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On the night of Xiao Ke’s thirtieth birthday, he shared a table while drinking. The person he shared the table with was a cool man who fit all of his aesthetic desires. It was practically love at first sight.

He was thirty; he had reached that age where he was no longer the awkward twenty-something youth. He would pursue the one he liked without hesitation, no questions asked.

“I want you to give me a tattoo. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.”

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New strongandindie rated it
July 31, 2020
Status: Completed
5+ stars. Wonderful, nuanced, contemplative, sweet, raw, moving, and satisfying. The characters were so alive and real. The MC and ML are both incredibly memorable - atypical types. I admire them both a lot - really want to learn from Xiao Ke, who is so brave, passionate, honourable, considerate and selfless in love. A real standout novel. The translation is excellent too.
Give it a go! You won’t regret it ;)
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New mallowmochi
July 22, 2020
Status: Completed
I made an account because of how I made an account just to rate this wonderful novel. I don't know much about in-depth analysis. I just simply loved how the characters are solid. I guess there's like a unresolved issue or two for me but it does not affect the story as a whole. Wow this is what love should be wow
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Acidelia rated it
December 7, 2019
Status: Completed
This story isn’t solely an observation of Xiao Ke’s pursuit of Zhou Zui, but how both their lives gradually change as a result of meeting each other.

MC is a resolute and patient character. Whilst he doesn’t hesitate to chase after the ML, how he approaches ML’s life is anything but invasive. Throughout his pursuit, MC maintains his own lifestyle, and it’s refreshing to see characters with a life that’s not dependent on the interactions with the other character.

Xiao Ke is a respected teacher whilst Zhou Zui is a tattoo artist.... more>> They come from two different worlds, and yet MC is never prejudiced and always holds the right amount curiosity towards ML’s life.

As I was reading, I often felt like I had to cheer on the MC who was chasing such an emotionally aloof character BUT after reading what ML has been through I understand why he’s built his walls so high. In reality, he fears that he would taint MC’s life if he were to open up his.

I have so much respect for the MC who continued to pursue where others would certainly give up. It’s MC’s patience and dedication which really moves the story and ultimately, the ML. In fact, it’s the ML who ends up opening up more about his past than the MC. The MC who gradually integrates himself into ML’s life, really knows how to chase. <<less
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YellowNoodle rated it
December 8, 2019
Status: c37
Everyone, this is a dazzling gem under the sun. You cannot miss this at all.

I adore the maturity and the sensuality of the story. Both the main characters are in their 30's and the bud of love slowly roots into a towering tree while they resolve the tight knots within their hearts at the same time.

It's so wonderful. You get a sense of how it's hard to love someone again when you're older. You have to bare yourself to them for the loyalty and trust. You have to, after many... more>> life experiences, find that youthful version of you in order to persist and attain the one you desire.

The main characters fit so well together.

Our protagonist, Xiao Ke, is a handsome teacher. He's a great listener, understanding, and a very principled person. However, once you get close to this flower god he will occasionally become mischevious and lovable which can hook anyone's heart.

Our male lead, Zhou Ze is silent and mature, oozing stability and masculine charm with his taut muscles covered in a black shirt while his attractive hands hold a burning ciagarette. But behind that calm mask lies a soft heart full of insecurities due to his past and his guilt. It's been engraved deep into his bones but even he couldnt withstand agaisnt our protagonist, Xiao Ke's, hot pursuit.

The story really exemplifys a love I personally desire and I just can't help but feel content over their relationship.

Their love blazes with fire but the flame is stable, warm, and comfortable.

Everything is so lovely and I really implore you all to read this.


Enjoi and Adieu <<less
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Ritu rated it
January 20, 2020
Status: Completed
I have read many BL novels but this is the most mature novel I've ever read. Mature not in sexual sense but in the sense of maturity. The characters actually act their age, have normal human interactions. They are all mature adults and you really get that feeling of maturity while reading it.

In a lot of BL novels even adults the age of 30 don't feel like their are 30 in them. They are childish, unreliant individuals. Here you actually see the characters as self reliant self confident adults who... more>> know what they want .

Idk how to explain it but this novel is a gem. The characters are lovely and 3d, the character development is beautiful. Watching the MC courting the ML and gradually building up genuine feelings over time is just beautiful. Really surpassed my expectations <<less
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ezis rated it
April 18, 2020
Status: Completed
Not much to add - I really enjoyed this novel. The MC and the ML are both seasoned characters, not silly in the slightest - rather, personalities with depth and a realistic appreciation for what it means to get together with someone when you are no longer a teenager. People are reluctant to burn, everyone has baggage.. Not only were the main characters pleasantly fleshed out, there was also a lot of context, I enjoyed reading about two very different scenes in Chinese society. The characters were also ingrained in... more>> their own social circles, which is also, of course, realistic. When you are a little older and meet someone, you both naturally have many people you know and have known for a time.

All in all - this is a slow burn romance, which is just pleasantly paced and there are plenty of fun secondary and tertiary characters, which, I believe, makes this story stand out in quality. Kudos to the author!

edit: a good recommendation if you liked this is "In the middle of somewhere" by Roan Parrish. I seriously recommend that... for those looking for mature characters. <<less
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Kirill rated it
January 9, 2020
Status: c24
This is definitely a story I would love to read & recommend to others again and again.

Their relationship feels very real & sweet, since this story didn't have those BS plot that immediately turns one of them into obsessive lover as soon as they laid their eyes on each other.

I appreciate it so much that MC & ML have a proper courtship phase, where they're actually knowing each other. They were both very mature about it.

MC is also a very lovable character for me. He's mature, clever, confident & understanding.... more>> He can also be a bit mischievous at times, which adds more charm to him. &Amp; god bless that the author didn't made him into one of those insanely girly characters.

One of the most lovable things about him is he knows when to give space & time to ML whenever ML needs it. He understands that there are things that ML couldn't very easily said to him, so he knows when he shouldn't push ML too far, & patiently wait until ML says it to him (MC) voluntarily.

ML is mature, quiet & caring.

Although only bits & pieces has been revealed, ML seems to have guilt or some bad experience in the past, which made him build walls around him. He looks aloof outside, but his actions shows that he's sweet & caring.

So overall, this a heartwarming story with a hint of sexiness. Characters are mature & lovable, more importantly, have a healthy, non abusive relationship. Definitely a story that shouldn't be ignored. <<less
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BillionJellyfish rated it
March 27, 2020
Status: Completed
This is a beautifully written short story of a romance between a professor and a tattoo artist.

For once:

  • the couple is mature in age (30s) and in mind
  • the way the MC courts the ML is super sweet and realistic
  • the characters have their own background story
  • both the MC and ML have a life of their own outside of romance (the romantic relationship doesn't dominate the entire story, the author also displays the balance between work, friends, and personal life)
Overall: I am truly impressed with this slice of life story. Not only... more>> is the story realistic in terms of relationships, but also doesn't use overly cliché themes like a weak bottom/shou, a super wealthy gong/top, coincidental encounters every chapter, among many others. The MC and ML are mature people that knows what they want and how to communicate thoughts and feelings. A perk of dating someone in their 30s is that they are usually thoughtful and steady, which is exactly how the author portray the characters. I absolutely adore mature couples, so this novel is definitely my cup of tea. <<less
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numba1nobody rated it
May 14, 2020
Status: Completed

If someone ever rated this novel lower than 4 then that person might be really blind and is high.

Really great novel I hate myself for rating 4 star... welp If we are talking about plot it's really amazing.

Okay so... more>> before everything else this novel isn't that much of a real yaoi like really, but in translation it says slight NSFW but actually it's just mentioning they did f*ck each other and kiss and like that but not really too explicit like mentioning stuff how they f*ck each other like moaning stuff and it went it blablabla...... (they are over 30+ years old so I was expecting hardcore yaoi so I decided to read this... disappointment)

1. They Didn't said I Love You to Each Other!!Not even once!!!Both Didn't!!!

2. They Didn't said I Love You to Each Other!!Not even once!!!Both Didn't!!!

3. They Didn't said I Love You to Each Other!!Not even once!!!Both Didn't!!!

Important Things should be said thrice!

just wanna point out some stuff–

First of all, you know, I just kinda don't felt great about how the position (bottom or top) isn't fixed at first and like MC topped ML (once) and then after that it is the ML that always top him.

Also, when the ML and MC having conflict about the ML's past, and that they didn't talked to each other, the fact that ML didn't took the initiative this time was sure disappointing and that it showed a lot of bad stuff:

1. ML Doesn't believe on himself and the MC and he kept overthinking about how it ruined their relationship. (he thought but nah MC made ML realize who is the boss!bam!)

2. He doesn't trust the MC's feeling for him (quite the realization I mean like we are getting an progress here)

Another point is that about the ML's problem. This time the ML at first tried to trust him, it worked maybe? Well there we go, ML distressed again and created another "theme" which is a conflict, where he was afraid about it affecting MC doesn't want to share everything with the MC, and if you don't want to, how are you guys gonna progress? I mean like c'mon you guys just got together again and now you're (ML) stirring up trouble again...


One great point I really love is that the ML worrisome of MC's feeling for him that the MC might change and he doesn't wanted the MC regret and carry on the burden of the past himself.

It's like he is giving him some way, and that the ML wanted to see for himself if the MC really shows that kind of affectionate for ML god love this one, it's extremely realistic!!!This factor might seem like a bad one but actually it's not and that we can see everything progress and so on. Just wow!

Anyways it's really 5 star but the ML's action really ruined everything in some point.

You guys might not agree (I'm sure) at me but I'm just stating this and see what you guys think.

Highly recommended!!!! <<less
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pinkumilkuu rated it
April 19, 2020
Status: Completed
This deserves its high rating. I wouldn't really consider this as slowburn since it only has 49chaps but it has that kind of feel. The story was really nice and it's always always a great plus if the side charas are NOT forgettable even though some barely showed up. This is a love story through and through, not much sht about other conflicts just to prolong the story. The ML has some issues AND IT WAS ADDRESSED BEAUTIFULLY. Lastly, they're reversible 💖
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Roro97 rated it
March 27, 2020
Status: Completed
I like this novel. It is different. Both the leads are adults so the novel is kinda matured and smooth. In addition, the setting is unique (tattoo artist and teacher) . I like it, It is different for me. I like both ML and MC. I am not gonna dive in it too much because the other good reviewers have already said everything about it. So I am just gonna rate it and definitely recommend!
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Shybreeze rated it
March 14, 2020
Status: Completed
Wow. Wow. Wow.

Good things need to be said three times. Just like tattoo. Seriously. This is so good. Where've you been 😭

This is good. I tell you. This is a poem. Or a guide. It shall be named :

101 ways to pursue an ice block

101 ways to break your crush walls

101 ways to be awesome

Let me tell you about how amazing MC is..

... more>>

Xiao Ke is amazing in his own way. He just need to be himself, then people will start liking him for his own self. How beautiful. Like, I learned a lot by how he cope with problems. He is not perfect per se.. But he just have this charisma that mature people with experience have. His forbearance, observation, and judgment is top notch. But, he still can be angry, can be sad, can cry, etc. He is not perfect. But imperfection is a part of his poignance. If that even makes sense.


And let me tell you how cool our ML is..


Zhou zui is a block of ice and cinnamon roll at the same time. He knows he has baggage, that's why even though he likes MC, he is not overly cold, nor is he overly warm. He just care. Oh, how do I even explain.. You will know if you read it..


This is a very satisfying read. I hate angst and thankfully this doesn't have much angst. And


It's HE. They got together. Yay


I may come again to re-read. Just to see Teacher Xiao. And his undying pursuit of our cinnamon roll. <<less
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amruta rated it
March 13, 2020
Status: Completed
Wow. So yaoi can be written like this.

This story is like a breath of fresh air. I felt pity for Xiao Ke's ex. The matter with Lin An (the ex) was handled so well. No unnecessary blackening. The characters are much more real compared to all the "perfect" protagonists out there. A mature story which retains its sweetness. The translator has done a great job.

Don't miss this.
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oopsaloo rated it
April 21, 2020
Status: Completed
Wow, 5/5. Xiao Ke’s process of wooing the ML will melt your heart. And Teacher Xiao will actually teach you how to take a sensible yet sincere approach to a relationship. I love this novel and after reading it, I have to say it’s in my top list of novels to recommend for sure. The side characters are also endearing, unlike other novels where they can be annoying or take away from the focus of the main CP. Extremely well-written characters, well developed plot that is just the right length... more>> without dragging things on, and well done translations by the translations for sure. This is truly a hidden gem, can’t believe it took me so long to find and read it but don’t regret it for a moment. <<less
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YoriMei rated it
April 4, 2020
Status: c49
It’s a pretty relaxing story, all the characters feel believable albeit a little glorified at times. There’s no fiction 500 CEOs, hospital/researcher geniuses, or vile ex-lovers. Instead, MC and ML are both down to earth with pretty regular jobs. Since both are in their 30’s there’s no huge drama or misunderstanding, no love triangles. Even MC’s ex-boyfriend isn’t some white lotus b*tch, just a man who made a mistake and he and MC are very amicable.

I don’t think there’s a lot of cons in the story, sometimes MC’s a little... more>> too much of a “golden boy” but it’s easily overlooked. The only thing you could say is that maybe the story ended a little too quickly for my tastes (I would have preferred maybe 1 or 2 more chapters before the end) but overall it’s a pretty good story that is refreshingly low on drama. <<less
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katiethairu33 rated it
March 12, 2020
Status: c49
There are some novels you like and then there are some novels you send away with red eyes from crying because they ended. This is one of those for me. The characters are so fleshed out. They're both so mature. This is not a story about puppy love. There's no unrealistic, contrived drama. However, there definitely is drama and angst in this story. It is just not contrived and fake or forced. Despite this being the story of two men in their 30s falling in love and learning to grow... more>> together, it is one of the fluffiest novels I've ever read. Every single scenario is so believable and this could be any one of us. The only unrealistic thing is just how good both MC & ML are, thus raising the standard of boyfriend material lol. The sexual tension between them is so off the charts! I can't even... This ML, for some reason, every single action he does, though simple, somehow ends up being so sexy. I find them both so perfect. They still have flaws. They're still human. But I find their principles very attractive. I honestly didn't want to write a review for this because nothing I write can adequately express how much I enjoyed this. I can only say this is one of the best novels I've ever read. I will forever miss Melancholy Mr. Sin and Teacher Xiao's endless creative nicknames for him.

Also, I have to emphasize the excellent quality of translation of this story. This translator is one of the most considerate ones to their readers and they really care about how desperate we readers get for good content. Hehe. speaks from experience <<less
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maxooout rated it
March 6, 2020
Status: Completed
A sweet, slow, mature slice of life story. Both main characters have lived and loved before and are the sum of their experiences. It makes their eventual happy ending even more fulfilling and lovely. There is a dramatic backstory, but it's not quite dog blood. There are many cute scenes, but they aren't quite fluff, as the author does their best to remain within the realm of reality, crafting a story that is enjoyable and believable at the same time. I definitely recommend this story if you want a slight... more>> reprieve of the overdramatic face-slapping and overused character tropes that most webnovels come with. Those stories are great but this is NOT that kind of story so please be aware! <<less
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rinshi rated it
February 28, 2020
Status: c48
I can only repeat what the other reviewers have said. This novel is truly an absolute gem !

Both MC and ML are nicely fleshed out and the side characters are fun and distinctive too. Although it took me a few chapters to get completely hooked, but once I did, I finished the whole thing in one go!

I found myself constantly grinning like an idiot, because I really love their interactions. The whole story just made me happy from beginning to end (although of course there was a little bit of... more>> drama, but nothing too bad or unrealistic).

I normally do not like rereading stuff because usually novels lose their appeal to me, but I have this strong feeling that this will be one of the few rare exceptions.

Of course, some little things did bother me, but I am not here to nitpick. Overall, this story is amazing, and I 100% recommend it ! <<less
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Alvory rated it
January 25, 2020
Status: c33
I really like Teacher Xiao and Teacher Zhou’s relationship as it progresses. It isn’t fast paced nor it is it too slow. It takes time to know a person and it takes time to fall in love, despite Teacher Xiao’s love in first sight disposition, he isn’t pushing out Teacher Zhou to fall in love with him. He is basically making him used to his presence, like boiling a frog in water.
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ollyputz rated it
May 3, 2020
Status: Completed
It is a VERY SWEET stories (and very sweet extra). The characters are very down to earth, and normal, like people that you see in your daily life. I think this is what other reviewers called mature? They are not drama queens.

As this is a ‘slice of life’ type of story, it feels a bit slow at times and not as dramatic. But then, it is a beautiful, realistic story. I will reread it again someday, as I really enjoy it.
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Kaylee rated it
May 1, 2020
Status: c2
This is just short and yet so much perfect for me.

I alw have a smile on my face when I reaad this.
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dee_ism rated it
April 28, 2020
Status: --
Rating 5.0/5.0

Older man is truly the best!

We have both mature leads here, which mean no unnecessary drama, they communicate, they compromise, they have equal footing in the relationship. A very beautiful story indeed.

Our MC is a sunshine. Our ML is breeze. A very compatible pair.

The only regret I have is I was hesitant to read it at first, I thought it will be such a dark story. But turns out, it's full of fluff and sugar. Love it to each bit.
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