used to get hurt the less he cried, every time WJ leave him, the more he didnt cry, and after WJ walk out after they're arguing or WJ find his lovers the less ZH love him)

Baby, we don't stand a chance, it's sad but it's true

I'm way too good at goodbyes
(cuz you're dying??)

I know you're thinking I'm heartless
I know you're thinking I'm cold
I'm just protecting my innocence
I'm just protecting my soul

(I think maybe this is when ZH didn't give WJ anymore chance to fix their relationship)

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Because
Because
Mar 06, 2022
Status: Completed
The Decade of Deep Love, a story that tells us of human mistakes and flaws. It’s consequences and one should bear it. It tells us of the pain and devastation of He Zhishu, our main character. How Jiang Wenxu, former spouse of He Zhishu realized his cruelty and his love just too late. It tells us, and I quote “The two greatest shames in this world: one is the death you cannot resist; the other is the love you cannot own.”

  • My Thoughts on the Characters: 1. Jiang Wenxu : I want to talk about him first, because I felt like if this was from his point of view, it would be tittle with “A Cautionary Tale”. A lot of people despised him. And I couldn’t fully do that. Don’t get me wrong, his actions are irredeemable and I do not forgive them. He has done unimaginable stuff that hurts He Zhishu so much, so very much. There were monologues with his train of thoughts. I was really greatly full that the author put that. Because to me it shows, just how flawed of a human he is. Like all of us are. He makes excuses, denies, and is many more. And for some time, I thought don’t we all do that? I feel like the author purposefully put his thoughts because, sometimes we are like that and in hopes we don’t make the same mistakes. But of course, he had mistakes far to deep. And had hurt the person that had loved him the most. In the end, the consequences were his own to bear and he deserved whatever comes after.
  • He Zhishu: Quite a lot of people also were confused on why he didn’t just leave him right there and then. And although I haven’t been through that type of relationship, I know that it’s not an easy thing to leave someone so impactful, so carved into your heart. So I didn’t really blame him on that. He had made his choices and that is that. There is no what if’s in life after all. I’m glad that he got to make amends with some of his past wounds although there are still some leftover scars. I’m also glad, that at least until his last breath, he had something that loved him. I hope he can travel through those flowing water.
  • Ai Ziyu: To be very honest, I didn’t quite like him in the beginning. It’s rather up to personal choice I think, I didn’t really like rather fast love. But, I’ve grown to respect him and I feel really thankful that he loved He Zhishu. He cared for Zhishu at his lowest and until his dying breath. He’s rather pitiful, his love came fast and ended fast. He was also a doctor, a doctor that specifies in Zhishu’s illness. It mush be a hard impact on him. A cared one’s death is already hard enough. I dare not think of what happens to him next. I feel like both pathways I thought of was rather off putting. I just hope he’s doing alright too.
2. My Final Thoughts and Translation

  • All in all, I recommend you to read The Decade of Deep Love. And I hope you can read it with an open heart and consciousness. I hope you don’t blame anyone, because it all ends up because we are simply human. Un-perfect, flawed, little humans. All we can do to make it less ever hurtful to us and those around is to be kinder. After all, we don’t know when those around us leaves. I think, even though a little bit, it’ll lessen the regret of the aftermath. As an extra chapter that I particularly like quote “You cannot go back in time. Be nice to people around you. Don't regret until you lose them. This is what I've learned from this story, this is what I'd like to share.”. That was from “Chapter 84: Assistant Song”. I liked it because it rather resonates for the reader, that, are like Assistant Song, an outsider. And ultimately, that is what we both found in this story isn’t it?
  • Translation: It wasn’t bad. It was readable and I could finish the book with almost mo confused questions on the meaning. Though there are few words that are missing or wrong or even still has the feel of automatic translate. But I still enjoyed it very much, considering it’s free.
And with so, that is all I can say. If you read the book, congratulations. How do you feel? Yeah, me too probably. And if you... more>> haven’t, if you’re interested do take a peek. It’s very worth it. Good luck! <<less
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