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On the night of Xiao Ke’s thirtieth birthday, he shared a table while drinking. The person he shared the table with was a cool man who fit all of his aesthetic desires. It was practically love at first sight.

He was thirty; he had reached that age where he was no longer the awkward twenty-something youth. He would pursue the one he liked without hesitation, no questions asked.

“I want you to give me a tattoo. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.”

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New echosagal rated it
November 15, 2021
Status: c39
The ML often says that he is very boring, the story also seems self-aware that the characters can be seen as boring, and I think I'll have to agree. It sound blunt; but you can acknowledge the depth and intention behind characters, and still say that to you they're just boring. That about sums up my entire opinion on this story.

The rating is surprisingly high; this novel isn't terrible by any means, and the translation was also good. But a 4.7 rating implies it's something amazing, and I think this... more>> novel was just good. It started off well, but I dont think it could maintain that energy and intrigue the opening 3 chapters held.

The MC is very mature, and his pursuit was well handled. The ML is very boring; but he has his own reasons for leading a quiet life. In a way it makes sense. It's just not my cup of tea. The ML's little brother Xiao Bei adds a lot of life to the novel—in fact, I think I very much liked the supporting characters over the main couple (LOL). They are really just too mature and boring together. Can you tell I'm young?

Maturity doesn't have to equal mellow. subdued... tempered...boring. But, this was an ok novel nontheless. Re-read value: 4. <<less
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New plainbricks rated it
October 31, 2021
Status: Completed
Amazing novel that hits all my buttons. Manly gay couple tag is used correctly here. *Chef kiss*


there's something about a 1 turning into a 0 that is really really hot but many authors do not handle it well at all. In many novels, there's too many unnecessary conflict about it and it's so unrealistic. This author wrote it well especially given the background of how much Xiao Ke loves Zhou Zui.

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Acidelia rated it
December 7, 2019
Status: Completed
This story isn’t solely an observation of Xiao Ke’s pursuit of Zhou Zui, but how both their lives gradually change as a result of meeting each other.

MC is a resolute and patient character. Whilst he doesn’t hesitate to chase after the ML, how he approaches ML’s life is anything but invasive. Throughout his pursuit, MC maintains his own lifestyle, and it’s refreshing to see characters with a life that’s not dependent on the interactions with the other character.

Xiao Ke is a respected teacher whilst Zhou Zui is a tattoo artist.... more>> They come from two different worlds, and yet MC is never prejudiced and always holds the right amount curiosity towards ML’s life.

As I was reading, I often felt like I had to cheer on the MC who was chasing such an emotionally aloof character BUT after reading what ML has been through I understand why he’s built his walls so high. In reality, he fears that he would taint MC’s life if he were to open up his.

I have so much respect for the MC who continued to pursue where others would certainly give up. It’s MC’s patience and dedication which really moves the story and ultimately, the ML. In fact, it’s the ML who ends up opening up more about his past than the MC. The MC who gradually integrates himself into ML’s life, really knows how to chase. <<less
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YellowNoodle rated it
December 8, 2019
Status: c37
Everyone, this is a dazzling gem under the sun. You cannot miss this at all.

I adore the maturity and the sensuality of the story. Both the main characters are in their 30's and the bud of love slowly roots into a towering tree while they resolve the tight knots within their hearts at the same time.

It's so wonderful. You get a sense of how it's hard to love someone again when you're older. You have to bare yourself to them for the loyalty and trust. You have to, after many... more>> life experiences, find that youthful version of you in order to persist and attain the one you desire.

The main characters fit so well together.

Our protagonist, Xiao Ke, is a handsome teacher. He's a great listener, understanding, and a very principled person. However, once you get close to this flower god he will occasionally become mischevious and lovable which can hook anyone's heart.

Our male lead, Zhou Ze is silent and mature, oozing stability and masculine charm with his taut muscles covered in a black shirt while his attractive hands hold a burning ciagarette. But behind that calm mask lies a soft heart full of insecurities due to his past and his guilt. It's been engraved deep into his bones but even he couldnt withstand agaisnt our protagonist, Xiao Ke's, hot pursuit.

The story really exemplifys a love I personally desire and I just can't help but feel content over their relationship.

Their love blazes with fire but the flame is stable, warm, and comfortable.

Everything is so lovely and I really implore you all to read this.


Enjoi and Adieu <<less
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Ritu rated it
January 20, 2020
Status: Completed
I have read many BL novels but this is the most mature novel I've ever read. Mature not in sexual sense but in the sense of maturity. The characters actually act their age, have normal human interactions. They are all mature adults and you really get that feeling of maturity while reading it.

In a lot of BL novels even adults the age of 30 don't feel like their are 30 in them. They are childish, unreliant individuals. Here you actually see the characters as self reliant self confident adults who... more>> know what they want .

Idk how to explain it but this novel is a gem. The characters are lovely and 3d, the character development is beautiful. Watching the MC courting the ML and gradually building up genuine feelings over time is just beautiful. Really surpassed my expectations <<less
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ezis rated it
April 18, 2020
Status: Completed
Not much to add - I really enjoyed this novel. The MC and the ML are both seasoned characters, not silly in the slightest - rather, personalities with depth and a realistic appreciation for what it means to get together with someone when you are no longer a teenager. People are reluctant to burn, everyone has baggage.. Not only were the main characters pleasantly fleshed out, there was also a lot of context, I enjoyed reading about two very different scenes in Chinese society. The characters were also ingrained in... more>> their own social circles, which is also, of course, realistic. When you are a little older and meet someone, you both naturally have many people you know and have known for a time.

All in all - this is a slow burn romance, which is just pleasantly paced and there are plenty of fun secondary and tertiary characters, which, I believe, makes this story stand out in quality. Kudos to the author!

edit: a good recommendation if you liked this is "In the middle of somewhere" by Roan Parrish. I seriously recommend that... for those looking for mature characters. <<less
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Juicybo0 rated it
April 16, 2020
Status: Completed
I gave this novel a low rating mainly because it just ain’t my cup of tea. The translation was up to standard though! The seme is an indecisive tsundere... his personality for the most part was a huge turn off.... The uke from the beginning to the very end was shameless in his hot pursuit for the seme.... very cringe.... the things he did and said very clique. I’m actually surprised this novel has been so well received on nu... it’s actually not that popular in the Chinese bl community... more>> lol. for those who enjoyed this book I guess a moe point would be that the seme seemed like the uke and the uke acted like the seme, except when they had s*x lol. The pace was slow and I had to skim through the middle cuz it was that dull... <<less
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YoriMei rated it
April 4, 2020
Status: c49
It's a pretty relaxed and mellow story, all the characters feel believable albeit a little glorified at times. There's no fiction 500 CEOs, hospital/researcher geniuses, or vile ex-lovers. Instead, MC and ML are both down to earth with pretty regular jobs. Since both are in their 30's there's no huge drama or misunderstanding, no love triangles. Even MC's ex-boyfriend isn't some white lotus b*tch, just a man who made a mistake and chose the wrong choice and he and MC are very amicable. ML has a tragic (?) backstory/traumatic experience... more>> in the past but still believable.

I don't think there's a lot of cons in the story, sometimes MC's a little too much of a "golden boy" but it's easily overlooked. The only thing you could say is that maybe the story ended a little too quickly for my tastes (I would have preferred maybe 1 or 2 more chapters before the end) but overall it's a pretty good story that is refreshingly low on drama. <<less
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BillionJellyfish rated it
March 27, 2020
Status: Completed
This is a beautifully written short story of a romance between a professor and a tattoo artist.

For once:

  • the couple is mature in age (30s) and in mind
  • the way the MC courts the ML is super sweet and realistic
  • the characters have their own background story
  • both the MC and ML have a life of their own outside of romance (the romantic relationship doesn't dominate the entire story, the author also displays the balance between work, friends, and personal life)
Overall: I am truly impressed with this slice of life story. Not only... more>> is the story realistic in terms of relationships, but also doesn't use overly cliché themes like a weak bottom/shou, a super wealthy gong/top, coincidental encounters every chapter, among many others. The MC and ML are mature people that knows what they want and how to communicate thoughts and feelings. A perk of dating someone in their 30s is that they are usually thoughtful and steady, which is exactly how the author portray the characters. I absolutely adore mature couples, so this novel is definitely my cup of tea. <<less
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Kirill rated it
January 9, 2020
Status: c24
This is definitely a story I would love to read & recommend to others again and again.

Their relationship feels very real & sweet, since this story didn't have those BS plot that immediately turns one of them into obsessive lover as soon as they laid their eyes on each other.

I appreciate it so much that MC & ML have a proper courtship phase, where they're actually knowing each other. They were both very mature about it.

MC is also a very lovable character for me. He's mature, clever, confident & understanding.... more>> He can also be a bit mischievous at times, which adds more charm to him. &Amp; god bless that the author didn't made him into one of those insanely girly characters.

One of the most lovable things about him is he knows when to give space & time to ML whenever ML needs it. He understands that there are things that ML couldn't very easily said to him, so he knows when he shouldn't push ML too far, & patiently wait until ML says it to him (MC) voluntarily.

ML is mature, quiet & caring.

Although only bits & pieces has been revealed, ML seems to have guilt or some bad experience in the past, which made him build walls around him. He looks aloof outside, but his actions shows that he's sweet & caring.

So overall, this a heartwarming story with a hint of sexiness. Characters are mature & lovable, more importantly, have a healthy, non abusive relationship. Definitely a story that shouldn't be ignored. <<less
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btsdynamiteAUG21 rated it
September 22, 2020
Status: Completed
For a short story, the vibe and flow of this story is so pure and sweet. Some parts were sad yet they were all solved through proper communication that's why its purely romantic.

It shows great scenes and context of a real relationship and its struggles. Even if it's trauma or a wasted long term relationship, the past is a past. Where in truth, it's easy to say than to put in mind and heart. I was so touched how the characters used this in their lives and even more refreshing,... more>> considering it's match in a tattoo - A bind till death. You are the one who wil decide whether its a prison chain or a photoalbum. He story of two people changing their own rules to satisfy the other. What a great story. I am very satisfied with the chains of events (some were tearjerking but it was worth it) and of the ending. 💜💯

The MC carefree and outgoing but also feel inner grievances to himself.

Lin An may thought that XiaoKe is too carefree after their breakup but it's not. I mean XiaoKe's the one who chased you and lead the relationship for many years and you just thought of marrying a woman to placate your family's wishes. Mf even said that he would divorce after 1yr... Bruh I salute XiaoKe's resolute "NO" to him and broke off the relationship. 💯✌️


ML is like a giant monster teddy bear. More like a tsundere hhahaha. So cute.

The second couple is so funny they are even both their own first times 😭🥰


My favorite part was that ML printed his own name's meaning to MC's ankle. What a profound yet longing ending. 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

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numba1nobody rated it
May 14, 2020
Status: Completed

If someone ever rated this novel lower than 4 then that person might be really blind and is high.

Really great novel I hate myself for rating 4 star... welp If we are talking about plot it's really amazing.

Okay so... more>> before everything else this novel isn't that much of a real yaoi like really, but in translation it says slight NSFW but actually it's just mentioning they did f*ck each other and kiss and like that but not really too explicit like mentioning stuff how they f*ck each other like moaning stuff and it went it blablabla...... (they are over 30+ years old so I was expecting hardcore yaoi so I decided to read this... disappointment)

1. They Didn't said I Love You to Each Other!!Not even once!!!Both Didn't!!!

2. They Didn't said I Love You to Each Other!!Not even once!!!Both Didn't!!!

3. They Didn't said I Love You to Each Other!!Not even once!!!Both Didn't!!!

Important Things should be said thrice!

just wanna point out some stuff–

First of all, you know, I just kinda don't felt great about how the position (bottom or top) isn't fixed at first and like MC topped ML (once) and then after that it is the ML that always top him.

Also, when the ML and MC having conflict about the ML's past, and that they didn't talked to each other, the fact that ML didn't took the initiative this time was sure disappointing and that it showed a lot of bad stuff:

1. ML Doesn't believe on himself and the MC and he kept overthinking about how it ruined their relationship. (he thought but nah MC made ML realize who is the boss!bam!)

2. He doesn't trust the MC's feeling for him (quite the realization I mean like we are getting an progress here)

Another point is that about the ML's problem. This time the ML at first tried to trust him, it worked maybe? Well there we go, ML distressed again and created another "theme" which is a conflict, where he was afraid about it affecting MC doesn't want to share everything with the MC, and if you don't want to, how are you guys gonna progress? I mean like c'mon you guys just got together again and now you're (ML) stirring up trouble again...


One great point I really love is that the ML worrisome of MC's feeling for him that the MC might change and he doesn't wanted the MC regret and carry on the burden of the past himself.

It's like he is giving him some way, and that the ML wanted to see for himself if the MC really shows that kind of affectionate for ML god love this one, it's extremely realistic!!!This factor might seem like a bad one but actually it's not and that we can see everything progress and so on. Just wow!

Anyways it's really 5 star but the ML's action really ruined everything in some point.

You guys might not agree (I'm sure) at me but I'm just stating this and see what you guys think.

Highly recommended!!!! <<less
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pinkumilkuu rated it
April 19, 2020
Status: Completed
This deserves its high rating. I wouldn't really consider this as slowburn since it only has 49chaps but it has that kind of feel. The story was really nice and it's always always a great plus if the side charas are NOT forgettable even though some barely showed up. This is a love story through and through, not much sht about other conflicts just to prolong the story. The ML has some issues AND IT WAS ADDRESSED BEAUTIFULLY. Lastly, they're reversible ?
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April 18, 2020
Status: Completed
Definitely one of the best novels out there!

It is really rare to actually have such a mature and calm MC, at the same time a ML with a dominant aura and a realistic plot, logical decision-making plus well elaborated characters: No drama, no weak MC, no overbearing ML

... more>>

actually they are even both originally seme, but mutually agree on their respective 'roles': such a perfectly normal code of conduct in a relationship yet unusual in BLs


The balance of the realism while maintaining a fascinating plot is superb. I have never read a novel that does it better. You will have your heartache, your laughs, all the emotions included and finish this story completely satisfied.

Even the translation is fantastic: really making this novel perfect.

a MUST READ! <<less
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Roro97 rated it
March 27, 2020
Status: Completed
I like this novel. It is different. Both the leads are adults so the novel is kinda matured and smooth. In addition, the setting is unique (tattoo artist and teacher) . I like it, It is different for me. I like both ML and MC. I am not gonna dive in it too much because the other good reviewers have already said everything about it. So I am just gonna rate it and definitely recommend!
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Shybreeze rated it
March 14, 2020
Status: Completed
Wow. Wow. Wow.

Good things need to be said three times. Just like tattoo. Seriously. This is so good. Where've you been ?

This is good. I tell you. This is a poem. Or a guide. It shall be named :

101 ways to pursue an ice block

101 ways to break your crush walls

101 ways to be awesome

Let me tell you about how amazing MC is..

... more>>

Xiao Ke is amazing in his own way. He just need to be himself, then people will start liking him for his own self. How beautiful. Like, I learned a lot by how he cope with problems. He is not perfect per se.. But he just have this charisma that mature people with experience have. His forbearance, observation, and judgment is top notch. But, he still can be angry, can be sad, can cry, etc. He is not perfect. But imperfection is a part of his poignance. If that even makes sense.


And let me tell you how cool our ML is..


Zhou zui is a block of ice and cinnamon roll at the same time. He knows he has baggage, that's why even though he likes MC, he is not overly cold, nor is he overly warm. He just care. Oh, how do I even explain.. You will know if you read it..


This is a very satisfying read. I hate angst and thankfully this doesn't have much angst. And


It's HE. They got together. Yay


I may come again to re-read. Just to see Teacher Xiao. And his undying pursuit of our cinnamon roll. <<less
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amruta rated it
March 13, 2020
Status: Completed
Wow. So yaoi can be written like this.

This story is like a breath of fresh air. I felt pity for Xiao Ke's ex. The matter with Lin An (the ex) was handled so well. No unnecessary blackening. The characters are much more real compared to all the "perfect" protagonists out there. A mature story which retains its sweetness. The translator has done a great job.

Don't miss this.
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maxooout rated it
March 6, 2020
Status: Completed
A sweet, slow, mature slice of life story. Both main characters have lived and loved before and are the sum of their experiences. It makes their eventual happy ending even more fulfilling and lovely. There is a dramatic backstory, but it's not quite dog blood. There are many cute scenes, but they aren't quite fluff, as the author does their best to remain within the realm of reality, crafting a story that is enjoyable and believable at the same time. I definitely recommend this story if you want a slight... more>> reprieve of the overdramatic face-slapping and overused character tropes that most webnovels come with. Those stories are great but this is NOT that kind of story so please be aware! <<less
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Aurinne rated it
March 4, 2020
Status: c48
This is only the second time I've given five stars for anything I've reviewed*.

This is a story with depth (but not depressing), intelligence, complex and full-of-life characters, a beautifully-crafted plot, thoughtfulness, positivity and realism. I love the characters (I completely fell in love with the main couple) and their personalities have a beautiful complexity and balance - there're no cliches here and no stereotypes. I also appreciated the restraint the author showed - although the characters have complexity, the story itself was not over-burdened with drama, side-stories and side-issues, but... more>> instead kept itself to a simple focus: how two men with previous failed relationships manage to come together and build something genuine and lasting.

And the translation was good!

If, like me, you've become increasingly fed up with the same old BL cliches, the same old powerful/overbearing/possessive gong + weaker/youthful shou relationship dynamic, the same old cheap writing and predictible and inane story tropes, then this will cleanse your mind. (Even if you enjoy those, I still recommend it! But especially for those looking for something different.)

This story left me with such a gentle, loving feeling; I was really moved.

* (At the time of writing the review!) <<less
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dee_ism rated it
April 28, 2020
Status: --
Rating 5.0/5.0

Older man is truly the best!

We have both mature leads here, which mean no unnecessary drama, they communicate, they compromise, they have equal footing in the relationship. A very beautiful story indeed.

Our MC is a sunshine. Our ML is breeze. A very compatible pair.

The only regret I have is I was hesitant to read it at first, I thought it will be such a dark story. But turns out, it's full of fluff and sugar. Love it to each bit.
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oopsaloo rated it
April 21, 2020
Status: Completed
Wow, 5/5. Xiao Ke’s process of wooing the ML will melt your heart. And Teacher Xiao will actually teach you how to take a sensible yet sincere approach to a relationship. I love this novel and after reading it, I have to say it’s in my top list of novels to recommend for sure. The side characters are also endearing, unlike other novels where they can be annoying or take away from the focus of the main CP. Extremely well-written characters, well developed plot that is just the right length... more>> without dragging things on, and well done translations by the translations for sure. This is truly a hidden gem, can’t believe it took me so long to find and read it but don’t regret it for a moment. <<less
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Aila rated it
April 12, 2020
Status: Completed
I read this novel because of the high ratings, and no regrets!

Truly at first I was impatient because it has 40+ chapters and I thought it would consist of MC pursuing ML, and while for the most part of the novel it's true it also showed the MC's worklplace, family, and the ML's workplace too -- overall his interactions with the persons surrounding him everyday. It did not showed you situations where the two protagonists interact and the plot is solely for their pursuit of romance only, not giving breath... more>> to the people around them. It gave color to the people surrounding them and you'll grow to care about them, too.

I'm honestly glad they took their time to be together, with the ML's walls you couldn't rush that. And I don't want that to be half-assed (as with other works, which is irritating). I got my trust back that there are stories like this, where they took it slowly and it never got boring. Where the gradual closeness of the two is realistic and made me wholeheartedly believe it.

This story made me a fan of the author, and I'd gladly read their other work! If I could I would sent a love letter to the author and thank them just for existing and for writing stories like this! <<less
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