"s*xual desire, material desire, appetite—these superficial desires sound fine and dandy, but in truth, they only give you a temporary sense of satisfaction. It's like physical stimulation, you have to continuously amp up the intensity to be able to feel new stimulation, so none of it is particularly meaningful, and the more you indulge, the harder it is to achieve it. Do you think I should look up to someone like Lu Wenxing, a man who can't even control his lower body?"

now that was deep and rare from an omegaverse stories

I definitely thought the MC said a couple of things in the first hospital scene that were terribly mean and cruel to the ML, his husband. But on the other hand, it also showed his immaturity and youthful pride and gave a very realistic flavor to his "regression" in time.

The student him absolutely could not imagine himself with an alpha or omega (in a way, he, a beta, was biased against those "favored" of society because society was biased against betas) and grew those spikes to protect himself.

I was very impressed with the author showing us the world with limited information through the MC's shoes. Because of his amnesia and suspicious nature, the ML's family seemed like a group of psycho axe mu*derers ready to slaughter and eat their enemies. There were literally conspiracies hiding behind every door, under every piece of carpet, and ghosts in every room.

As the story continued, those conspiracies slowly came to light and the people who seemed to have long monstrous shadows in the dark, were unveiled to be more like small shadow puppets, lacking the power they used to have.

this novel is special because it brought me out of a long reading dump <3 the plot and narration is simple but enticing, very similar to the authors other work 'star around the moon'.

xia wennan is cute and sprintly, very emblematic of a fresh university student. Hes also very crafty and intelligent, with a natural predisposition for curiosity, and extremely nosy into ming luchuan's family affairs lol. I like how he bounces back from the shock reasonably fast, and then completely dedicates himself to finding answers and closure without a care in the world whether hes offending ming luchuan or his family. It makes his antics throughout the whole story very fun to read hehe.

i like his commentary about the injustice of an abo world where ao stand on top of the hierarchy and betas are the monotonous and ordinary worker ants that make up the masses. Despite that, hes never once ashamed nor spiteful of his standing in society, instead chosing to leave his mark in history through hard work. And his perspectives of how betas are like outsiders to a world of pheromones that only ao can understand is touching, and somewhat sad, but then I absolutely love how he was able to incorporate that complex feeling into his products. The idea that betas will never be privy to this form of intimacy, but are still able to love and be loved just as strongly through other means. He sees his relationship with ming luchuan like a 'one way passage' where he can perceive ming luchuan's emotions through his pheromones but will never be able to reciprocate back in the same way, so instead he communicates his love through words, body language, and perfumes :') hes such a romantic despite being such a blockhead sometimes <3

and the plot twist in the end??? Good lord I know the author dropped a bunch of hints but it never occured to me that the twins SWITCHED PLACES. Im f*cking shell shocked.

honestly the whole family is so bizzare. Weird vibes from the start. Ming luchuans dad especially lmfao the mfer dates people younger than his own kids like ????

Is he still an ass? Yes, but now he's a more confident ass who wants to and will give ML all the love in the world. In the beginning, I sometimes wanted to beat his ass; then, he became a likable ass I rooted for.

ML is so very insecure in love, yet utterly wants to be loved by someone. Imagine having been neglected all your life with no one who wants to love you and now thinking someone finally loves you so much that they proposed to you, even though you don't really understand why they fell in love with you. Then to continually hear that person say after amnesia that they would never fall in love with someone like you, that you must have blackmailed or forced them, that you're worth less than money. In less than my polite terms here. And also be skeptical and untrusting of your every word and action like you're always a conniving liar.