【written as of c24】

Let me preface this by saying that Nigel is great. Nope. No. There are no two ways about it. Nigel Gawain is who I consider best guy and no one can say so otherwise. I dunno... he's just-- his two-faced b*tchery is just way too succinct and beautiful you gotta hand it over to him to act like that. And I love how he's still super skeptical and he didn't change in like within five minutes of meeting Gil. Hell, he even called the guy s*upid. I love Nigel and although the NiGil ship isn't faring well right now, no one is gonna stop this fujoshi.

Ah... Haref, Haref, Haref. The elf-like guy with the multicolored irises. I didn't really hate him, but I didn't like him that much either. It's more of a so-so. I mean, he's cool and all, but his sadism is way off-charts (lol) and Gil can't catch a break. Best possible ship to become canon. Has most probability so far. Maybe there's some kind of development in the future? I'm not too sure. But yeah, sad*st Route for Haref.

Salsaal is a giant cinnamon roll douche bag and I can't believe someone can actually be described that way. Anyways he's like sassy and smol at the same time?? He acts like a tsukkomi to Gil when circumstances arise and I love him for it. He's also pretty OP, but he has this giant weakness that balances him out. So, he can't immediately conquer the world like he wants to (LOL). Sucks to be him but that's what you get for making Haref and Nigel suspect Gil you giant dummy.

CASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS (you'll... you'll understand)

I'm waiting for the secret yandere route lololol that's basically I'm reading all these anyways and yes Nigel has the best possibility so I like him fite me. All in all, though chapters are short, it's still pretty engaging because it's yaoi and we're all here for the yaoi. I'm waiting till translations catch up to the current 132nd chapter. TT I love this sm--

【written as of c40】

I'M SCREAMING. IF THAT WASN'T OBVIOUS. I'D TRY FOR A MORE COHERENT COMMENT BUT F*CK THAT. I'VE BEEN WAITING MY ASS FOR A FEW MONTHS NOW AND I THINK I DESERVE THIS MOMENT OF 「!!!」

f*ckIN* HAREF. I SWEAR. I CAN'T. I USED TO NOT LIKE HIM BUT DANG I FORGOT THIS SERIES MIGHT AS WELL BE NAMED 'ISSUES: THE GAY NOVEL'. OF COURSE THIS GUY IS NOTHING SHORT OF CRAZY. bit*h C38 IS WILDING. WHOLLY CONTRIVED BUT W I L D. TOO CONVENIENT BUT DELICIOUSLY SELF-INDULGENT. INTENDED FOR A NICHE AUDIENCE, YES, BUT I AM SO f*ck*NG GLAD I'M PART OF SAID GROUP. I AM NEVER GOING TO STOP SCREAMING ABOUT THIS.

I JUST. IF YOU, AS A READER, LIKES 1) POSSESSIVE GUYS, OR 2) MANIPULATION, PLEASE GO AHEAD AND READ THIS FICTION. A WARNING, THOUGH, THE GRAMMAR PROBS UN-BETA'ED SO THERE'S A LOT OF SPELLING ERRORS AND YADDA YADDA. BUT ANYWAYS, YEAH, THE GAY IS JUST STARTING. MIGHT WANNA STOCK UP ON THOSE CHAPTERS SO YOU DON'T GET CLIFF-HANGED — C40 IS THE VERY VERY VERY BEGINNING OF HAREF'S ROUTE, YOU SEE, BUT DW THE RAWS HAVE ALREADY REACHED SALSAAL.

NOW, WE WAIT.

Gilbert is a really deep character. He doesn't mind hurting people because he just 'doesn't care' anymore. His perception of death and how it is 'too kind' as a punishment really made me deluge into his character even more. When Kass (Protagonist/ his younger brother) hugged him and told him, "Big Brother I have grown up", that was the first time anyone saw him really cry. He did everything for his family, but ran away from people who wanted to shower him love. I think he was scared of receiving love, because he didn't want to be left behind (again). The few moments I saw him really happy was when he was with Salsal and when they were all young and innocent. Everyone's wish was to go back in time, but they all knew it was impossible, so they only could move on...

He was the first to realise he was in love, the first to accept it and confess it. However the situation was never right. Gilbert never believed in Nigel's love. He always thought Nigel only loved him because of the 'blessing', hurting him even more until Nigel attempted su*cide. Even after 8 years of pursuing him, Nigel still didn't stand a chance because all Gilbert saw in him was a younger brother. (Readers and the Author calls him NTR and I feel the same lolol)

I think the part which made me really sad is how Nigel could kill everyone who stands in his way, but could never bring himself to kill Gilbert. As what the text said in chapter 16, Gilbert was the worst investment Nigel has every invested himself in. Out of everyone, I feel that Nigel deserves a happy ending the most. This poor man has been fighting against his fate relentlessly.

Borrowing [lil sis's] words, Haref is a coward. Readers could see he was in love, but he never admitted it until later in the story when it was too late. He was too perceptive, and knew about Nigel's love, but he either had too much insecurities, and did not dare to change their relationship, or he placed his family name as a Lancelot of upmost importance. He was the most righteous of the trio, so he hesitated a lot. Does he help his friends? Or does he help his people?

Haref matured the most out of the trio. He was the only person who dared to forgive and apologise for all his actions, but again, he is a coward who had the qualities needed, but never took action before it was too late. Compared to Nigel with Gilbert, Haref learnt to accept the fact that it was too late for Gilbert to look his way, and gave up pursuing him and moved on, a proof that he had grown up from the selfish him.

However, the Author had wrote an extra of how if Gilbert did not end up with Salsal, the person he would've fell in love with would have been Haref Lancelot... Poor Nigel : (

Personally I think the reason why Gilbert fell for Salsaal is because they are different, but their way of thinking is too similar. Salsaal accepted the dark parts of Gil which he never showed the rest. He found it interesting and wanted to use him, but who knew that he would've fell for the idiot. Salsaal disliked Gil calling him Salsal because that was what the King called him when he was younger, but he still allowed it because he held affections for Gil. The road to their happiness was really rocky, and Salsaal was easily jealous. He was competitive and it was really cute to read.

However it was really short lived because they were short handed and both of them were captured. Even though they had such a short happy time together, Salsaal was satisfied with the time he had with with Gil. When asked by Duke bedivere if he would die for his son, Salsaal replied a negative, because he is sure that Gilbert wouldn't do the same to him.

For them, their own lives was the most important. "Love yourself most", Salsaal respected Gil's way of thinking, and Gil respected Salsaal too. However at the end of the online chapters, When we all thought they were going to die together, Salsaal made a deal with the King, putting all the blame on himself. As he controlled Gil to behead him at his execution, he whispered his last words to Gilbert. "I love you. Loving you, made me feel as if Im really alive".

Afterwards, Gilbert escaped his death penalty and was hailed as a 'hero'. While everyone was celebrating Salsaal's death with fireworks, Salsaal's magic breaks and Gilbert screams in silence over killing his lover. Salsaal's greatest wish was never to kill his father and take the throne, but to be acknowledged and live a happy life with Gilbert. We can tell that Salsaal really loved Gilbert in his own way. The author's notes in this chapter was how Everyone never believed Salsaal really loved Gilbert. Even Salsaal himself didn't believe he loved Gil as much as he said he did, but he proved his love to them.

(as in Nigel's discarding of the self for the betterment of his country), uniquely disturbing (the Lancelot's documented predatory behavior) and genuinely tragic (every one of the main characters introduced so far have invoked this description at least once).

The moment, so far, when Gilbert went cosplaying is one of the most clear cut examples of us, the readers learning more about himself as a character. Also, him saving his baby brother and convincing Nigel to live for himself.

(notice how after Prince Arthur's escape Callis only returns as comic relief despite being an extremely powerful individual).

For example, after being fondled by Merlin, it makes no sense that the particularly ruthless and vengeful Nigel and Lancelot would so easily let him off or not alert their parents. It also throws the entire question of the relatability of the MC and the fujoshi, who are supposed to be representatives of 'our' world.

Arthur's desire to take over the kingdom has seemingly vanished into smoke as he becomes concerned over his lack of muscles. The others of the Round table barely have as much presence as Callis and the supposedly straight MC who was going to align his brothers on the 'correct path' casually announces that he would much rather mol*st 10 year old boys rather than flirt with those of his (biological) age all the while toying with the feelings of psychologically disturbed teenagers as revenge for the actions of one person's cruelty at the behest of his, in his own words, psychopathic (or psychotic, can't remember the exact quote) sister, once again proving he has absolutely no sense of independence or will or actual moral value that he and the author, insist he has.

It's a story about an MC who gets reincarnated into a world and then discover that it's a BL game world♥

MC look like idiot because he did not beleive this is real, he think this is a game world why bother trying to live life to fullest? He act like that because he think this is not real. But after seeing his fujoshi sis in this game world talking to him, he take the situation as real now. So he reveal his real self that did not care for his friend he made on this game world. He plan something unthinkable to Nigel & Haref and end their friendship that way.

After reading until the end of second volume, you will find another land mine.

SalSaal

I say great but great in that "damn, they're f*cking twisted" kind of way. They're so twisted oh my gOD. I was so shocked when Nigel turned out to be a two-faced bastard. I prolly should have been suspicious but, eh. So now there's a predatory bastard, a two-faced bastard, and a dark-humoured bastard. I'm pretty sure they're gonna be Gilbert's but I'd really pity Cass if he gets them because they're twisted as f*ck. At least Gil's kinda aware (though not about Nigel hahahaa)

Sorry 'bout the swearing, I'm staggered by their damn twistedness.

From the point of the current translate novel, the situation escalates to pretty much a war between the "light" and "dark" magic.

The current king, or Sal father, actually have the memory of every "reincarnation" of himself. He is basically living his life over and over again, so each time he will try to kill Sal (to see what would happen, and later, for his own entertainment.)

So the light side is the king and every knight, while the dark is Sal and our Gilbert (who choose to go with Sal sometime after the Nigel betrayal ark.) The light side goal is to kill Sal, while Sal also wants to kill the current king. Gilbert is actually the one who give the dark magics followers all the ideas on how to hurt, poison, and destroy the city (at first all Sal followers thought he is just a pretty face).

Gilbert's family is captured and sent to execution as punishment for Gilbert's betrayal, but Cass actually summon the "light goddess, " which turns out to be Gilbert's original sister (who died in the real-world) and she saves them and helps them get to Sal base.

During the war, Sal and Gilbert become an official couple (with a smut extra), while the light side keeps gaining advantage since Haref has the Excaliber sword which could purify the dark magics. Gilbert is actually sort of happy during this time, as he has his lover and his sister.

As the war progress and more people are lost, Gilbert starts to become more and more heartless (his strategy now involves killing innocent people). Gilbert is captured and tortured by the king-side, after he returns, he summons the "Dark God" or Arthur Pendragon, who is Gilbert's "big brother" from the real world. The plot is revealed that this world is actually an "artificial world" created by a team of Vivian (who is the "Lady of the Lake" in this world), who invited Arthur to join as a tester for her project. Vivian becomes obsessed with her project and refused to let Arthur out of the artificial world, which is why he came up with the plan to have Modred kill his father (Arthur). Arthur comes back to the real world, but his brain is actually damaged by the program, which Vivian become a vegetative (her consciousness is still in the "game") The project is shut down before a Japanese woman in the team took the part of the program to make a BL game, so both Vivian and Arthur still have access to the world of the new game (and current world Gilbert is in). Gilbert told his brother that he wants power to revenge. Arthur give Gilbert all of his dark power (include the ownership of Excaliber), and when Gilbert wake up, he went to take the Excaliber sword, which refuse to go with him, so Gilbert sister reveals to her that the name "Gwen" that Arthur give to Excaliber is actually Gilbert name in the real world, and that Arthur never loves her, he loves the real "Gwen". So even if she won't come with Gilbert, Excaliber can't be used to fight him anymore.

At some point before that, Haref used Excaliber power to deleted his own memory of Gilbert so he can kill him (without his personal feeling getting in the way). Gilbert fight with Haref and Nigel, almost kill each other, Cass try stop Gilbert, but to no avail, so he actually went to join the light side as in "I love you so I need to stop you."

A lot of fights happen, Gilbert's sister disappear somehow. It is revealed later that Calis (Merlin's son) is actually Vivian. Vivian use Gilbert's sister, the goddess of light, who is actually the "health" of the Excaliber to make Gilbert walk into a trap willingly to save her. When Gilbert reaches his sister, she declares that Gilbert is actually "the True King" before she is destroyed by Vivian.

The dark side lost the war, Gilbert and Sal (who is both heavily injured, missing several limbs) is capture, Excaliber returns Haref memory.

Gilbert actually got new limbs reattached by Excaliber light power, dress up in nice clothes, and is told that he is going to be taken to the execution ground. Gilbert is feeling relieved that he will finally get to die, but the scene actually turns out as Sal father declare Gilbert as "Gwen Pendragon, the true king", Haref kneels to give Excaliber to Gilbert and force him to pick up the sword, showing the miracle light TM. People now look at Gilbert worshiping while a dark, deformed body is dragged to the front of Gilbert. The body is actually Sal.

Sal uses the last of his magic power to control Glibert body to kill him. This is the plan that Sal (and the other 3 who "love" Gilbert) come up with, they will make Gilbert kill Sal and become the new king so that Gilbert's name will be clean and he can continue to live. The new limbs that are attached to Gilbert are actually from Sal's. Gilbert later noticed that his experience has to turn into that of his real-world body, which looks a lot like Morgan Larfay (since Arthur uses Gilbert as the Model to create that character).

In the back, Arthur is talking to Vivian. Vivian asks Arthur why he let Gilbert's sister and Sal died even though he can actually save them. Arthur says that it doesn't matter, since when Gilbert woke up in the real world he won't remember any of this anyway.

In the real world, Gilbert's sister passed away in a car accident. Since Gilbert is so heartbroken, Arthur thinks that if he creates an artificial "sister", then he can make Gilbert happy again. But Gilbert actually doesn't want that, but when he tells Arthur to stop, Arthur answers him with "Don't worry, I will make this 'thing' perfect, so you can talk to 'it' if you get lonely." Gilbert realized that his brother is sick in the head (in the influence of diving in the artificial world, and Arthur "god" complex which builds while he is playing as the King Arthur.) So, Gilbert actually tries to commit su*cide, while Gilbert is dying, he told Arthur that it won't matter since Arthur can create a new "Gwen" anytime, play with it, and just love it as he loves him (As in to say that he will not love Arthur and would rather die than stay with him). Arthur decides to keep Gwen consciousness in the game world while they heal his body. The reason Gilbert can't remember how he comes into the game world, in the beginning, is actually because Arthur deleted his memory. He plans for Gilbert to experience the game and remember the love between him, Gilbert, and the sister again, to revert Gilbert back to the "happy old time", but Sal happened (XD), Arthur is jealous and plan for Sal to have gruesome death, he tricks Sal that while everyone will be reset (as in every reincarnation), Gilbert will disappear is he died, so everyone needs to do everything to keep him alive. Vivian asks Arthur for the soul or "code" of Sal and sends him to a new reincarnation with a happiness boon (Sal really is her favorite character, as she have said when she was Kalis).

Back to Gilbert, who is now the new king, locked himself in the castle. Gilbert asks why he must live now that he lost everyone he loved, Haref tells Gilbert that he needs to live in this agony to atone for every "crime" he has done (wow....), he can't die, and can't escape his duty as the king. Sal's father killed himself, Cass leaves, Nigel declares that he loves Gilbert, while Gilbert turns him down again saying that he can only love Sal. A lot of years later, Nigel died of old age, followed by Haref. At Haref dead bed, after Haref took his last breath, Gilbert say that he actually loves him, and thank him for staying with him his whole life even just as the right-hand man of the king.

Gilbert died, Arthur comes to pick him up and tell him that they are going home, but Gilbert actually asks to continue to stay in the game world and reincarnate with everyone else when the game reset. He told him that he is not mad at Arthur anymore, but he will never forgive him either. Arthur asks why Gilbert doesn't love him anymore, and Gilbert answer that, his real brother will never hurt him. Arthur is too obsessed with the game and sees everyone's life as a toy, which is why he hurt Gilbert. Gilbert asks Arthur to give him this one wish so he won't have to hate Arthur anymore then he already is, so Arthur agrees. Gilbert is sent to reset with no memory and begin the game again.

(1) The story introduces "Gwen", Gilbert's twin brother. The Gwen is engaged to Haref since the first time he met him, he thought Haref is so pretty and propose to him. Gwen also has a best friend, Nigel, who likes to sew voodoo doll of Haref to curse him (This vinegar jar..)

Gwen went to the palace for the first time and met Sal, before tripping and hitting his own head. Gwen wakes up again with his old memory back, only to know that Sal also has his memory, they declare love to each other and while Gwen is proposing to Sal, Haref comes out to take him away and also reveals that he and Nigel also have their past life memory. (Vivian actually help give them back their memory, saying that Gilbert deserve a happy life).

A couple of years passed. everyone reach their teenage year, Haref and Sal continue to fight for Gwen, while Cass turns out to be a second original Gilbert since he doesn't grow up with Gwen spoiling anymore. Gwen gets drunk, woke up finding out that he papapa with Nigel last night, and so he decides to give Nigel a chance and settle his life for a harem.

(2) Haref POV of the last life, showing Gilbert's life as the "Vile king", up until the new reincarnation of when Gwen proposes to him.

(3) Nigel POV of the last life

(4) 3p smut NigelxGwen (Gilbert) xHaref. Vivian and Gwen talk that maybe Haref is in love with Nigel, so they lock them together in a room and say that they (Haref and Nigel) need to make out or they won't let them out. Both refuse and just continue to sit there doing nothing, Gwen lost his patient and get into the room only to be locked in there too, the condition also changes to that they need to papapa or Vivian won't let them out. Smut happens, afterward, Nigel reveals that it is actually him mimicking Vivian's voice, and the room is not locked since Gwen gets in the room.

(5) Vivian extra, she decides to reincarnate as one of the princes (Sal little brother)

(6) Arthur extra, telling Gwen's promise to him in the real world (before all the tragedy happen)

Comic extra

Arthur also copies Vivian and reincarnate as one of the princes, he tries to get close to Gwen. They both have a fun day together, before Gwen telling him at the end of the day that he had always known that he is Arthur, he can give him this one day, but ask him to never come back in his life again.