This novel has many problems.

ML: I am quite speechless regarding him. He is what every tropey ML would have. You just name it, be it arrogance, selfishness, rude, etc. He is all that and much more. Even as a child he was fuc- *ahem* very disgraceful, pretentious. He is the bad boy kid who has issues at home (stress more at kid please). He is your starter pack of every deeming quality of human being at the start (well not like he changes in the future). If we try to study his character in detail, I would say he was just someone who wanted love, care, was strayed from righteous pat- I'm joking. His character is whimsical more like spoiled princess at this point. See let me tell you what he did to MC.

1. 1. He bullied him in middle school (?).
   2. He bullied him with his little gang.
   3. He bullied him with his little gang by dressing him like a girl and forcing him to go to club when they both were just KIDS.
   4. One of his little gang members brother f*ckin almost killed MC by kicking him in f*ckin stomach.
   5. That little members brother was in mafia and he KICKED MC in mf stomach and slapped him.
   6. The ML HELPED him. (way too much credit given).
   7. But he thought THAT IF NOT FOR HIM MC WOULD HAVE DIED AND THAT MC SHOULD BE THANKFUL TO HIM.
   8. He then started treating MC as pet.
   9. He then kissed MC but then his friends found out and he ran away.
   10. He re-entered MC's life and faked that he liked him.
   11. MC fell for him little and he took advantage OF THAT, HE r*peD ALCOHOL INFLUENCED MC WHERE HE HIMSELF ADDED ALCOHOL IN MC'S DRINK WITHOUT TELLING HIM.
   12. He played home-home with MC. MC caught feelings, got deep in love.
   13. He then started to show his violent behavior.
   14. HE f*ckING MADE MC RESIGN FROM HIS JOB. HE f*ckING PAID PEOPLE TO MAKE MC'S WORK LIFE DIFFCULT. oh did I mention that he exchanged MC love for a tortoise fossil from MC's boss (by that I mean he made a bet where if got MC around his finger the boss had to give the fossil).
   15. He didn't let any male even talk to MC.
   16. Let's fast forward, he had to marry as he was only male child and had to carry out the lineage. But my friends, what he did? he told MC that even if he got married it would pose no problem and they should continue as they are. But he doesn't want MC to marry anyone.
   17. MC ran away after ML's sister told him that ML was about to get married (mf literally got engaged while saying he was on business trip)
   18. Found out that MC and second ML are almost a thing now and forcefully entered MC's house and dude.... He r*ped Him.
   19. When he saw MC and Second ML kiss in car mf smashed my homies window with steering wheel locker.
   20. KIDNAPPED MC FROM SECOND ML ON NEW YEAR AND CONFINED HIM IN A MANSION (MF REALLY DID THAT AND EVEN BROUGHT BOUNCERS)
   21. Even with that this man did not stop. He framed second ML regarding his bank relations (?) as the second ML is a head of accounting firm. He did it when second ML went US to celebrate with his family (MC couldn't go as he didn't have a visa). Because of this if second ML came back he would be immediately arrested.
   22. Forced MC to break his relationship with second ml.
   23. MC again ran away from him but guess what MOFO STILL FOUND HIM AND STARTED PESTERING HIM AGAIN.
   24. Now I would be very short because he had done many crimes and writing that all down would be impossible... for now.
   25. He got a surrogate who had mc's child as during a health checkup at ml's friends hospital the doc took MC's sperm (MC asked why would he take but doc said, "Are you the doc-doc?")
   26. He stabbed himself with FRUIT KNIFE to guilt trap MC.

Now see this is very short because there many more things lost in the words. But I would say he is very deeming and hateful person. If he was real.... Oh aren't the rich kids like this? It was shown that he didn't have a mother as she died after giving birth to him and his father was very strict, see I don't have problem with this but the author's thinking that by this we would sympathize with him was totally a poor attempt because I didn't sympathize whatsoever. I don't know about others some might some might not.

MC: He is just as the text said. You know the only thing I felt realistic about this whole novel was MC's personality. See he was coward and he still is. Even when his is angry it is more cowardly. And his premise did not change in the whole book. This is what happens in real life too, you see you can't really be hero the next day, it would take time, a lot of time and MC is still taking it. I feel that this was the only thing that was worth mentioning about him as he still is a coward, can't really talk or confront. This showed that to get him out of his shell would take time but with a right person and ML is in no way that person, so his progress is stagnant. I would have loved to see him breaking out of his sell even if it was little by little. That could have been a whole lot better premise but I still respect the author and their writing. There is nothing other than his hardships. So I would stop at that. If you are an M give this MC a chance.

Other characters: They are 2D at most. Like their sole purpose is just to enter when it is the right time. I felt that the second ML could have been a better match for MC, they were perfect, he was gentle with him, I think he would have been the person to really break MC out of his shell. But alas, it was not directed that way. Other characters aren't really worth mentioning they are just there. ML's friends never redeemed.

Plot: Just Dog blood and..... more dog blood.

There are two ways you can interpret the ending: happy or horrific.

Happy endings are usually classified by whether the main characters get together in the end. By this metric, you can argue that Sissy has a happy ending. I see it a bit differently:

By the end of the novel, our main character finally has a sense of "family, " a lifelong commitment he can be secure with. Although he acknowledges that he was forced into these circumstances, he feels satisfied regardless.

The horrific side is that this ending represents class conflict, in which such a huge power dynamic between a couple inevitably means that one person may not be in a position to consent to anything. Any decisions made by the weaker person is just an illusion of choice created by their more powerful partner. Li Chengxiu's decision to give in to Shao Qun's persistence to settle for a "comfortable" life draws parallels to our own capitalist reality, in which the rich have the final say. The poor can scream, shout, and struggle all they want, but in the end, they are just goods to be bartered around among the rich. Here, Shao Qun's gaslighting has succeeded--and he has bound Li Chengxiu with him for life. Li Chengxiu himself has completely given in to the idea that he has no personal autonomy and is satisfied with letting others decide his path.

So, most of Li ChengXiu's suffering starts from when Shao Qun's group of friends find him and Shao Qun kissing on the rooftop when they both had gone to school together. Shao Qun panics after his friends sees him kissing a boy. No, even worse, a sissy. So, Shao Qun fled the scene, going abroad to avoid it.

I see a lot of people blame Shao Qun for this, but I think it's understandable that he did that. Being found out as gay by his homophobic friends is truly scary, and add to that the fact that most people at that time is homophobic, I understand why he fled, and while his actions indirectly caused suffering for Li ChengXiu, it's not exactly his fault.

Coming back to Li ChengXiu, after Shao Qun's friends found out about him and Shao Qun, they thought that our MC had somehow seduced him or something. So, they started ordering the people in their school to torture and bully him. One day, someone wrote a fake letter to Li Chengxiu, disguising as Shao Qun to make him wait after school. Unknowingly, this prank will absolutely ruin Li ChengXiu's life and future.

Because, when waiting for this fake Shao Qun, Li ChengXiu had fallen asleep and woke up at night when the school had already been closed. Scared, Li ChengXiu went to the school's locked entrance to call for help. Luckily, or maybe unluckily, a security guard heard him and opened the entrance for him. The security guard invited him to ride on his motorbike to make him get home faster. Though hesitant, Li ChengXiu agrees. That security guard ended up trying to ass*ult Li ChengXiu, but Li ChengXiu manages to escape after screaming and making the security guard panic. But in the toussling, the security guard bashes Li ChengXiu's head on the pavement and injured one of his ears.

Stressed and distraught, our MC goes home only to find his mother who had drunk herself into unconciousness, and who is currently foaming at the mouth. Li ChengXiu's mother is then hospitalized, putting strain on their already limited economy. Li ChengXiu tries taking up more jobs than the one he already had as a chef in a distant relative's restaurant, but he just couldn't make enough money. Realizing this, Li ChengXiu drops out of school. Dropping out is a huge devastating event for our MC, as he has tried his best to get good grades so he could get the goverment's help in paying for his schooling when he gets to high school. Oh and I forgot to mention, through all this, Li ChengXiu was only a MIDDLE school student. Li ChengXiu had held onto hope that after he gets to high school and then college, he could lead a normal life and get a normal job that could support him and his mother. Dropping out absolutely shattered this hope.

Li ChengXiu also went door to door in his small neighbourhood community—begging them to lend him some money so he can support his mother in the hospital. But times were tough for them too, and even after going through the whole community, going on his knees until they were rubbed raw and bloody, he could only get a meager amount. What's even worse is that Li ChengXiu's mother died while she was in the hospital, making all of his efforts useless.

Chengxiu basically has no agency in the relationship except a bit of push back by withdrawing his love from the ML. He's left with no job, no money, no real friends, and a child that will likely grow up without proper emotional support if he doesn't step up and takes care of it (considering how screwed up Shao Qun is, his family obviously shouldn't be entrusted with more kids). Chengxiu knows that if he rejects Shao Qun again, the latter will either continue to stalk him and destroy any future attempts at friendships and romantic relationships, or he will commit suicide if he can't obtain CX. It's basically emotionally blackmail that makes CX go back to SQ.

It's very realistic that SQ is at one hand sexually attracted to CX, but his status as the 'cool and macho' school bully and rich brat surrounded by a group of admirers and equally spoiled rich brats who can do whatever they want and suffer almost no repercussions makes sense - isn't it the same in real life? CX admits to himself that his misfortune in his youth wasn't 100% SQ's fault. SQ and his gang can't be blamed for the school officers harassment and assault, nor is it their fault what happens to CX's mom - it's just his bad luck. SQ is only 12 years old at the time, has received zero moral guidance in his upbringing and is scared and confused about being "abnormal" because of his same-s*x attraction. Something that I'm sure a lot of homosexuals still experience in many places around the world to this day. Sure, young SQ is an a**hole, but he's also a victim of a prejudiced society and pressure from his peers.

I almost spit out blood while they are on hot spring and the ML have a fling to one of the hot spring's guest on his back and suddenly get tired of MC and create a distant between them (MIA) and come back as he pleases to like a scumbag move he is

so this SQ is just intend to make LCX as his plaything (he even say he loved LCX when they meet again after more than ten year... (eventhough it's true, but he didn't realize it first... but later he got his retribution, served him). and this LCX, he just a little s*upid that he easily believed whatever SQ say to him, but later he knew the truth and the chaotic long journey about their hide and seek or run and chase period is began...

and there is an uncle (not really but I like to say so (he described as handsome and mature thirty someting) which is I feel pity at first bc LCX just give him so much hope (why though? if you don't want to be alone you don't need to waste anyone's time to find their true love), but later when I see him for the second time together with SQ's sister go to confront SQ to take LCX back, I was like why you must bring his sister to confront SQ, can't you go by yourself? since then I longer feel pity toward him (he got his own novel though)

It broke my heart that MC's first time was r*ped by that man! ML is such a jerk, a f*cken ass hole, manipulative, a player, and a rapist! I'm in so much pain reading this. I can't even breath!!! Omg!!! MC was manipulated into being a mistress! Cheating tooo!!!! WTF! I hate him! Cheating while on a vocation and after he already slept with MC, he did it with a stranger!!!! Ch27 This guy is a scum! Ahhhh the pain! I can't even handle this! The only good thing this scum ever did was get MC to quit work and go back to school. He physically abused MC, hit and r*ped!!!! OMG nooo! No!!! Ch 32 I can't.., I've been biting my nails the whole novel! At this rate I won't have any left! Every chapter is a knife stabbing at my heart. I can't help but to cry out loud every now and then!

(the so called crematorium part is not so much since he staged the ICU portion and also secretly got a surrogacy lady using Cheng Xiu's sperm then using the baby to coax Cheng Xiu to stay with him. That's super low of him to use a kid as a trump to keep Cheng Xiu by his side. Even when they are together with the kid in tow, Shao Qun did not have any sense of responsibility towards the kid. He just find him noisy and interferring with his love life with Cheng Xiu.)

Okay f*ck I wasn't gonna write this because I have forgiven him for what he did when they were still a teen. It is understandble. Boys at that age are the most curious and impulsive. I understand it.

BUT F*CK! I know he doesn't treat MC as an equal. Okay, he is treating him really well (sh*t no. He treats MC as a PET. LOL) and has this temper but for him to actually cheat behind him. To have the guts to say that MC doesn't trust him, bro, I think you are sick! I am nauseous thinking MC is with this sh*t ML. F*CK YOU! I HOPE YOUR D*CK WILL ROT! I especially hate people who are intimate (cheating) to others when they are in a relationship. It's disgusting.

ML, YOU ARE F*CKING GETTING MARRIED AND YOU THINK MC WONT LEAVE YOU? PLEASE GIVE HIM A BIT OF RESPECT! I'm so mad about this thing, MC does not deserve to be treated this way! He is so precious T.T

I wished he didn't end up with ML. MC is better with the second ML. I am so sad.

I understand the ML's side though, he is just too manipulated by what kind of family brought him. He is mentally derailed but lets give him a chance. I am okay as long as MC is willing and happy to spend the rest of his life with him. Actually, MC didn't actually suffer that long compared to other MC of angst novel like this one. ML actually suffered more here because of his (ML) s*upidity about how to love a person.

Both of them are deeply hurt. I just want the both of them to be happy and be set free from the past.

I sympathize with the second ML. I hope he could find someone who can love him back unconditionally and be happy. When second ML asked MC to live together in US because second ML can't go back to China due to being framed by ML, I really hate MC when he hesitated to go. Bro, I understand you, but for the sake of the relationship of you and second ML, I had hope that you could at least try to go out of your comfort zone. You can't be inside your shell forever. You want happiness, but don't take a step to chase the happiness that you want. You think second ML's business is more important than you? You broke up with him just because ML told you he will not trample on second ML anymore if he separated from second ML. What a naive and s*upid MC. It's fortunate that he found someone, finally. He can be happy.

I love how the ML suffered in this novel, he has come a long way, and he deserves a third chance with the MC.

The appearance of the third ML is a game changer. HAHAHAHA. He is so cute. Btw, he is a 19 year old boy who has a one-sided crush to MC xD

The ending of the main story and the extras are just so beautiful.

he eventually just says f*ck it, this is too much work, let me just r*pe him. He called his friends, who also bullied the MC and they forced the MC to get drunk than the ML took advantage of him when he was still struggling against him despite the drinks and gaslighted him in the morning after... Yeah

I guess xiao quns had a rough childhood too like chengxiu. one had gone insane and one keep fighting to survive. 97% of the story is basically li chengxiu's suffering and moving out house to house, Sissy only describe his appearance and I admire him hes fcking mentality and physically strong. And we definitely deserve to know shao quns past, he craves a lot of attention causing his sociopath gayass got depressed