Taking Care of My Husband in a Tragic Novel

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In a tragic novel, I possessed the body of Astelle Heines, who died while grooming her husband, 13 years younger than her, to her own taste.

The ugly lady of Heines.

A noble lady who played house with a child because she had no other man to marry.

That was Astelle’s reputation within high society.

But they didn’t know—

Why Astelle’s heart would ache every time she saw Bleon and the reason why Bleon was so racked with anxiety at the thought of Astelle leaving.

After I became Astelle, I experienced true love like never before.

“Please don’t leave me… I cannot live without my wife.”

I will make you happy. So don’t leave me.

“Then, please don’t throw me away even if I’m worse than garbage… please…”

I love you. You were the only light in my exhausting and miserable life.

Bleon, it seems like we’re walking side by side in an unreachable parallel world.

So you can go find your place now.

Goodbye.

Goodbye, Bleon.

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sslsdm
sslsdm rated it
September 19, 2021
Status: Completed
Istg this is a disappointment. Not recomended at all, anyway I hate philia (personal opinion, don't come after me duh but I hate her for sure)
Nothing resolved nicely, leaving plot holes that bothered me to death and my dissapointment on ML grew like a mountain. I wasted my duckin 3 hours reading it and I regret it sm, bring me back my time ugh.

Bits of MAJOR spoiler the reason why I don't like it
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Spoiler

• FL illnes came out of no where suddenly have this incurable illness
• FL is the ori Astel, after FL died in 1st tl ML came to a wizard from out of no where and suddenly have this time limit 17 years but supprise! They will still alive in the end, and forgot to memtion FL family is dumb 1D villain character.

• Why I'm dissapointed hate in ML and reason why I hate philia

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ML have been druged for years and suddenly have smex with Philia (in 1st tl) he mistook her for FL, and philia willing to do it for tReAtmEnt or whatever it is which I found disgusting since I despise cheater so much or homewrecer sht. I know the reason it's bc the drugs and ML mistook philia over FL, but I just hate it the way philia willing to do it or ML still doing it despite FL know about it (at this point in 1st tl they were divorced and FL were gone somewhere, but ML STILL have smex with philia to relive his s*x drive. I know it was bc of drugs but still I feel so bitter that my dissapointment on him reach its peak.


And oh yea, don't say that philia do this for ML sake for him to be healed, you have to KNOW that both ML and Astela is sick, obsessive to eachother.
There's a big spoilers here

Astela sure as heck is sick, but she didn't start abusing ML when he's a ten y.o. She's kind and gentle towards ML first, AND astella didnt show interest on ML in romantic way, she thought on him as little bro but still obsessive towards him. ML who is the one make his way First so Astella will notice him.

back on ML— he falls hard on her, he even hope FL look at him in romantic s*xual way after he got his first wet dream when he's 13. And his hopes came true! It was when he turned 18 (srry if I'm wrong) that Astella started using drugs on him bc of her inferiority complex and she's afraid ML will leave him someday bc of rumors circulating that ML will throw Her away. And yeah, ML knows about The drugs nd pretty sure he want it too.

And don't get me wrong, I Too hate what Astella do to ML

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* 2nd tl ML go to war and suddenly missing with Philia, FL pregnant and received the news her husband missing with the healer (philia) and faint then lost her baby.
* in 2nd tl they were happy as if nothing happend, there's no mention about philia in the ending which makes me upset especially when she act like she's close to ML really sickening me tbh. Idk I JUST hate philia period. Don't come after me Since it's my opinion on her.


Conclusion = Yes it's grooming.
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No resolution or whatsoever, the plot is bland, character is bland, nothing special. <<less
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damuoy
damuoy rated it
March 13, 2023
Status: Completed
Reading these reviews has made me realize that alot of y'all have no clue what grooming or pedophilia are? Anyways, just need to get this off my chest cause idk why the reviews are so bad when this is a banger.

"Grooming is when someone builds a relationship, trust and emotional connection with a child or young person so they can manipulate, exploit and abuse them."

This is not what happens in this story. ... more>>
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FL is ML's first crush who he meets for the first time when he's 7 and the FL is 20 (this happens during a masquerade party so FL doesn't realize she met the ML). They don't meet again until 3 years later when Bleon's parents die (at which point he also tells her she's pretty) - this is a turning point for FL because coming from the constant abuse/harassment of her family/society, he's the first one to ever call her pretty. She decides to marry him to protect him at this point.

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"Pedophilic disorder is characterized by recurring, intense sexually arousing fantasies, urges, or behavior involving children (usually 13 years old or younger). pe*ophiles may be attracted to young boys, young girls, or both, and they may be attracted only to children or to children and adults."

Astell is very clearly not a pe*ophile. She didn't marry Bleon because she was sexually attracted to him as a child.... In fact
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Bleon states that because she's so much older than him she only thinks of/treats him as a child, a fact he himself starts to lament when he has his first wet dream at 15. In this world, it's actually illegal to have a s*xual relationship with a minor and Bleon (who's s*xual desires have just begun to awaken at this point) has a hard time dealing with this as he find himself in a state of constant arousal around Astell even at this point (which explains why he's always hard around her) and he waits until he's of age (20) to make his move. Astell who realizes Bleon's desires, introduces the drug for the first time to both of them (I think because she was afraid Bleon wouldn't be sexually attracted to her). Bleon happily takes the drug because he thinks this is the only way for Astell to see him as a man, so they can have their first time, but instead of taking a little sip, Bleon downs the whole bottle (which I also think is the beginning of his addiction).

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Also her illness didn't just come out of nowhere.... we knew she died in the OG novel, but we didn't know how. Turns out she was suffering from cardiomyopathy which is common even now and unfortunately, the cause is not fully known - can be caused by genes, extreme stress, other medical condition, etc.

PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD STOP READING AND REVIEWING THINGS YOU KNOW YOU CAN'T HANDLE. For the people saying ew this grooming/pedophilia, why would you read it knowing it's not your cup of tea? If you're going to read a story like this, you need to be able to keep an open mind.... it's so easy to judge based on the first couple of chapters. Even the reincarnated Astell was making judgements about the OG FL based on what she knew to be true from what she read in the novel, but after seeing Bleon's real emotions, she realized she was wrong about herself, the nature of their relationship and she later realized that parts of the novel had been conflated or exaggerated
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which lines up with the ending of the novel, where it's explained that she did everything she could to push Bleon away so he could start over and have a new life with Philia after her death in the first TL

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Bookworm_Sueweetie
Bookworm_Sueweetie rated it
October 26, 2021
Status: Completed
Other than older FL (Astelle) marrying the ML (Bleon) at very young age.... I think this is a decent read and the smut scenes were HOT lol

I actually, like the plot twist tho.

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FL is actually the real Astrelle, it's her 2nd rebirth... but ML made a deal with a wizard in the past life, so her soul was taken back in the current world.

Also, it turned out that the ML was actually the one controlling FL more bc he loved her since he was a kid... and it will make her sympathized him more.

Their love was consensual and lived happily. While the abuses that FL thought based on novel plot were not true and just based on POV of OG heroine (Phillia)... it's just Astrelle made herself look bad to divorce the ML bc she's dying

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AthenaRed
AthenaRed
July 12, 2022
Status: --
First timeline

Spoiler
  • *FL older ML younger
  • *13 years age gap
  • FL and ML were both abused FL by family and ML by some noble children.
  • ML parents died in an accident and all his relatives take all the dukes inheritance living the 10 year old boy with only some money and property and the tittle.
  • FL took pity on him and decide to marry him as a protection. She treated him like a little brother but she was constantly abused by her family especially on public. She lost a lot of face and went into hiding. Rumors spread that she marry the boy because no one want to marry her. She was called ugly by parents and others too.
  • She's also been unmarried and 23 years old already.
  • She took care of him well but because of her trauma her untreated mental illness worsen and started abusing ML (only words never physical) she call him ugly, disgusting and dirty which are the same words told to her by her siblings and parents.
  • She started having s*xual interaction with ML when his 20 (not 18 ok lol).
  • She drug herself and the ML to sexually excite their body but she only drank the potion while the ML struggle in heat.
  • The OG FL and 2nd ML become part of a war which earn the 2nd ML a great contribution in the war but died early at the age of 30. Og FL also become the healer in the war ang greatly contribute. After the war she went back and found her busy teacher and her teacher asked her to go to the dukes and told her about the situation of the duke and duchess (the abuse, the drug and etc...)
  • When FL went away in vacation or business trip (i forgot) the og FL came to be the dukes family doctor since his master or teacher is not available. He saw the situation of ML and realized he was dieing because of too much body heat. So she 'reluctantly' 🙄 use her body to ease his heat. This happen for weeks until the FL came back from the trip and become broken hearted while the og FL keep on thinking of their bed memories with ml.
  • Og FL decide to expose the abuse of the FL to the ML and told the ml's relatives (the one who stole the entire fortune of the dukes family). They all band together and question the FL which she gladly agreed and was asked to divorce the ml. She agreed and left.
  • When ML woke up because he was still in confinement. He found that FL divorce him and feel broken hearted. He felt betrayed. Og FL stay with him. They both end up sleeping together without a care.
  • ML went looking for his ex wife and finally found her. Then they drugged each other and have *** together. The FL died because of the strong drugs (also she's sick and have a weak body already) her body couldn't take it. This end the ML to be so broken hearted he felt lifeless. While og FL stayed and comfort him in the dukes castle.
  • It was a really sad ending.
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2nd timeline

Spoiler
  • ML went to a wizard and asked to go back in time. FL is in our world in korea having her best life and end up in a very loving family she 20 year's old at this time.
  • She woke up while ML and old FL is having *** she immediately push him away and fainted for a week.
  • FL started to stop having s*xual interaction with ML and make sure he drank the potion to stop him to be in heat.
  • The interaction is quite sweet and ML acts childish to her with a separation anxiety he couldn't live without her. They sleep on the same bed.

I haven't finished the novel but.

  • The ML is definitely manipulating FL and not the other way around. And most of the ridiculous story about abusing the ML are exaggerated by the rumors and is only in the og FL perspective.
  • It shows how both ML and FL are mentally ill and how ML loves their current situation and relationship.
  • Even though he was healed by og FL in the 2nd timeline he still acts like his in heat with the FL and his male part is easily hardened.
  • It grooming but you can tell that the FL is not sane. I'm not saying it's a good reason for her to groom a child. What I mean is that if she is mentally stable she wouldn't end up doing what she does. I can see that first timeline FL is a good person.
  • ML is also not mentally stable and both character has huge issues. They both need therapy.
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Villainess No.121
Villainess No.121 rated it
July 20, 2021
Status: c2
I enjoyed the plot, its new to me. Even though, I didn't like the situation she reincarnated in and when she said there is 13 yo age gap between them.

I don't like those parts they are unrealistic. Plus she just came out shocking him, poor ml. She is too blunt.

But I still look forward to the next chapters and also smut. Hehe!😅

... more>> Also please update more frequently dear translator.🥺

I don't have patience but I like your translation. It's smooth and easy, I gave two stars just for thanking your work. 🥰😘 Cheer up. <<less
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YukiSuou
YukiSuou rated it
December 3, 2021
Status: Completed
I have read the MTL of the whole story and let me tell you, THERE IS NO PREDATORY RELATIONSHIP or GROOMING. You'll see at the end.

This is actually a good one - it was quite a tearjerker.
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fleurqv
fleurqv rated it
July 25, 2021
Status: --
i accidentally rated it idk how to remove it im very sorry but for now I wont actually rate it yet because theres like three chapters and honestly this is like out of my comfort zone - tragedy, smut

but so far so good actually, I love how FL treats ml

the only thing that irks me is the age gap??? I really dont know but she said that her real age is close to the ML but the fact that the og body that FL just took over groomed a child... more>> disgusts me, really

but based on the description, there seems like a reason behind it idk but we'll see!! Im intrigued :) <<less
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Smaforte12
Smaforte12 rated it
December 6, 2021
Status: c1
Everyone’s entitled to their own opinions... so I’ll start off by saying that I really dislike the FL. She’s ridiculously dumb. Like, she’s so headstrong about whatever the hell she has her mind set on that she’s torturing the MC/ML with her unethical methods. She’s too blunt, too dumb and innocent. There’s practically no smut at all! She’s like a dried up fish! Holy shit! GTFOH! This novel is too frustrating for me. Not my cup of tea.
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marijung
marijung rated it
April 18, 2023
Status: Completed
Plot is good, I cried and seggs too is good and I believe there's no grooming happened. I hope everyone finished reading this first before saying anything negative.

The novel focused more on Astelle and Bleon so Philia wasn't mention much her role is just a common assistant doctor. She doesn't need alot of exposure, she didn't intervene or become obstacle to them she is just there to fill the role. The problem here is just misunderstanding on both Astell and Bleon so Philia wasn't mention much.

... more>>
Spoiler

Bleon knew that Astell didn't look at him sexually because he knew Astell look at him like a child. He was anxious that perspective won't changed so he made a plan to trigger Astell

Bleon was 20 years old when they had s*x for the first time. When Astell asked Bleon to drink the medicine he didn't hesitate and drink it immediately, Astell was surprised and tried to stop him but he immediately drink it because he was afraid Astell might change her mind fast because Bleon's most awaited time is to have intimate relationship with Astell

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Astell is good and amazing person when her first timeline revealed I really cried on that scene

Spoiler

When Astell knew she would die because of incurable disease she decided to sacrifice herself, dignity and love for Bleon and become villainess so he could restart his life and forget about her after she die

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Both of them are selfless, Astell sacrificed herself for Bleon and Bleon sacrificed his soul to turned back time

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Astell's heart disease is not out of the blue that suddenly pop out of no where. When FL possessed Astell's body and remember the novel it's already stated that she will die of heart disease. And it's line up from the setting of the story, this era is not advance they don't have advance technology to determine the origin of Astell's disease. Its not like the doctor could diagnose Astell "Oh its because of genetic mutation! Or etc." Let's not be brain dead on this

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Even though the novel has tragedy tagged on it. It has a HAPPY ENDING. AND THIS IS NOT LIKE ROMEO AND JULIET THAT BOTH OF THEM DIE. Astell trade her soul like Bleon for her third life because even the wizard can't heal her because she wanted to be with Bleon. Bleon has time limit and I think Astell too has time limit and they want to be together for as long as they lived. We don't need an ending that both of them died just because they trade their soul and has time limit.

NGL ONE OF THE REVIEWER OF THIS NOVEL HAS BRAIN DAMAGE 😂

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Cyrz
Cyrz rated it
September 6, 2021
Status: c16
I feel like I can read a same chapter multiple of times without getting bored. This is a great novel!
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znukhsoc
znukhsoc rated it
May 26, 2023
Status: c15
This book felt like a children's house play. A clear 0/5.
Some commenters think like the age difference = grooming or pdphilia but it's not the issue here. Their past is complicated, the age difference did nothing wrong. I don't know if it's a positive but she also started to drug him when he is an adult. +ML is a cunning yandere. He. is. scary. He acts like a 10-year-old while being 20, so that's a problem too. It annoyed me a lot.
The main reason for my low rating... more>> is that the author keeps using repeating sentences with all of the characters. They constantly said the same thing again and again:
ML: "If I did something wrong, please tell me. I’ll fix it... So don’t be mad... Wife... ”
FL: "It's treatment." "It's treatment." "It's treatment." "It's treatment."....
Like, author... Can you write something else, please? What is this? I can see why this story finishes at chapter 75.

Many "simple" stuff didn't make any sense either, examples:
-Her being connected instantly to the ML and ML not getting that OGMC is long gone to the other world.
-The duke was injured and maybe 5 minutes later the doctor decides it was not infected...
-A grown man talking about taking 3 days worth of medicine and finishing the treatment.
They're simple but important for making the reader feel the characters and love the story.

Other things I didn't like:
-FL being overly mean to servants over a minimal mistake.
-The writing style felt like reading a list of groceries.
-Chapter 15, there still not much progress. Chapters are short too.

That's it. Don't waste your time. <<less
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Oinkoinkpiggybank1867
Oinkoinkpiggybank1867 rated it
October 7, 2023
Status: Completed
I don't usually read big age gap romance stories, but the good thing is the author cajoled my brain to like this one. I am a person who can differentiate a story, and my real life, so this is fine.

If you are not mature enough, and wants the stories that you read to be like yours in real life, don't read this. You'd be a bad person, and may end up in jail.

5 stars to the author and to the people involved in translating and proofreading this. Thank you!
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MokonaKuramae
MokonaKuramae rated it
July 23, 2023
Status: Completed
I think the end was a little rushed, but overall, it was a good story. (People needs to pay more attention) Especially the translation, it was really good.

(Only writing a review because the translation group deserve appreciation, I'm lazy to write reviews, even the rating, it was for the translation group, I think they are really good) (I'm lazy because English is not my first language, and I need to think a little more..)

The sm*t scenes, a lot of them were 2+ chapters, so they were long... more>> ones 😅 (for who like it) but there aren't a lot from the start, in the end, they were like rabbits. 😂 Like the fact there wasn't misunderstanding, FL and ML always try to talk.

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I would like more if the FL had a better revenge against her disgusting family, the author gave some good information to use, why didn't lock the s*upid brother on the jail?

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(now I will basically describe the story, so will be THE majors spoilers) :

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The author could correct a loop hole: if to "make" a wish from the witch you need a soul, how the FL can be alive? (After all, they used her soul to revive her, so how can the FL be alive?). Solution 1: the baby's soul was used, the witch saw that their baby cared so much about their parents. Solution 2: FL sacrifice her soul/memories from when she was in the modern era, so she doesn't remember her past life.

About the pedophilia described on the others reviews, the ML waited to them be at age to start a s*xual relationship. FL never start, she really cared about the ML. ML described she never saw him sexually, even if he in his 13 years old was having w*tting dreams about her. Only after he was 18, he tried to seduce her. In the "original story" was described child ab*se, but it was a plot from the FL to ruin her honor, so it wasn't the true 1st time line.

So:

- "original story": it was how the public was made to view the FL, a horrible villainess

- 1st time line/ truth: FL was a good person, but with a really low self-esteem, there were more characters that liked the FL, and I think it was the proof she wasn't a bad person. FL really cared about ML, and helped him to survive the succession run. ML saw the FL like a woman from the start, but only seduced her when they were older, and legally aged. FL used drugs (low self-esteem, she believed that only with aphrodisiac ML would sleeps with someone ugly like her), but only with his consent. FL knew she was sick, and was incurable, so she ruined her honor for the divorce. ML discovered about her death, and make a wish for the witch, turned back time.

Actual time line: they return without their memories from the 1st line. FL knows about the original story because her Korean past life, but not the truth. So she thinks she was really a bad person, and needs to fix before they divorce in bad terms.

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meanairizyx
meanairizyx rated it
July 6, 2023
Status: Completed
A spicy story like this has no business being so sad. A super tearjerker especially for someone who read too much into emotion (me)
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mimiCH
mimiCH rated it
April 23, 2023
Status: Completed
This is one of my favorite novels ever. The people who rated it low either just don't have a taste for clingy MLs (and that's fine because we all have preferences) or just didn't finish reading it all. All wrong doings of the FL were answered and explained.

bro before anyone leaves because everyone keeps saying she groomed him, the FL didn't really groom the ML he listened to her because he loved her and it's stated that she treated him more like a little brother before he became an... more>> adult anyways and the FL didn't even start doing anything s*xual with him until he came of age and the ML consented and initiated it...

I do think the pacing was a bit rushed though. I loved the ML, the way he was so desperate for her to not leave was so perfectly written. The FL is genuinely really mature too and she comes to terms with things very easily and she's not annoying. Thankfully the author gave us a happy ending, I literally could not be more grateful for that too. I kept reading Bleon as Biden though...

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Tbh I wanted a side story of when Philia saved Bleon cause I wanna know if she still loved him in the second time line. Like I said everything was a bit rushed and all the main stuff was answered but the little things were confusing.

Like I wanted to know more about McCain because me personally I think he deserves better. Maybe even an au where he ended up with the FL instead of Bleon lmao. I hope McCain and Philia end up together though!!!

I also wanted to know more of how it was like for the ML in the past timeline, I really liked seeing him suffer.

No cause if the mage never let the ML and FL regain their memories wouldn't it have become just like the first timeline again?

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gazella
gazella rated it
April 22, 2023
Status: --
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-ML is cheater/FL is abuser.

-they have 13 year age gap. They married when he is 10??????? (is that even legal) and she is 23. He act so out of his age in a ridiculous way. He is not muture, he is groomed and thinks he is in love with her after staying 10 years ONLY with her, just few people in the whole castle, their is no one who is same age with ML (FL get insecure and throw out every pretty and young woman). In the end author just throw some random reasons to make 1st timeline FL look nice like -she got insecure after she heared someone saying he will leave her when he get older and that’s why she abused her- poor her, what a good reasong to abuse a child and him thinks that she apologizes to him after her behavior means she is actually nice in deep deep down. FL is the dumbest FL ever, like he cheated, you know that and after that while you dying he drug you and r*** you but you still he shouldn’t see me dying. Girl. You can not even breath and you think about that just after you see him f*** other girl.

After this scene this novel is just 1 star. This could have been good if 1st Astelle and 2th timeline astelle was not the same person and Male not remember her 1st timeline. (He f*** other girl for months in the first timeline. First he was drugged and thought she is his wife but after When his regain consciousness and see her is not his wife he still continued.)

Reading this it just a waist of time. I just wish in the end FL dies while cursing him, then he would killed himself too, at least that would have be satisfying.

-the thing that I don’t understand is, FL got married with ML is because no one wants to marry her bcs everyone thinks she is ugly but everyone arounds her think she is gorgeous except her family.

-1st and 2th timeline Astelle is the same woman, after reading this I dislike the FL even though I thought she was actually nice? But no she was still the dumbest. Like she is weird to react after seeing her husband cheating, in front of her eyes. I felt so disgusted and disappointed after that and yet she forgives him. Ohh, and after he saw her see them f***ing, run to her, drug her and f*** her while she is dying because of a heart disease but he can’t even realize her being out of breath, dying, because he only care about f her.

-Oh, and in the end she just came back to life thanks to some magical poison, and became soooo much healthier, her infertility cured and got a healthy body. Every is happy like no one cheated, abused, death twice, sold their souled and even the girl he cheated stayed with them.

I wrote this after reading novel and I might be overreacting but I have to write my true thoughts or I can’t calm down.

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FreyjaVanadis
FreyjaVanadis rated it
August 16, 2023
Status: Completed
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ BRING TISSUES YOU WILL NEED THEM. Once again confused by low reviews but I think it's also people who read only the first few chapters. This one is high angst but oh so worth it! Unreliable narrator and a slowly unfolding mystery is the order of the day, and I do so love the smut in this. There's so SO MUCH GUILT from the different characters, and the misunderstandings from the FL can all be traced back to the same issues as in MY Childhood Friends Are Trying... more>> To Kill Me - the narrator is consistent but her perception is extremely clouded because she is working off bad data. Underneath it all is a very serious and devoted love story between two people who suffer from insecurity and doubt. Bleon loves Astelle, and has since he was a child - it only grows deeper and more ardent as he becomes a man. Astelle doesn't want to accept his love because of the 13 year age gap, and when she does she feels crushing guilt and thinks Bleon should find someone his own age. This is misunderstood by all around them, even leading Astelle to be convinced she is grooming and abusing Bleon. It's more like reverse of that, tbh - Bleon only waits until he is legally an adult because he realizes that if he doesn't Astelle will run for it. I'm not sure how much mroe to say about the plot but the smut is EXCELLENT and the love the leads have for each other is incredibly deep. It's a sweet, sad story and I love it. <<less
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