In my opinion, I don't consider the ending either entirely BE or HE. I found it really sad, yet sweet. I cried a lot.

Technically, Feng Yeran is a replicant in each world made by Feng Hua, but I personally hold onto the belief that the replicant is still the original Feng Yeran, and not just a model made by Feng Hua to delude himself. This is supported when towards the end, it is revealed that Feng Yeran had implanted his consciousness into Feng Hua's ego, showing that a part of himself still exist. It makes my heart ache less to think of it like this, so allow me to indulge myself ╮ (╯_╰) ╭ I think the ending is as happy as it could get. Feng Hua wants eternity but that would've been impossible, even if Feng Yeran had been healthy. Feng Hua could've continued his cycle of self-ab*se until the end but he managed to break out of the loop, accept death, but also accept love. He could create one last world that is beautiful and spend a lifetime with his favorite person, this time with no pain, suffering, and paranoia.

The shou is not tr*sh. The illogical actions you see from him in the beginning is because that world is create by Feng Hua and he doesn't want Feng Yeran to love him, because accepting his love would be to accept everything ending. Feng Hua purposely creates scenarios for Feng Yeran to hate him. To not receive love but to be able to spend eternity with the MC, life after life, even if it means pain, that's the route the ML chose after the mc's death. But the mc's will constantly tried to drag ML out of his abusive cycle. MC only wants the ML to be happy, that's the truth from the start to the end.

we learn that everything was a fragment of ml's memories. Mc's su*cide attempt was not successful, but his illness gets worse and he dies shortly after. But before he died, MC confessed to ML they spend their last days together.

mc's death had devastated ml. ML copes by making countless alternative worlds, recreating the eight years he had spent by mc's side, but each time the contortion gets worse and his memories stray further away from the truth. ML associates mc's death with love, and in each recreation he makes, the story would always cut off right when MC commits su*cide. ML never lets the story run to the point where MC reciprocates his love. ML would then burn away the old world and start anew, tormenting himself all over again.

ML deludes himself into thinking MC never loved him back. When he finally confronts the real memories he kept locked away, he finds a notebook that MC buried. It describes mc's final wish. ML honors this wish and uses his last breath to recreate one last world - one where they are both ordinary humans, fall in love, and live together for a lifetime.

feng hua built countless worlds from his memories so he could forever relish in his companionship, love him unconditionally, repeat the last eight years over and over again, convincing himself that feng yeran did not die. With feng yeran's guidance, he finally confronts the memories he had locked away and finds peace with feng yeran's death, but at the cost of completely exhausting his life. By then, he only has one chance left.

in feng hua's last hurrah, he creates a world where feng yeran could be happy, healthy, and love feng hua openly. Its not known whether that world would be short or long, complete or half done, and its that ambiguity that gives the ending a bittersweet OE. I really want feng yeran and feng hua to be able to enjoy a full lifetime to themselves, because its what they deserve after going through so much.

1. "He just wanted to call out Feng Hua's name, just wanted to hug him right away, just wanted to tell him what he really thought right away, just wanted to leave with him right away! Leave this place! Leave all the pain! All the disease! All the hopelessness! Not think of anything! No regard for the consequences! Go to the ends of the earth together!" and then they ran, and the catharsis was so powerful at this moment. They ran with wild abandon, just like little kids, and their surroundings became so beautiful and so full of life.

2. "Then, he heard the bell of the chapel not far away. Dong, dong, dong, dong. Slowly, one after another. It was at that moment that Feng Yeran, in a sweet dream, lost his breath." church bells were a reoccuring leitmotif in the story. And it was a bit odd how they seemed to evoke pain, almost like a countdown to something. And it turns out, that for feng hua, the bells were the sounds he associates most strongly with feng yeran's death. In the text, they would ring out whenever feng hua was reminded of feng yeran's abandonment and mortality.

3. "This time, we'll both be ordinary people, and we'll both be healthy; this time, I'll confess first and say to you on an ordinary evening, Feng Hua, I like you; this time, I'll stay with you and protect you; this time, we'll eat lots of delicious things and go to lots of places; this time, we'll finally go on an air tour ship together and wander around the whole world; this time, I'll tell you that I love you every night; this time, you're happy all the time; this time, we'll be together for a lifetime." this final passage really sealed the deal for me. Feng hua and feng yeran were denied a happy ending in reality, and so they could only chase it in a constructed world tailored to them. As much as I love how the story ended, it leaves a very bittersweet taste in my mouth. None of this is real. But does that really matter? Feng yeran was happy in his dying moments. Feng hua found love again. In an constructed world, a version of themselves could experience happiness one final time together.

this man is creating entire worlds stuck in cycle of pain and sadness of unrequited love for the sake of seeing his loved one. Like how many times.

okay they said the worlds he created were real but it still not the original and feng yeran is still dead. The will of his that makes the shdaow got their by techinology and its not really an authentic full version of him if u get what I mean. So it justs feel fake. Im so f*cking sad for Feng hua. He right their with cwn on my list for people that deserve better

The MC is a scientist and the ML was created by him and is his research subject. Really, I wish the ML would find someone who is worthy of his love instead of the MC. As far as I am concerned the MC deserves to be tortured in the way the ML was. Utterly despicable.

At the first time, I thought that the MC was a tr*sh and s*upid. But in the end, he's not. It was the ML that made the never end cycle. He tortured himself and make his own world, where the MC is hate and didn't love the ML (but he did love him :<), so he can keep seeing him and make the same cycle, over and over again. But in the end, he make the last world, where he and MC live a normal life.