My Wife Always Thought I Did Not Love Him

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A car accident made Xia Yao return to his third year of high school, he finally has the opportunity to make up for everything he regrets. The mistakes that have been made can now be mended. So when Xia Yao once again meets Zhou Du, the target of his unrequited love, he decides to choose a completely different route.

If you don’t love me, then I’m willing to set you free.

However, things seem to turn out completely different than what Xia Yao expected.

Before rebirth—

Xia Yao: I like you.

Zhou Du: What did you say?

After rebirth—

Zhou Du: I like you.

Xia Yao: I only see you as a classmate.

Zhou Du: ……【But that’s not what your diary said!】

Also known as 《A love affair triggered by a diary》

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MWR
Xífù Zǒng Yǐwéi Wǒ Bù ài Tā
媳妇总以为我不爱他 (重生)
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Farid_san
New Farid_san rated it
October 5, 2019
Status: c70
sigh..., when some novels are extremely good and interesting but the translation are so slow and even get abandoned, while some other novel doesnt really got an interesting plot yet the translator are brilliant and nicely done... the world are so unfair T_T

i give this story a five stars purely to respect the hardwork of the translator since they're truly did a good job, as for the story alone hmm, , , , just like many reviewers upstairs already said, it has an interesting idea as a whole, yet the... more>> actual story doesnt really stand up that much.

i expect something interesting from the summary, since it looks like the MC decided to avoid the ML after rebirth, and yet it's not happening. I thought since the MC was reborn he'll difinitely more mature, and yet the dog blood drama still happening between MC and ML. Im thoroughly dissapointed to be honest. Since the MC already reborn and already confirm that the ML truly love him why didn't the MC believe him and try to communicate better with him? The failure of their love at the past was due to bad communication, and the unnecessary misunderstanding at the new life also due to communication. Seriously, just what's the use of your reborn then my beloved MC?? :' (The reborn plot actually doesnt really have much influence at the story. At the end, its just another "angsty-misunderstanding-dog blood-youth-romance-drama"

The MC thought that ML was still immature and hasnt grown up yet so he endure every single of his problems alone. Seriously, im agree with some sister upstair that said MC with tendencies to suffer alone is annoying. Out of 70 chapters almost half of it was full of dog blood drama about misunderstanding.

LOL, even though I said all of that I still endure myself to read it to the end of the chapter. even though I want to flip my table and my pc so harshly, I still gritted my teeth and continue with the story since I dont want to waste my time before without gaining anything LOL. Fortunately at the latter chapter all the misunderstandings are resolved. Still, there are so many loop holes and unnecessary dog blood drama, sigh... this is why im not too fond of typical modern BL stories, its too much drama <<less
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LadyBlue
LadyBlue rated it
August 15, 2017
Status: c16
Premise- XiaYao & Zhou Du have been together for 7 yrs. However, Xia Yao feels like Zhou Du does not love him and decides to break up. However, both of them have a car accident when returning home. And XiaYao finds himself 7 yrs in the past, in his high school days, just before he confesses to Zhou Du.

He decides not to confess to Zhou Du this time. However, ZH finds XY's diary (and never gives it back) and is like, "your diary says you love me so why are... more>> you avoiding me!!!!!!. ZY seems to be quite tsundere lol. From the first chapter it's quite clear that ZH loves XY, however, the misunderstanding seems to be because XY kinda blackmails ZY to date him, and has always felt guilty about it. ZY seems to have a hard time expressing his emotions. This novel has quite a bit of drama with just the right amount of sweetness. I recommend it to people who like cuddly, fluffy, dramatic romances <<less
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PotatoCakes
PotatoCakes rated it
June 7, 2018
Status: Completed
This novel's premise is incredibly interesting - the rebirth scenario is set up well in the beginning. However, the whole point of rebirth is that the MC have foreknowledge of events that will occur. However, events that did not occur in the original timeline randomly appear (even though the MC's actions couldn't have possibly triggered these new events). At that point, the whole premise of rebirth was cheapened.

The characters themselves were likeable enough, nothing revolutionary. The emotional aspect was done really well, which is rare for Chinese BL novels. The... more>> ending and everything after high school felt like a pointless Korean drama. Translation quality is okay. <<less
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Soleus
Soleus
August 20, 2017
Status: c4
I just started reading the novel but can already grasp that a really big misunderstang is going on btwn these two. Obviously both are in love with each other in their previous life but one is too stubborn (tsundere) & the other is feeling guilty over his method of obtaining his love. Cannot wait to see how their love will progress this time around since the MC's love interest will confess first. (&Gt;_<)

Love the translation. Glad they picked this up.
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Honey B
Honey B rated it
May 15, 2019
Status: c55
First, I must say, the translation was brilliant. No complaints from them. Part of why I didn't give it less stars.

Second, the story started pretty good. The sweetness between the MC and ML was cute. Loved it at first...

Then around chapter 50 the story pissed me the F*CK off!!

... more>> How are you a grown man that came from a previous life still acting so d*man naive? What was the point of him getting a second chance at life??

He got a do over and yet he still hasn't learned to communicate with the man he supposedly loves. He doesn't mention the important things allowing craploads of misunderstandings. During most of this book I kind of felt sorry for the ML because it felt like the MC wasn't even trying to help their relationship though he swore he loves the ML.

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for example, the MC's mother gets sick, at the same time his estranged dickhead of a father shows up. But does he mention any of this to the man he so call loves? H*LL NO! Instead he suffers in silence while the ML is trying his best to be supportive, calling, visiting, cherishing the MC. I get that he was trying to better focus on his mother this life time, but the love felt so one sided that the ML was an afterthought: that's not love. Then when his parents find out he's gay, he allows them to dictate his life and so breaks up with the one man that will to support him unconditionally... WTF!!! IF YOUR MOTHER DOESN'T ACCEPT YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE, YOU'D RATHER LIVE A LIE?!? The MC supports his mother 100%, but his mother starts ignoring him? He accept his douche bag father's help in order to pay for medical expenses, yet she refuses to allow him to be happy?!?!

And another thing, the ML takes money from the a$$hole father who never did sh*t for him, yet refuses to tell his boyfriend he needs money, whose family would bend over backwards for him since the MC did donate bone marrow for the ML's baby sister. SERIOUSLY!?!

Not only does he break up and decide to go overseas, there is a time skip??? You mean years went by without clearing up anything?? I'm done.

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I quit about Chapter 55 because I was furious. There is just so much I can take when it come to misunderstandings in stories. The MC wasn't worth my time at this point and the ML deserves better as far as I'm concerned.

But the translation was good. <<less
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lyn
lyn rated it
November 20, 2017
Status: Completed
I MTL-ed the raws so I don't know how accurate that is. But I can say from what I read that this novel is great. It is fluffy at some part but full of angst and drama as well. So many misunderstandings and so many
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parties that try to break them apart, especially.. cough.. the mother.. cough.. And they really did break up.. ╥﹏╥ It is so angsty until everything is solved at the very last chapters.

So.... happy ending.... (づ ̄ ³ ̄) づ... yeayyyy...

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earlgreyt
earlgreyt rated it
March 28, 2019
Status: Completed
This is an angst/tragedy filled BL story that follows the rebirth of the MC through his high school years to adulthood. I liked that the struggles that the MC and ML go through are very realistic. The MC especially, as a gay person, has to confront coming out to his family, economic struggles living with his single mother, and his deep feelings of guilt and inadequacy from his previous life. His relationship with his boyfriend also goes through the stages of a pure/naive first love to the complicated issues of... more>> early adulthood.

However, I'm not a big fan of "extremely guilty/self-sacrificial/suffering-alone" type MCs. There is a huge lack of communication with the MC keeping everything inside and hidden, which contributes to waves upon waves of unending angst and self-flagellation. In his previous life, he did the chasing to the ML and gave up everything for love. Reborn with regrets in the second life, the MC instead plays the part of the person who is constantly running away and trying to make everyone else happy, instead of himself or the ML.

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This makes a lot of the drama/angst feel unnecessary or dragged out. The story becomes unbalanced, weighted too heavily on the angst with hardly any fluff or humor to offset it because the MC is so completely self-defeating. He gives up very quickly on any new relationship troubles because of crippling fear that he is not good enough; the kind that thinks "I'm not good enough so I should just give up now" the moment anything happens, leaving the ML to pull all the weight towards reconciliation or clearing up misunderstandings. Furthermore, the author spends too much time describing all the problems and heavy feelings and too little time describing the resolutions or fluff, so the reader hardly gets a break from the constant arrows to the gut.

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The translation group is really good, so everything read very clearly. If you like angst/endless misunderstandings and don't mind characters with zero self-worth, then you will enjoy this! <<less
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ike_00000
ike_00000 rated it
June 29, 2019
Status: Completed
The premise was okay, like the idea of "I felt like I pressured my bf into a relationship so when I go back in time I won't do it again". However, it's still hard to believe that MC would think ML didn't like him after staying with him for so long???? This story is full of unnecessary angst.

And here is my biggest problem with this story.

Basically, I really can't like MC. He's such a typical weak, naive and helpless bottom that it is really very irritating. He's seriously throwing the... more>> ML around as if his feelings don't matter, one-sidedly pressing his feelings on him and thus causing all sorts of unnecessary misunderstandings. Honestly, the whole time, it's clear that ML really likes him but MC just sat there waiting to be chased!! Very selfishly not considering ML's feelings basically at all. Does he even like him??? Or just the idea of him?? Or just the "him" from the past life!!

And, of course, the parents suck. But all the commenters have covered that sufficiently. <<less
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KongKwong
KongKwong rated it
March 2, 2019
Status: Completed
I'd give this one three and a half stars. Those endless waves of mutual misunderstandings, hesitation and inner agony were driving me craaaazy. I also feel like the story before the rebirth could've been played out better. Side characters don't have much of charisma or sense of presence. Around chapter 50 I found myself contemplating whether it worth my time to finish reading the novel.

The story had an interesting idea at the beginning but is was not progressed properly. I can't sympathize with any of the characters at any of... more>> their overly dramatic moments. Somehow it feels like I've been deceived by the author... <<less
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LazyDays
LazyDays rated it
August 19, 2018
Status: c29
Misunderstandings galore!

It's basically an overly-guilty/angsty time traveller X EQ-retard.

In other words, one guy has a decade of emotional baggage, and the other has zero idea on relationships.

Flangst. Angst for the first 20 chapters then fluff, surrounded by "Oh god why are you doing that you idiot character" moments.

As it is, it's it's mainly a romance story, with time travel not really having any impact except relationship wise.
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RoseAmethyst remembrance
RoseAmethyst remembrance
April 13, 2019
Status: Completed
I have a lot of gripes about this novel. The only reason why I was able to read through the entire novel was because I liked the ML. The ML is like a modern version of Lan Wangji from Founder of Diabolism. Both of them are full of surprises in their behaviors that is unexpected of their stoic disposition. ML always had a way of pulling me back in whenever I got turned off.

... more>>
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There was an implication that the ML from the past life actually liked the MC who believed the opposite

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By logic, any deviances that occurs should have been the result of the transmigrater's interference. Yet, there were several unexplained deviances that couldn't possibly been influenced by the MC.

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MC's father approached the MC when the MC never even got to lean of his identity in the canon.

Supposedly he wanted to take responsibility as a parent but I suspect his real reason has to do with his current wife's failed pregnancies. However, these failed pregnancies couldn't possibly been caused by the MC.

In the end, it seems like this character appeared simply to create unnecessary drama. The father was homophobic and caused friction in between the MC and ML.

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Wanghao is the one of them. He was homophobic and bullied the MC in his previous life, but in this life, he was supportive of their relationship and became close friends with the MC.

This change in his character was never explained and just simply did not make sense.

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What really gets on my nerves is that many of these deviations worked in the MC's favor. The biggest gamechanger being.....

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The diary.

The events around this diary held the key to determining how the relationship between MC and the ML would develop.

Despite it's huge role in the first chapter, it's significance is never explored afterwards.

The first thing that the MC tried to do was to alter the event related to the diary. He seeks out the place where the diary was held at the time only to find out it wasn't there.

Why did the whereabouts of the diary changed even before the MC transmigrated?

This little deviation from the original timeline conveniently resolved most of the problems between the MC and ML.

The lack of exploration surrounding the significance of the diary is by far the biggest disappointment in this novel.

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When it comes to the MC, he's very docile, naïve, and sweet-tempered. It's cute, but this personality of his is very out of place for someone who's an older guy who carried the weight of his guilt for 7 years.
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Another criticism of mine is the random drama surrounding the background characters. These random dramas were more or less deviations from the previous life and had nothing to do with the MC. The drama fades along with those characters without any real conclusion or exploration into their perspectives. It's like these deviations occurred just to create drama! UGHHH!

Like many reviewers, I dislike the ending. I could barely call it an ending. It ended at such a weird place and the extras don't really make it feel any more complete.

Despite all my trash talk, I did find the read enjoyable because of the ML and how the characters had to deal with the stigma around homosexuality which is weirdly not present in most gay novels that I've read. <<less
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erikvio
erikvio rated it
February 11, 2019
Status: c50
Overall, it's pretty cute and fluffy, but the plot points grate on you after a while.

Xia Yao, a near middle-aged man with a few regrets in his life, is presented with a chance to live his life a second time starting in high school. One of his biggest insecurities is that he believes he extorted his long term partner Zhou Du into having a relationship with him. He resolves to leave ZD alone this time around, and it's up to ZD, who has a really low EQ, to chase XY.

The... more>> story has its cute moments. The annoying thing is that the plot is centered around a never-ending series of misunderstandings between the two characters as they're both pretty bad at communicating with each other. XY also has the emotional processing, problem solving skills, and coping mechanisms of a tween, not someone who's supposedly lived two lives. When he's faced with a problem, he generally just lets it happen, stresses about it for ages, and avoids/ignores it rather than take steps towards a resolution until he has no choice or it blows up in his face. He's just really passive overall, and I found it to be quite grating. <<less
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Boinkers
Boinkers rated it
December 10, 2017
Status: Completed
Well another good BL story. Full of fluffs. I actually wanna rate this 4.5 because im not satisfied with how the author ended the story. I did not expected the author to just end it like that.. I just wished that the author put more sidestories or extras, but sadly only done 1 side story cut into 3 parts (thats the 3 side stories you see on top). (╥_╥)

Any ways I kinda have fun reading this thou.. Thanks to the translators of this novel. Kudos to you guys~... more>> you really did a great job in translating. Im hoping for a second read once translated version is done

(๑・ω-) ~♥" <<less
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ehkilis
ehkilis rated it
June 27, 2019
Status: Completed
First off

I really hate the parents, specifically the MCs. Like seriously, what right did the mom have to take him away from his BF? NO. DANG. RIGHT. SMH

I also hate the MC he has no backbone and no brain.
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Redroses__
Redroses__ rated it
July 18, 2018
Status: c22
You'll be irritated by their (MC and ML) misunderstanding lol. There are a lot of misunderstanding for sure but nevertheless it's cute, fluffy and you'll just want to hug both characters :D The slow update is a pain though. Overall this story is one of my fave bl novel.
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yourheatherness1297
yourheatherness1297 rated it
November 4, 2017
Status: c11
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one of the most adorable bl novels ever! So much fluff! But there are also times when you just want to cry because of the MC's insecurities about he ML's feelings for him.

this is not your usual romance novel. There is so much more to this than the stereotypical boy meets boy novel.

I can't really describe it. It's better to just read it and then you'll understand.

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Rootato
Rootato rated it
September 16, 2019
Status: c47
At first, I thought it was quite cute and fluffy. The way they interacted and got together. Especially love the ML who unlike the last life, is learning to communicate. At the beginning, I took it all in stride, all their fumbling and miscommunication, taking it as new love.

BUT

MC, you are reborn.. I can understand that you don't have a strong personality cause not everyone is like that. But you have been an adult for 7 years. You should've known how the world works. ML isn't an adult, he isn't... more>> reborn, he is still someone who has to see the world. But you have already entered the society, you should at least know better.

At first I thought they would first have some squabbles but at the end of the day, they would talk it out. But they especially love misunderstandings. All they had to do was talk, but no! Let's ignore each other right to each other's face! It might have been understandable the first few times, but the whole novel seems to be based on 'how much can the ML and MC misunderstand each other'.

All the drama and fights could've been avoided if they only just talked.

I was already skeptical to continue, but reading other reviews, now I don't even want to. Cause all it points to is MC making wrong choices and the ML being wronged.. <<less
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binkspinx
binkspinx rated it
April 22, 2019
Status: c70
Giving this a 5 entirely because I rlly appreciate the translator.

Storywise, it's 3/5. I like how the plot was initiated. I'm not gonna lie I was rlly hooked with chap 1. Every chapter after that got me curious about what the next one will be and I rlly appreciate that feeling... That's until the plot gets repetitive and unoriginal. I got tired of it midway. It's prolly my fault since I've expected a lot from the first chap. It ended as if the first chap and the last was two... more>> entirely different plot line lol

Should have rated it 2/5 but the story was still great despite the plot regression. I'm not satisfied enough tho. All in all, I still recommend this. Just an advice to future readers: Don't expect much from the first chap. <<less
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Chenqing
Chenqing rated it
September 21, 2019
Status: c44
I didn't finish reading this... because it got boring in the middle.

First of all, I did not like how ML's character seems 180° different from previous life, it seems inconsistent to me.

Secondly, too many misunderstandings. I've gotten bloated from drowning in dog blood....

... more>> On top of it, I don't really feel the love from MC to ML.

Overall, the story had potential to be good and the first few chapters were interesting, but it went downhill from there. If you're interested in mere angst, maybe its readable. But I also think there are better angst novels out there. <<less
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Ravenousreader
Ravenousreader rated it
July 20, 2019
Status: c9
I like this is something new from the most used clichés relationship's dynamic. Like we always see a tsundere paired with a very clingy or strong-willed character. Or a girly weak-willed uke paired with a domineering seme. Now imagine if there were a tsundere and a weak-willed character paired together? That's exactly the premise, now add a transmigrated character and we got a story.
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toya_nogo
toya_nogo rated it
May 6, 2019
Status: --
I love it. The feeling of falling in love in someone when you were in high school is like this. Bittersweet TT

MC character is unique on his own. It's like he really is a high school student; not the person who goes back to time. Still so pure, young and innocence. ML also is a very love-sick student.

I give 5 out of 5. It's not because of the plot but because it reminds me of my puppy love when I was so young.
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