One Night, One Day, One Year, One Lifetime


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That night, I listened to the hymns till dawn, not for serenity, but to seek a sliver of your soul;

That month, I flipped through all the scriptures, not for enlightenment, but to touch the pages where your fingers once lingered;

That year, I knelt on the grounds, my head embracing the dusts, not to pay obeisance to the Gods, but to feel the warmth you left behind;

That life, I wandered through ten thousand great mountains, not in search for an afterlife, but to cross paths with you –

Gao Fei, do you believe that I lived through this night, this day, this year, and this lifetime, only to hold your hand and accompany you in this journey of life?

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New tomatoblush
August 4, 2020
Status: --
My first time reading Chinese novel, I dont regret it.

It's written beautifully, and translated beautifully. I love this. I love how author portrayed how MC feels. The story is angst and I cry my eyes out in every chapter. Now I can barely lift my eyelid because it feels so heavy as if a stone patched in it.

The FL is really transparent, and her love is indeed so pure. We can feel her sincere heart through the writing. Otherwise, the ML is a man of few words. He can't recognize... more>> his own feeling. He can't even be honest to his own self till the end. <<less
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New Mononichu rated it
July 29, 2020
Status: Completed
Ok I cried from the beginning to the end of this book. All I’m gonna say is that these characters are so dimensional and experience so many spectrums of emotions that they seem like real life people. That’s what made this book so haunting and all the more heart wrenching, In all it’s twisted glory. Definitely a book I could read many times over.
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Arrange rated it
April 20, 2019
Status: c13

My eyes are currently blurred by the tears when I'm trying to write this review.

It all started from love at first sight, He Yijin was a pitiful child. I wouldn't call her autistic, but she certainly had a difficult time being misunderstood by everyone. She is a quiet child who keeps everything inside. She deserved so much, yet everyone, even life itself, they all took away something from her poor existence. The only unconditional love she received, was from his father. The only person that gave her his love willingly.

For every 'Gao Fei, I love you.' she said, my heart was stabbed as tear overflowed. She was so cute and yet so tragic. At that time I thought, is this some kind of Greek mythology where everyone is sad in some way or what?... And it was at that moment that I jinxed myself, yet again.

Now let's talk about Gao Fei. Gao Fei... Gao Fei...

How can I say it nicely... He's a pitiful bastard.

You received so much, yet gave so little. And when you decided to give something, there was no one on the other side waiting for you anymore. You were late. Yes, I can understand that forced marriage is never a good start for a relationship, but if the other party shows the same sincerity throughout the years of your constant cold treatment. She's a keeper, but you were a blind and stubborn man that needed to be that much of a jerk because of your wounded dignity, your s*upid wounded ego.

After her death, Gao Fei, you showed some kind of regrets even though you deny them. You keep comparing your wife with her. Hahaha... What a pitiful bastard you really are. You just can't realize how much her existence really meant in your life, can you?

Even when faced with the truth, when everyone realized what you are so desperately trying to deny. You still refused to acknowledge it as you try to put back broken shard of a mirror of your former self. You. Pitiful. Bastard.

It's not He Yijin who couldn't let go, it was you who couldn't do it. Slowly descending into a spiral of madness, you lost everything you once deemed to be your "perfect" everything. Watching as your reality crumbles when you still try to fake it. Your retribution really brought me joy and satisfaction, but also added on the hollowness that I was feeling.

You couldn't even fulfill her last wish. Gao Fei not only you are a pitiful bastard, but you are also a selfish one. It was fate who gave you the chance to choose between life and death and yet you choose the latter gladly. Welcoming it with a smile on your face as you wished to be able to see her again. At least, you realize it. He Yijin was the one.

Still, hidden under my cynical words, I am hoping that in another lifetime both of you could have a happy end written on the last page.

My condolences and my prayers for the protagonists of this tragedy.

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Yi rated it
November 5, 2017
Status: Completed
" This is the story of me and He Yujin" were the last word spoken by the Gao Fei.

It is a great and also sad novel. Make you realize that each person has his or her reason for doing what he or she did. Once He Yujin leaves, Gao Fei realizes his feeling for her but is too late. I think he lives in regret, regretting that he did not cherish her enough when she was alive.

I have to say that I have never cried a bucketload of tears during... more>> and after reading a novel. Even the tears of Mulberry song (also a very sad story where the male lead keep thinking about the FL after her death) cannot compare with the tears I shed for this one. It is a very captivating and at the same time heartbreaking story.

If you can understand Chinese you should listen to the audio of this novel. <<less
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jkmessah rated it
November 4, 2017
Status: Completed
I was not expecting that. I read the first two chapters and just had to go through Google translate to find out the rest.

I will say this now, there is a lot of pain in this story and when the tag says tragedy, they mean it. The characters were developed beautifully and the story was poignant.

You don't always treasure what you have until you lose it. For just under 15 ish chapters you get a story of loving and hating. The only story that comes to mind with similar ways... more>> of engaging you is The Mulberry Song which I also highly recommend.

Please give this a try and prepare tissues. <<less
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EmmaKat4800 rated it
December 15, 2018
Status: Completed
I cried really hard. This story is from two perspectives. It is about love, and how it destroys us.

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Everybody over here seems to like ML, but honestly, I feel for FL more. She was dying. She didn't have much of a choice. Would she live the last two years of her life watching the one she loves date someone else? Would she tell him about her illness and beg him to pretend with her? No. She wanted love, not pity. She wanted to love, too. Honestly, I think this was the closest she could've possibly gotten to happiness. The ML could've had a happier ending if he faced his feelings and admitted he loved FL, but he didn't. He chose to be stubborn. He chose to be unhappy. FL didn't have that choice. She loved and she loved and she did everything she possibly could to get him to love her back, and she even succeeded in the end, even if ML never admitted it. ML's story is a tragedy, but it's a tragedy because he himself made it one. FL's story is a tragedy because of her illness and because of ML. That is not the same thing.

I am not of the camp that thinks ML deserves his tragic ending, but he chose it for himself. He could've gone to the psychologist. He could've told FL he loves her. He could've reached out to his family instead of isolating himself in a house FILLED with memories of FL. But he didn't.

And don't tell me FL could've chosen to get treatment. The doctors told her there wasn't a chance for her to get better. She was going to die no matter what. She chose happiness. She chose to live the remainder of her life with the person she loves, even if he didn't love her back. She chose to tell him every day that she loved him. She had no living family. Her friend left her. This was the most happiness she could get. I agree that she made decisions that hurt other people, and I agree that she needs to face the consequences of those actions, but that doesnt make her situation any less tragic. Anyway, sorry for the ramble.


Overall, it was a really good story. I loved how the emotions were portrayed and how some things were hinted at instead of said outright. It was beautiful. Thank you. <<less
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K_araxx rated it
November 4, 2017
Status: Completed
During the entire read I was struggling to hold down my tears. The story was too beautiful and much to well written. The emotions that He Yujin had for Gao Fei was heartbreaking, and beautiful. To continue reading was a hard mental choice in itself. But all in all a beautiful tragedy that I can't help but love even though it brought me waterfalls of tears.
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Umi Aslam rated it
September 4, 2018
Status: Completed
There love story began here to end here.

I cried so much. I love this story so very much.

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By author/translator


He Yujin; Gao Fei. One was insane while she lived, while the other was forced to insanity as he lived.

Their love ended before it could begin. He Yujin will never know that, even without realising it, Gao Fei had already come to love her, and Gao Fei will never have the chance to tell her that, it turns out, his love for her was no less than hers for him.

He Yujin loved too much; Gao Fei loved too late.

And Gao Fei paid the price for his pride and stubbornness. He led a colourless life without her. He walked on the streets, looking at all the other couples, and felt like an outsider to the happiness others enjoyed. Even as he searched, even as his marriage crumbled, still, he did not find an excuse for him to say, it's over, to end his life, all because He Yujin wished for him to be happy

That moment, I ascended to the Heavens and became immortal, not for an eternal life, but to watch over you for a lifetime of peace and



There is one kind of love

I love you, and this has nothing to do with you, but I love you.

There is another kind of love

I hate you, and I will never love you, but I will follow you in your death.

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maiha-sama rated it
November 19, 2017
Status: c13
This was a great read. Tragically heartbreaking. The flow and writing was simple but beautiful and you can really see the characters develop. Considering it was only 13 chapters, the author did a great job of showing us two viewpoints and evoking feelings for them both. There are so many novels that dedicate tens of chapters but fail to elicit a sliver of pity or understanding for their characters. The only other novel that was as short and effective was probably Mulberry Song.

I didn't agree with so many decisions He... more>> Yujin and Gao Fei made. Despite that, I wanted to truly understand what drove them to make those flawed decisions.


They say "Death is a Tragedy.. But only for the Living". Gao Fei went back to his regular life and he tried his best to deceive himself into thinking this was what he wanted. The more he lived, the more boxed in he felt, more detached. I like how the details of Fei's mental illness are not revealed explicitly.. Just tidbits peppered throughout. It allows you to imagine the extent and severity of his love for Yujin and how deeply he has deceived himself. I've found his character is really memorable - the price you have to pay for being too prideful and too stubborn


I must add, the translation is clean and seamless - translator does a fab job with all her novels.

Anyway, you should read this. <<less
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odanezz0_3 rated it
November 28, 2017
Status: c13
I cried so much, but I'm really happy I read this novel. I really recommend it to everyone.

But the I read his side of the story and surprisenly I started to understand where he was coming from but I still feel he was to prideful and hard headed... Aah but that last paragraph.

MANNY SPOILER READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!!! (sorry I couldn't put the spoiler thingy I just open this account so I'm not really good at it 😓😟😳🙁 I tried but I couldn't)

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I really hated the ML when I read the FL POV and when

his POV started and he started to live his life and move on I was all like "Oh hell no!! 😡 he actually is moving on so easy WTH! He trully never Loved the MC P. S. especially when he wanted to have a baby with the new wife (it made cry after remember in how the MC wanted to give him a baby, well to tie him more to her (a bit cray cray) but then she discover she couldn't have kids that broke my heart 😢😧

BUT then this

"Before He Yujin died, she said that she only wished for me to lead a peaceful and happy life, and I had lived my life carrying out her wishes.

I remarried; worked hard at work; did not think of her; did not seek death.

I tried my best to live in happiness –

But a traffic accident was not something within my control.

Nor could I have known that I would divorce, just as I could never have known that I would meet with a traffic accident.

So, when she met me once again, she could not blame me. She must not blame me.

Slowly, my tears began to fall. I saw He Yujin's face, the face which I had been waiting for several years. The Heavens knew how many times I yearned to reach out, using my five fingers to touch her face. Gently, just like a lover, caressing her face.

If I met her, no, I would definitely meet her, for I had done so much just to meet her –

We would cross paths in the skies, and within the endless clouds, I would say, 'Hi, He Yujin. I'm Gao Fei, let's be friends.'

Then, I would become her husband.

If she had already found a new relationship there, I would use every means possible to destroy her relationship and family to become her husband.

My story with He Yujin began to end here..... "]
I seriously came to hate and then loved both characters especially the ML, when you read his part you kind of get hints of how much he misses her and of how he started to go insane and even imagining the MC and they're past life & how maybe how they're life would of been. If only they had started their relationship in a different way or if they had talked it out aaah! But the if's or perhaps dont exit and if they had existed in this novel then this novel wouldn't of be as great as it is and the author did an amaizing job portraying such a heart wrenching and bitter sweet story of a love or better put, of lovers that miss their time to love....
I would also like to thank the translator she did an amazing job, translating this it was really really well written and the things she wrote on the last chapter where my exact sentiments of understanding of this story which was very tragic and its sad to read how they could of but they didn't have a happy ending since I'm a very childish person I will imagine they do reunite in heaven or in a different life and they have their happy ending... I wrote to much I'ts just I can't move on from this novel jet (even do I just read it last night, I will definitely reread this novel again and again in the future)

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Neneee rated it
July 7, 2019
Status: Completed
The story is very heartbreaking, it's definitely not something you should read before going to sleep if you wish for a peaceful sleep.

My feelings towards the FL and the ML are rather complicated.
For one, I can't agree with the way they're dealing their feelings, so I can't say that I really like them.

For example the way the FL pursues the ML. Also I can understand that the FL hurt the ML and that he believes that he hates her. But later on, when his feelings change, it feels as if he's not just punishing her for the things she has done, but also because he can't accept his change.

However I pity each and every character of the story. Starting from the FL, who longed for someone who isn't hers and was satisfied with far too little. The ML, who was never able to be true to himself. The second FL, who maybe should have known better and shouldn't have waited in the first place. All the families and friends and even the potential second ML.
And needless to say, I cried buckets.

I completely lost myself at the part, where the ML realized that he had only one picture of the FL, which he just destroyed.

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November 21, 2017
Status: c13
I was crying buckets.. I recommend this novel. It's short but there is this part where you can sympathize with the characters. Both the FL and ML loved each other, but while the FL loved the ML, the ML have never reciprocated her love. He only realized until he died. He rejected his yearning toward the FL, but love can never be predictable. A hate and love are intersected. Maybe you hate that person but over time you will learn to also love that person. Maybe you love that person... more>> but next time you will also hate that person. Feelings are unpredictable and also love.

WOW! I just love that novel. It make my heart squeezed dry. Why is it a short novel. Well!! You should just read it.

(Thanks if there's reading to this review. I just like need to force this feeling!) <<less
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Chuki Yuuki
Chuki Yuuki
June 30, 2020
Status: Completed
Somewhere out there, there are people who had made the same choices, committed the same mistakes and have the same regrets as these characters. The story of these characters started off really wrong/in the wrong foot and ended up too late to make any amends.

Personally, I think what made this novel such a masterpiece because it hits reality too close. It does not provide the happy ending or the happy feeling that we seek and crave in our usual novels to escape our own worries or life. This, this wonderful... more>> piece, made you think of life and love and love and life and all the baggage that comes with it and reminds you again: life is such an oddball, you don't know where it'll take you, what it'll give you- bliss or pain.


The one who suggested this story to me told me to make an analysis of the characters so here it is:

He Yujin: this girl has been sick, bullied and never experienced real love asides from her father and her Aunt (their previous caretaker) her whole life. Thats why when she saw someone who she treasures (Gao Fei, love at first sight) and when she thinks she's showing her love to someone dear to her (her friend) she does it with all her might to achieve it. But heck, she doesn't even know how to properly convey her feelings which is pretty obvious on the way she agreed on doing extreme means to obtain her love and helping her friend to obtain hers. She knew it was wrong, but what other options she have? She was desperate and yearning for it, she's obviously not thinking straight and other options weren't even considered or thought of. She thought she was doing something good when she was 'helping' her friend. She thought she can acquire the love of the man she covets if she persists enough (well, in a way she really did). She was the character who poses a lot of 'what-ifs.' What if she didn't agreed to her dad's plans? What if she didn't push herself to Gao Fei? What if she normally lets life take its course? Will she and Gao Fei still end up together or will she be happy with someone else and Gao Fei to Su Jiangjing? Again, those are what-ifs and will remain as so.

Frankly, her fault to me is only these: she loves so much, too much. That fault of hers is her downfall and her redemption. It was admirable and pitiful really, when all she ever wanted was to spend the remainder of her life besides the man she loves with her whole being, serving him, simply content by just watching him and being by his side even if her feelings were never reciprocated, her actions and deeds were never appreciated and acknowledge and her own existence treated as a thorn to her husband's life. She was willing to give up her life for him. Because for her, the only reason she existed is for her to love him.

Gao Fei: I hated to see this guy spiral down to insanity even though it was never acknowledge. If you think about it, he doesn't deserve it. As his parents in the novel stated, "This shouldn't be happening. This shouldn't have happened, " because it really isn't meant to be. He has a bright future ahead of him, he was filial and kind, but what did life gave him? Tragedy. His life destroyed by marrying a woman he doesn't love; his own parents, traumatized and one of them became an invalid; his one true love, broken up, pieced together and broken again; and most of all his wife; he truly hated her, but sometime, he never realized that he had fallen too because he clung unto that hate, disgust and resentment he feels for her which blinded him greatly. He realized the truth too late and it caused his spiral downwards : (

Truthfully, it will be a hard pill to swallow when you realize that you have fallen inlove with the woman who basically destroyed your life. I don't blame him for this. And kudos to He Yujin, because really, who wouldn't fall for a girl so dedicated like her? It's hard to find a person who will love you whole heartedly, so devotedly and unconditionally. A person who lives just to love you with all her being. *Sniffs*

Su Jiangjing: I suppose she is just another victim of circumstances. The man she loves was taken away from her and when she thought she finally got him back, boom! His mind and heart had long been in disarray and thoroughly snatched by someone else. It is hard to love someone who doesn't love you back as much as you do love them. It is hard to stay beside a person, no matter how kind Gao Fei is to her, who is making you a scapegoat in life and is never fully aware of you. All she ever wants is for Gao Fei to love her back but it was too late, too many things have changed and happened.

While I say those, I am actually having a hard time connecting with her. I cannot believe she just abandoned her husband and ABORTED THEIR CHILD JUST LIKE THAT. Yes, I understand her reasons but heck, you just can't abandon someone with mental issues like that, you just can't abandon someone you LOVE. She already know he has one, and while a direct confrontation is needed, I seriously think she could have done it in a better way and actually coaxed her husband slowly to do her wishes. But no, she went guns ablazing and so she kiss goodbye to her dreams. AND HER MOTHER IS SUCH A FREAKING b*tch, while Gao Fei takes no offense in her words, WHY I f*ckING DO IN BEHALF OF GAO FEI.


And I rest my case. If you read up until this point then thank you for doing so. You are amazing and may you find happiness in love unlike these characters! ♡ <<less
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Ginko Biloba rated it
June 28, 2020
Status: c13
This series killed me and my heart. It took my heart then smashed it into pieces and like it wasn't enough, it took the little pieces and hammered it until it was nothing but dust then flushed it into the toilet.

Bothe the ML and MC are stubborn and have faults they are not perfect and that stubborness of theirs lead to their doom. If only one of them have learned to let go earlier then something might have changed in what happened to their story and something might have been... more>> left of my poor little heart.

The author did a good job in how they wrote the story (and their writing style really stabbed my heart and every chapter twists that knife lodged in my heart until the last chapter pulled it out to let all my blood gush out and lead me to death) and the translator did an excellent job in conveying the story the way the author probably wanted to convey it (and reading the translator's responses and explanations in the comments section is akin to pouring gas and lighting me on fire after I was stabbed by the knife).

This novel has turned me into a masochist every chapter gives me unbearable pain and torture but it was so beautiful I couldn't stop myself from reading it. <<less
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karwasama rated it
January 6, 2020
Status: c13
I don't even know where to start with this.

The author is truly amazing for having packed so much emotional punch in such a short story. I'll get into the actual plot/content later, but can we just acknowledge how beautiful her writing style is? It was poetic yet comprehensive, and I often found myself rereading the same line over and over just to savor how well the words flowed with each other. (I'll also take this time to point out the absolutely phenomenal job the translator did with this work. Seriously.... more>> No errors whatsoever, and the change in languages did not detract a single bit from my reading experience. It's ridiculously hard to convey the same emotions when you're translating, but somehow, the translator accomplished it. So, massive kudos to them.) Her use of the unreliable narrator, the ambiguous wording that literally means one thing but actually implies another, and figurative language as a whole was very impressive.

Now, onto the story itself:


For starters, the MC is an inherently kind but also extremely naive girl who has the misfortune of coming from a rich family. And yes, you read that right, misfortune. Because she has lived such a pampered life, the MC has a somewhat detestable character trait of being relentless in getting what she wants. When she first meets the ML and falls in love with him, she does everything in her power to get him -- to the point where her father even kidnaps the ML's parents to get him to marry her. This, to put it lightly, is pretty despicable and is blackmail at best. In any other story, I would have hated her.

But the MC is also aware of her despicable actions. She is so understanding that what she has done is unforgivable, to the point where she is able to tolerate (even welcome, in some cases) the ML's neglect and loathing because she thinks she deserves it. Is the MC right? Part of me wants to say yes -- because of her interference, the ML's parents had to suffer through that ordeal, she caused him to break up with his girlfriend, and she was essentially forcing someone who doesn't love her to marry her. She needs some kind of punishment for that, doesn't she?

Only, it's not that simple. If someone steals a dollar from you, then to balance out the injustice they can just give a dollar back. You can't measure retribution for emotional trauma or for wrecking someone's life. Because MC does, in fact, suffer tremendously in her marriage with the ML. She leaves the luxuries of her old life and waits on the ML night and day. When he is cruel to her, and my lord does he say some of the cruelest things, she accepts them with apologies and "I love you"s to spare. She endures his implied unfaithfulness, the rejection of anything related to her, his disgust at her very existence. We also later figure out that the MC has a terminal illness that will take her life and causes her much pain. Her father, her last family member in the world, dies as well.

Isn't this enough karma for what she has done to him? I most certainly think so.

Another reason why I don't hate her (even though I feel like I should) is that she just loved the ML so much. The scene where she starts to prepare his birthday dinner early in the day only to become paralyzed because of her illness was my first indication that she was just a hopeless, miserable fool in love. She had the chance to stop the pain. Her phone was right there -- she could have called him and asked the ML to deliver the medicine to suppress her illness. Only, she didn't. Why? Because she didn't want to ruin the birthday surprise, and probably in part because she didn't want to inconvenience him/ruin his mood with her presence.


I'm not finished with this review, but I'm crying too hard to continue writing. Maybe, when I find this story less heart wrenching, I will come back. Maybe not. But if you're wondering whether or not to read, I only have this to say: please do.

4.5/5 stars <<less
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Jay0000 rated it
December 30, 2019
Status: c13
If you want a beautiful yet sad love story... Well is it really a love story? I think it is more to love and regrets since love story sounds a bit happy ending.

She loves too much and he loves too late. I want to believe that they will meet in another life but I heard that if you commit suicide, you cant reincarnate.

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Bookworm_Sueweetie rated it
September 7, 2019
Status: Completed
This might not considered as typical romance story. As the translators noted, the leads' feelings are not the 3-dimensional love that most people wanted to paint.

I feel that both lead characters were different to other novels' leads that I've read before. Both of them have flaws that made them unforgettable and still can easily understand where these attitudes are coming from.

They're both mentally/ emotionally unstable. The FL is the sheltered daddy's girl being reckless and stubborn... while the ML is prideful, hateful, cold and trying to bottled his feelings.... more>> It's also quite opposite here, bc the girl was the one who used her power to get the guy.

I hated some of FL's deeds to get the ML... But despite her love being considered as obsesssive, ML realized that her love is also unconditional bc she accepted his flaws and imperfections making ML missed her. I think she's autistic or something with psychological problem.

The whole story was painful. In the end, the ML revealed that he's already seeking death to follow the FL... but he still tried to fulfill the FL's last wish by being "happy" so that she will not blame him in the afterlife even he failed.

The scene truly shot my heart was when he's hallucinating that the FL is still alive and pregnant with his child... and when he was on verge of dying, he promised that will do the same strategy that FL did to get him even if she'll hate him... so she can be his wife in the next life. <<less
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Darla9999 rated it
May 10, 2019
Status: --
An exceptionally beautifully written story.

As a die hard fan of tragedy I have to say, that this story is the one of the most simplistic yet realistic day to day life story U have ever read.

I spent the last chapters crying buckets, feeling frustrated and but unable to stop reading. The ending had a beautiful conclusion, so different from the cliche ones.
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08phamann rated it
January 12, 2019
Status: c13
To be completely honest, I wasn't completely a fan of this novel. This type of love, the obsessive and selfish type of love that ignores the wishes and dignity of the other person, and superimposes the other person's definition of love, is not my style. I thought that He Yujin was totally in the wrong in the way she pursued Gao Fei. Her forcing love form him, when he clearly initially felt none, was not satisfying at all. Hopeing that Gai Fei will eventually fall in love with He Yijin... more>> is like hoping someone who is kidnapped will develop stockholm syndrome towards their kidnapper. That is not really my type of romance, although I do know there are lots of people out there who are into that type of thing. The ending from Gai Fei's POV did not really make me that sad either. It did not move me like I would have liked it it. Yes, I understand it was a depiction of his slow descent into insanity, where everyone buy him can tell he was functioning, but not fully there. Not now that He Yujin is gone. But I just didn't feel it. <<less
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xpotatoknight rated it
May 16, 2018
Status: Completed
I liked this story and thought that the author really highlighted the ugly sides of love instead of how it's so pure and innocent.

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My favorite character was the FL. She was obsessive in love and did any means she possibly could to get into the heart of the man she loved. She accepted everything from him, including his hate because how much she loved him. I think one of her biggest flaw was that she didn't really know how to love someone so she did it recklessly. I could only admire how hard she tried and in the end wasn't even sad. She just wanted a bit of happiness in her short time that she had left. I don't agree with the way she went about things, but she was desperate and hopelessly in love. She got what she wanted and had her own happy ending.

I disliked the ML. I understand his hatred for the FL because she messed up the lives of his parents and his past relationship to be with him, but even when she was gone, he was so adamant about how much he hated her and how she ruined everything for him after she was gone. His life went back to normal when FL died, but it was his own fault his relationship with his 2nd marriage went down the drain. My biggest annoyance with him was how he denied his feelings, and refused to give up thoughts of FL when he had already started a new life, thus causing misery for the 2nd girl.

Honestly, had the FL not died, nothing would have changed until they both died from old age. He would always blame her and continue to hate her for the rest of his life and she would continue to be by his side smiling happily, telling him "I love you".

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Xuxu Nan
Xuxu Nan
November 24, 2017
Status: --
Is obsessive love really love? Is hatred really love?

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I don't know how I feel about this story.... it's disturbing. Basically the guy hated her with reason and just wanted to resist the coercion, but it seems he was moved by the devotion and forgot his first love and in the end the one he loves most is the FL.

You can destroy his life, hurt his family, destroy his love to get him. As long as you manage to force yourself on him, just be a little patient, you will treat him so well that he will madly fall for you...a little scary nah?

Yes he never reciprocated (which is fair) but he did fall for her... that's the real tragedy to me lol.

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BigKia29 rated it
November 18, 2017
Status: Completed
I agree 100% to Anastrisha. I rated it 3stars because the way it is written and translated was good, more than good to be honest but on several occasions throughout the story I want to smash my laptop (no joke).

ps: this is like the ugly twin of A Game to Make Him Fall
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