Monster

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He was born without eyes, nose or mouth, just a piece of rotting flesh, a cruel and terrible monster.

He had eyes for only one person, his creator, Feng Yeran: a terminally ill, ambitious scientist.

He had only one wish, to get him. That included getting his love, his everything, to be with him forever―

For that he would give everything; anyone who dared to lay their hands on Feng Yeran would be doomed.

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Preface:

There were four pieces of playdough on the table, of different sizes. Little Feng Hua was puzzled.

—Feng Hua: Ye’er, how do we make a small house out of these four pieces of playdough?

—Feng Yeran: Squeeze them into the shape you want. This one is the roof, the biggest one is the walls, this one is the doors and windows, and the last small one is the chimney.

—Feng Hua: There are so many coloured pencils and pastels here!

—Feng Yeran: When we finish the house, let’s paint the background of the house, the earth, the green grass, the blue sky and the white clouds.

—Feng Hua: And paint the two of us!

—Feng Yeran: Yes, one adult and one child!

—Feng Hua: We’ll be together forever!

Associated Names
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怪物
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Recommendation Lists
  1. Interested - Completed (Short)
  2. actual dark yandere
  3. To Be Read
  4. one hundred liters of tears
  5. Danmei (BL) on the darker side

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Review
38 Reviews


xRainbowCloudx
xRainbowClou
Feb 08, 2021
Status: Completed
I'm the translator of this series. I really like this novel; otherwise, I wouldn't be translating it.

It's quite a short gem, which isn't so mainstream. I feel the author has really put thought into this novel, unlike those which just churn out chapters, and it doesn't drag much.

I think it's important to read the whole story to get the full truth of what's going on, and not to be so quick to judge the characters in it. Both main leads are explored quite a bit, and they may act in... more>> ways you find unlikeable. They aren't perfect, after all.

There is a lot of foreshadowing in this novel, which explains some of the characters' behaviours when the truth is finally revealed. The author even kindly dedicated a whole chapter to explaining them to us dumdums (me), allowing my confused brain to get something for once.

About the ending:
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In my opinion, I don't consider the ending either entirely BE or HE. I found it really sad, yet sweet. I cried a lot.

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KoiPrince
KoiPrince
May 18, 2021
Status: Completed
This novel is beautiful, you have to read it to the end in order to fully understand the picture. Please don't judge the characters until you've properly read the reveal.

Feng Yeran will get on your nerve in the beginning. You'll think him s*upid and blind, but I swear to god, it's not what it seems, please read the novel to the end, you won't regret it.

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Spoiler

Technically, Feng Yeran is a replicant in each world made by Feng Hua, but I personally hold onto the belief that the replicant is still the original Feng Yeran, and not just a model made by Feng Hua to delude himself. This is supported when towards the end, it is revealed that Feng Yeran had implanted his consciousness into Feng Hua's ego, showing that a part of himself still exist. It makes my heart ache less to think of it like this, so allow me to indulge myself ╮ (╯_╰) ╭ I think the ending is as happy as it could get. Feng Hua wants eternity but that would've been impossible, even if Feng Yeran had been healthy. Feng Hua could've continued his cycle of self-ab*se until the end but he managed to break out of the loop, accept death, but also accept love. He could create one last world that is beautiful and spend a lifetime with his favorite person, this time with no pain, suffering, and paranoia.

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Spoiler

The shou is not tr*sh. The illogical actions you see from him in the beginning is because that world is create by Feng Hua and he doesn't want Feng Yeran to love him, because accepting his love would be to accept everything ending. Feng Hua purposely creates scenarios for Feng Yeran to hate him. To not receive love but to be able to spend eternity with the MC, life after life, even if it means pain, that's the route the ML chose after the mc's death. But the mc's will constantly tried to drag ML out of his abusive cycle. MC only wants the ML to be happy, that's the truth from the start to the end.

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To be honest, I felt uncomfortable as I read this novel, the description of insanity, of despair, it made my heart shriveled up like a raisin and I could only cry in the corner. However, at the same time, I was unable extricate myself as I continued reading, ai my heart was really ab*sed during the novel, I could only pray desperately for their happiness. <<less
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Simonye
Simonye
Oct 16, 2021
Status: Completed
I like fluf, very skin deep and not a big brain novel like this.

Actually I need a fluff novel after I read some extreem angst recently, yet I bump into this novel, and carefully read the tag.. and read some of the review too, and I was like.. " oh well... go to the torture chamber again, shall we?!!"

Now, after I complete the whole 30 sumtin chapter, to my surprise (like really, on certain degree kinda shooting my heartache after the angst I get from my previous reading) it... more>> feels complete, like you just have a good portion of delicious food, there are the apitazer, main course, and dessert, all in a good proportion, I don't feel any extreem happy, fluff or sadness, all are in the right amount.

This is the first novel I read so far that things doesn't exactly goes what I want, but yet im ok with it, as if the author knows what's good for the reader like me, he gave me what I need instead what I want (coming from my extreem fondness of either chaotic angst or brainless fluff)

Read it, its a good writting and a good show.

Ps : For you who rate 1*

1 how old r u ?

2 who hurt u ? <<less
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Asphyxia778
Asphyxia778
Oct 09, 2021
Status: Completed
For an accurate review you have to first completely read the novel. It's quite short but it's written beautifully.

I have read the novel 'Psycho' as well and the author's ability to portray the madness and tragedy of the characters is amazing.

In the end everything finally blossoms and exposed to the reader. The characters too are fully realised in what they are and how they got to there.

This is definitely one of the best novels I've read.

Definitely recommend
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HiiroTashima
HiiroTashima
May 01, 2021
Status: Completed
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When I first started reading this, I was jebaited into thinking this was a crazy love story between the creator and monster. It was very interesting to see how distorted the relationship became, but then we got to the end of "the wall." And then things started to click. The truth was that it was actually a fluffy story? That there was genuine love? Proceeding from there, I fell into a sobbing mess reading the last chapter. I came here for a weird bl romance between a monster and human, not something that will make me appreciate normal love stories! After being hit with all the wack from the first part, a normal romance is a breath of fresh air. It reminds you that normal is good, and much preferred if you want a happy ending.

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ricoerrr
ricoerrr
Apr 04, 2023
Status: Completed
character:

mc: feng yeran

ml: feng hua

... more>> summary:

MC is a terminally ill scientist who made history by recreating a superhuman 'adesir' species, who were once extinct. ML was born in a lab, kept in captivity for his whole life, and MC was the light of his life. ML was a monster with superhuman strength, the ability to create illusions, and replicate life. He falls in love with MC and his love is overwhelmingly possessive. MC did not respond well to that, and his constant rejections hurt ML so badly that he had to split his psyche into three parts; id, ego, and superego. ML was the ego and he learns to control his impulses around MC, and their relationship gets better. However, the part of himself he had split off would run about and do horrible things to the people MC loves - which he sees as his love rivals. When MC found out, he tries to reciprocate ml's love in an attempt to stop this madness. He also tries to kill and drug ml, but it never worked. The story 'ends' when MC tries to commit su*cide.

Spoiler

we learn that everything was a fragment of ml's memories. Mc's su*cide attempt was not successful, but his illness gets worse and he dies shortly after. But before he died, MC confessed to ML they spend their last days together.

mc's death had devastated ml. ML copes by making countless alternative worlds, recreating the eight years he had spent by mc's side, but each time the contortion gets worse and his memories stray further away from the truth. ML associates mc's death with love, and in each recreation he makes, the story would always cut off right when MC commits su*cide. ML never lets the story run to the point where MC reciprocates his love. ML would then burn away the old world and start anew, tormenting himself all over again.

ML deludes himself into thinking MC never loved him back. When he finally confronts the real memories he kept locked away, he finds a notebook that MC buried. It describes mc's final wish. ML honors this wish and uses his last breath to recreate one last world - one where they are both ordinary humans, fall in love, and live together for a lifetime.

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thoughts:

desvastating.

i love the author's writing style. The insanity was palpable. This novel made me feel on edge the whole time and I was prepared for the worst. Even the happy peaceful moments made me uneasy, like the calm before the storm. I thought - MC was so miserable, these characters werent redeemable at all, the novel is so short, it's going end up as a trainwreck with a bad ending for sure.

the last stretch of the novel was chaotic and confusing, but it wrapped up the novel beautifully. We learn that the original events were much simplier and sweeter. Feng hua got his wish - feng yeran loved him back, from the bottom of his heart, and they were able to enjoy a blissful 500 days together before feng yeran passed away. It was a tragic love story that shouldve ended then and there, but feng hua could not accept feng yeran's death.

Spoiler

feng hua built countless worlds from his memories so he could forever relish in his companionship, love him unconditionally, repeat the last eight years over and over again, convincing himself that feng yeran did not die. With feng yeran's guidance, he finally confronts the memories he had locked away and finds peace with feng yeran's death, but at the cost of completely exhausting his life. By then, he only has one chance left.

in feng hua's last hurrah, he creates a world where feng yeran could be happy, healthy, and love feng hua openly. Its not known whether that world would be short or long, complete or half done, and its that ambiguity that gives the ending a bittersweet OE. I really want feng yeran and feng hua to be able to enjoy a full lifetime to themselves, because its what they deserve after going through so much.

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i also like the way the author wrote feng yeran's paranoia. We were told the adesir could control emotions and that feng yeran could sometimes feel 'love and jealousy imposed onto him' as if it wasnt by his own volition. Feng yeran's paranoia builds on this fear that feng hua was somehow manipulating feng yeran to feel a certain way. It compliments how feng hua's love was written to evoke uneasiness and uncanniness. And how feng yeran's reciprocation felt like resignation rather than something genuine.

my favourite scenes and quotes;

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1. "He just wanted to call out Feng Hua's name, just wanted to hug him right away, just wanted to tell him what he really thought right away, just wanted to leave with him right away! Leave this place! Leave all the pain! All the disease! All the hopelessness! Not think of anything! No regard for the consequences! Go to the ends of the earth together!" and then they ran, and the catharsis was so powerful at this moment. They ran with wild abandon, just like little kids, and their surroundings became so beautiful and so full of life.

2. "Then, he heard the bell of the chapel not far away. Dong, dong, dong, dong. Slowly, one after another. It was at that moment that Feng Yeran, in a sweet dream, lost his breath." church bells were a reoccuring leitmotif in the story. And it was a bit odd how they seemed to evoke pain, almost like a countdown to something. And it turns out, that for feng hua, the bells were the sounds he associates most strongly with feng yeran's death. In the text, they would ring out whenever feng hua was reminded of feng yeran's abandonment and mortality.

3. "This time, we'll both be ordinary people, and we'll both be healthy; this time, I'll confess first and say to you on an ordinary evening, Feng Hua, I like you; this time, I'll stay with you and protect you; this time, we'll eat lots of delicious things and go to lots of places; this time, we'll finally go on an air tour ship together and wander around the whole world; this time, I'll tell you that I love you every night; this time, you're happy all the time; this time, we'll be together for a lifetime." this final passage really sealed the deal for me. Feng hua and feng yeran were denied a happy ending in reality, and so they could only chase it in a constructed world tailored to them. As much as I love how the story ended, it leaves a very bittersweet taste in my mouth. None of this is real. But does that really matter? Feng yeran was happy in his dying moments. Feng hua found love again. In an constructed world, a version of themselves could experience happiness one final time together.

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Raisins
Raisins
May 13, 2021
Status: Completed
When they say you have to read the entire story to understand it they mean ENTIRE story, to the very last chapter. This was a godamm tragedy. Its was about sad and I feel bad for the gong so much.

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Spoiler

this man is creating entire worlds stuck in cycle of pain and sadness of unrequited love for the sake of seeing his loved one. Like how many times.

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Honestly even after everything is said and done I dislike the shou he was tr*sh. Running after garbage people who betray him and plot against him cause he thinks their his "special important" people and ignoring the person who has been by his side giving his literal all. The only monsters here were the humans.

But either way it was impressive set of twists and the ending was killing me. I get the author calling it a happy ending but wow. Example, 2ha took my soul but it aleast had a happy ending that felt happy. Here Im just conflicted

Spoiler

okay they said the worlds he created were real but it still not the original and feng yeran is still dead. The will of his that makes the shdaow got their by techinology and its not really an authentic full version of him if u get what I mean. So it justs feel fake. Im so f*cking sad for Feng hua. He right their with cwn on my list for people that deserve better

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Grinsekatze
Grinsekatze
Feb 24, 2021
Status: c4
I won't give it a rating yet. But I have to say that this is really hard to read. It is a really good novel, but I really despise the MC and wish him the worst ending.

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Spoiler

The MC is a scientist and the ML was created by him and is his research subject. Really, I wish the ML would find someone who is worthy of his love instead of the MC. As far as I am concerned the MC deserves to be tortured in the way the ML was. Utterly despicable.

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P2wo
P2wo
Jan 04, 2023
Status: Completed
BEAUTIFUL, TRULY BEAUTIFUL

The moment I saw the cover, I was like: Where had I seen this? And then I suddenly realized that it was from FMA. And when I carefully looked at the cover, I saw "Fullmetal Alchemist" directly written there. I laughed so hard.

Okay, so before you judge this book, make sure you read the whole thing. Because many people will despise the MC, only to find that the truth is extremely different in the last few chapters.

It had been a long time since I... more>> have had this feeling, this pure joy of finding a good book. I honestly think that probably 90% of the books in NU are tr*sh. I know I haven't even read 1% of the books here, but anyways I can tell that it's the truth. And this book is so different, so so different. This book is a f*cking piece of art!!!

In a sense, this book is not for everyone. People with no literary eye or simply impatient people might rate this book 1 star. I can totally see that. And if you are looking for a book to read just to have some fun, then don't even look at this book. It's definitely not for you. But for those who enjoy beautiful artful stories with raw human emotions, nothing fabricated, ugliness and beauty, black and white with their insides out, you would surely love this novel. After reading this novel, many of the novels I used to find nice seem like a joke now. I am feeling quite conflicted honestly.

Characters:

  • MC: I know everyone who reads this story will hate MC. He's indeed detestable. An ugly human. You'd think that he is not worthy of the ML. But is that really the truth? You should read the whole story to find out.
    Spoiler

    The story we read isn't even the true story. MC is so ugly in the story because ML made him to be. In the world ML created, because of misunderstanding, he thought that the only way he could stay beside MC was to never let MC fall in love with him. Yes, so all the misery MC and ML go through throughout the story is due to our ML! So do you really think he is bad? After all, he was made bad.

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  • ML: Ah, ML. Our sweet ML. Basically everyone loves him. He's indeed lovable. Depsite being a monster, he's more human than anyone around him. It seems like he only suffers misery after misery. But is that the truth? Well, again, you should read the whole story to find out.
  • Side Characters: Because of the nature/truth of the story, many of the side characters are despicable. They are ugly humans, showing humanity's monstrosity at its finest.
World Building: Now the review of the world building of this book is quite complicated, you see. As soon as I say something, it'd be a spoiler. Anyways, all I can say is that it is good.

Writing: The best part of this book is basically the writing. Let's just say that the author is very good at writing what they want to write. They have captured the raw emotions and the morally grey human beings, who are sometimes more monstrous than the monsters under our bed. And the so-called monsters may not be monsters in the first place. Maybe you were the one who made it into a monster. Do you have any memories of it? Maybe you were busy when it was going through a major operation? Maybe you didn't call it every day? Don't you know monsters should be called every day?

Well, anyways, the book is like an onion. Many people will only look at its surface and say its ugly or bad. Some might peel a few layers but lose patience and never learn the truth. Some might peel the last layer, find the treasure and go "That's it?", while of course some people, just by looking at the first layer, could already tell that it's going to be a hell of a ride.

Lastly, I'd like to thank the author and the translator for giving me a chance to read this beautiful book. I will love and cherish this book forever. <<less
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Ariri
Ariri
Mar 21, 2021
Status: c13
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Dude I'm bawling right now. I'm crying so much wtf. I mean come on without him the guy wouldn't have gotten his success without Feng Hua he would have already shitting died and then when that shitty ass bit*h came running along he forgot all about him and just spewed a bunch of shit. After getting so blinded by the glory that he never had and the inferiority that he had towards his brother and father he forgot all about the reason why he's even f*cking still alive. Poor Feng Hua never deserved that especially after all the sh*t he went through just for Feng Yuan and tbh me here listening to sad music to amplify the feeling just doesn't help lol........ I'm really hoping this is a good ending cause I'm sure I'll just cry for o whole goddamn day and then I would go back to hearing sad music to remember the raw feeling I felt while reading this again and then I'll just cry even more. I'll just use this as a review too....... I love this story and it makes me cry especially putting myself into the position of Feng Hua....

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8oni
8oni
Oct 26, 2022
Status: Completed
*sobbing*

What it is with excellent author that hell bent on writing a wonderful story that filled with pain and suffering? Why? I have waiting so long before I finally have courage to read this because my avid reader sense told me this is one of those novel that will hurts, a lot, if I read it.

So glad I decided to read this while I am home alone.

I won't give spoiler, just, read this yourself if you ever found yourself have a dry eyes, it will fix that problems.
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Pinkija
Pinkija
Jul 11, 2022
Status: Completed
I love this story and the author sm :<

It's sad and beautiful at the same time. Idk if this is a happy or bittersweet end.

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Spoiler

At the first time, I thought that the MC was a tr*sh and s*upid. But in the end, he's not. It was the ML that made the never end cycle. He tortured himself and make his own world, where the MC is hate and didn't love the ML (but he did love him :<), so he can keep seeing him and make the same cycle, over and over again. But in the end, he make the last world, where he and MC live a normal life.

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Rida
Rida
Jun 15, 2022
Status: Completed
I absolutely loved it

It made me bawl my eyes out. I normally hate tragedy but I feel that the ending is what made this novel so memorable to me.

It would have been really interesting to have an extra where the MC and ML had a happy ending.

5/5
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Meimei who sells melon seeds
Meimei who s
May 21, 2022
Status: Completed
I’m.. speechless? I feel so dumb, the plot is so thrilling and complex, and the characters are all so good. The foreshadowing is unparalleled. I was just supposed to read this without any thoughts because I was bored and all, also wanted a bit of angst at the time and this DID NOT disappoint me !!

The CP, I couldn’t say that they have a very healthy relationship, I mean... what do you expect from an experiment and its creator falling in love? Yeah... you get it, but it’s not as... more>> toxic as other novels with scummy leads, this CP had a lot of misunderstandings so I can’t really blame any of them. I adore these two. I believe that they truly love each other unconditionally.

Humans are really complex. Feng Yeran proves this, you’d get frustrated at him sometimes but, please bear with it, you’ll understand why. I felt so sad for him... him being in a miserable and lost state really made my heart ache.

The author is very very talented, they have quite a poetic writing style but you’ll get the hang of it after a while. The portrayal of misery, tragedy, and madness was scarily amazing, even I felt lost for Feng Hua... speaking of, I absolutely adore huahua, I want to give him the biggest hug.

And... yeah, I cried HAHAHA you should read it, you definitely won’t regret it !! <<less
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bhuntuk
bhuntuk
Mar 13, 2022
Status: Completed
Gut-wrenching Gem. Have read quite a few novels listed in this space. This is the first novel that made me want to post a review. This is actually not a review. I don't want to analyse this novel and break the intensity of emotions reeling inside. It's just it felt like I would explode if I didn't post it :)
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SapphireVitale
SapphireVita
Mar 06, 2022
Status: Completed
NovelUpdates has been my source of so many Novels but this is the first time I actually registered and write a review. The reason is because I just couldn't resist telling everyone how beautiful this story is, A Masterpiece, A GEM. I've only tried to search for fluff yandere story, but I never thought I would find This Masterpiece. It's such a roller coaster ride, and yes at the first few chapters the MC has been really dumb but just read the whole story, it's worth it as hell. If... more>> you want to feel loved but at the same time cry then this story is for you.

Actually even though 'Psycho' is the first BL Comic that I've read (and also my favorite one) I never actually realized that It kinda have a similar story, not until the author said something about it. Tho 'Psyco' also is a heartbreaking story, it's just quite mild compared to this. This one would make you cry from the first. Few Chapters 'till last. Trust us, It's worth it. Just finish the whole.

Also I just want to point out, I've been seeing a lot of s*upid people writing a review over a story when they haven't even completed it. Like example in 'Hidden Merriage' which constist of 2000+ Chapters, alot of people write low review when they haven't even reach 1/4 of the story which doesn't make scene. It's happening to alot of good stories. Like I also have a lot of stories that I've read but I don't like it then I'll just drop it. 'Coz I know people have different preference. Like how other people find Yandere Disgusting meanwhile, us, yandere lovers 😏❤️🤗 love them. So dont just simply writes a goddamn review when you still haven't finished the whole thing.

Edit:

I just checked the author and He'll, He's also the one wrote 'PSYCHO'. I'm like What??!! I mean Psycho's the first BL I've read (Comic in Mangatoon) and Also one of My Favorite as I said, so I'm really shocked that this two is written by the same author. Wow😅❤️ <<less
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Nyaa.23
Nyaa.23
Aug 08, 2021
Status: Completed
Pros :

Came for the possessive!monster x weak!professor but got a gem instead. The writing is so beautiful, there's something about it that tugs the corner of my heart. The way author tell the story is interesting.

The characters. God they are sooo great. The hinting here and there, the despair, the obsessions, everything really fits nicely.

... more>> The analysis at the later chaps help a lot. It really shows us just how much hard work author guve to this masterpiece.

Cons :

The way author writes the story is kinda poetic and unlike other stories. It could be a lil difficult to understand the story but if you understand the whole ordeal, you would get a gem.

After reading countless novels where some have their strength in plot twist, some in characters, some in humor, this novel is a fresh breath of air. The plot isn't anything new, the characters isn't anything new. But the feelings that it could evoke is amazing. The way the ML have this depth to him is just *chef kiss* <<less
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lanamelia
lanamelia
Jul 02, 2021
Status: c16
The very first time I actually felt that the MC doesn't deserve the ML at all. The MC is so freaking s*upid, I cursed him a lot especially when that woman join the picture again
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Filan26
Filan26
Jun 27, 2021
Status: Completed
This is GEM! This book is honestly so so so freaking good! I'm a fan of this author already! This is really a great book, the ending were painful, but it kinda left a bittersweet feeling, there are some gore and other stuff you should read the tags properly before you read. ML is possessive and he had some mental problems, but he truly loved MC, he is sincere and kind towards MC (except when he's having some sort of breakdown), I pity them so much, they only have one... more>> another until the end. The translation give justice to this amazing book as well, so glad I found this book <<less
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Jespiga
Jespiga
May 20, 2021
Status: Completed
This novel was wonderfully written and beautifully tragic.

I was crying so much but it was worth it.

Just give it a try and you'll see what I mean.

Thank you for translating this.
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