MC was more concerned for her beauty than the ML. She is taken to the past when the ML was a kid and she follows him when he goes to wash his hands. Then she totally forgets about him and keep looking at herself in the mirror and think.. oh my skin is so good, hair doesn't have split ends... lots of other BS. In all Chinese novels, the beauty is praised to an abnormal level and I have gotten used to it after reading so many novels. But this was worse.

the female lead gathers the suns of happiness and goes back in time as a 'spirit' to ensure that the male lead's traumas/bad experiences don't occur or effect him too much. I don't know how accurately the term autism is used here, he has some aspecta that show it, certainly...

where ML was kidnapped by the adopted bro's lackey then after he woke up he wont remember her. Right after that she woke up having a fever and at this parallel she hasnt met ML yet. She stubbornly waited for him at the gate for hours just to met him and fainted. After she woke up to confirm he still subconsciously recognize her, she went MIA for awhile

was adopted to be an heir c*m caregiver but that’s them being trapped between a rock and a hard place. Which, I feel, was rather realistic because it echoes the dynamics of families I’ve personally seen with children on the spectrum. Besides, I have little sympathy for the brother because he was bullying the ML prior to the adoption apparently? If I remember correctly.

I think the blame attributed to ML when his grandmother passed was also realistic. Yes, I feel like the portrayal of autism is very ??? but I don’t think this book necessarily means to #rep autism but uses it as a plot point... Besides the “curing”, I also dislike how ML becomes a different person after all the tasks. Maybe if it was gradual, we can still accept it but it was so drastic that it only seemed like they kept his more superificial characteristics like liking the colour red.

That being said, the family reactions and feelingsI think were raw so it added points to my book, and I’m here to mindlessly read anyway. I can’t really gripe too much.

FL says she read online that autistic people recognise people with touch, like touching people's faces, and that's how they recognise people. I guess the only upside to this is that it says FL read it online. Life hack: check the validity of the statement/source and, basically, don't blindly trust everything you read on the internet.

Apparently, autistic people can see 20/20 in the dark and can't hear other people???? They also can't feel whatsoever. They will harm themselves unknowingly because they can't "feel" pain, fear, heat, and cold. Like, that is a completely real medical condition where people can't feel pain, but that's not autism. It would make more sense if ML had autism AND that medical condition. The author just bangs on about how ML is this unfeeling machine but contradicts themselves because he can "feel"??????

Plot point A. wraps up at around ch 50 of the novel with some face-slapping (revenge) and from then on there really is no plot other than a goal of "curing" autism. The novel has no substance and acts almost like a slice of life genre. The novel follows a linear pathway and surprisingly has some 'kind' of character growth, though it's mostly on the ML's side.

Reviewee @Goodreadsonly sums it up pretty nicely:

The basic plot was a little meh but I did like the interactions between the MC and ML. Once she finished "curing" him it got boring and reading the ending felt like a chore.

Tbh once the main antagonist disappears at around ch 50, it does feel like a chore to read the rest. The only thing that kept me going was ML and FL interactions.

Her real family. Yep, FL turns out to be the missing grandaughter of this mega-rich family. They only found out about her existence because of the antagonist, Lin Tiantian, trying to impersonate FL to reap the benefits as the grandaughter of the family. Basically, the family finds out asap that she's fake and voila! They discover real granddaughter (FL) through this event.

Later on, FL changes the timeline, so in a nutshell, Lin Tiantian can never be the anatgonist in her life's story and therefore was unable to carry out the whole fake granddaughter scheme. So the story moves on, but FL is still the granddaughter. There's no rediscovery or anything. Honestly, this whole time travel thing was handled not so well. P.S This timeline alteration is not to be confused with the story's climax alteration which happened after all missions were completed.

There is a kinda smexy scene in ch 101 (it's implied they do the deed and, of course, ML has superhuman stamina rip)

The whole novel was leading up to it, and so yeah, ML gets "cured" of his autism. This kind of shattered me, because the ML I had grown to love was now literally a different person. I hated this new ML person. It doesn't even feel like Lu Jue. Just someone wearing his skin.

You seriously have to ask yourself, is the person the same person if you take away an inherent characteristic from them? Autism isn't like a cold where you're still you and just under the weather. Autism is a form of human life and an inherent part of your personality and characteristics. It impacts the way you interact with the world, thus helping form your personality (including other contributing factors). It's like hair, skin, or eye colour. You're born with it. You can't actually change it (albeit you can dye, tan/ bleach, or wear coloured contacts. However still true to my point; you can't actually change the original colour).

TLDR: Hate new Lu Jue, want old Lu Jue back.

Basically, after all of the missions were completed and ML was "cured, " there was a "bonus mission" that MC went to complete because she was like, Imma 100% game-run this. Sh*t hits hard. MC transports into, I guess, the OG timeline, which follows the actual plotline of the original novel. So, an alternate reality. MC needs to stop Lu Jue, the ML, from committing suicide.

It's hard to read. Because I know Lu Jue, we, as readers, get to know him. All of his funny, cute, and amusing sides that made me smile... and seeing him like this? A shell of who he really is, struggling to live because he doesn't have someone like MC by his side... was really hard. What was EVEN HARDER was seeing him able to live because MC was there. She immediately pulled him out of his darkness and helped him find his way back. But because this is a mission, MC needs to leave. Lu Jue is heartbroken, wanting her to stay with him. I mean, she makes him happy. He desperately wants her to stay, and MC can't do anything other than say: Don't hurt yourself and live well. If you hurt yourself, I'll cry till I can't no more (aka crying to death). Of course, he doesn't want her to die, and so they hold each other till she disappears. Lu Jue sheds tears into the night.

I cried myself to sleep after reading this ;-;

Although the ending was a happy one, I found the last arc/time FL visited ML to prevent him from committing his sad ending, to be the most sad arc. Don't get me wrong, all the other times FL had to leave ML in the time-points/arc was also extremely sad, however the last one simply hit me so hard. (Hence, the crying myself to sleep bit T-T.) The emotional pain that ML went through in that last arc, was heart-wrenching.

annoying but man was the brother insidious. I wished the author gave us more detail on why exactly he hated the ML so much and how he was taken down because the author spent so much more time on the cousin when really she wasn’t that threatening. She was annoying but dumb. The brother though was straight up evil so I would’ve liked more than a paragraph saying what happened to him in the end. I thought we’d get a villain’s speech or something.

HEA.

Like other stories by this author, it's roughly 50% slice of life, 10% contemporary fantasy, 35% unresolved sexual tension, and 5% resolved sexual tension. I don't often find myself mentally screaming "PLEASE JUST HAVE s*x ALREADY!" but buckle up, chucklef*cks. This pain train goes directly to frustration town without stopping. No return trips until way later. But, personally? 11/10 would ride again (and so would our MC—eyooo!)

Personally, after finishing the MTL, I've kind of come to the conclusion that even at the end, he's still autistic. What Ning Zhi (MC) was curing was actually many, many instances of traumatic brain injuries (falling down the stairs, getting beaten by the nanny, dangerously high fever, getting hit by cars, etc). Even after he's "cured" he's unfriendly even with people he likes (poor understanding of social cues), very introverted (sensory overload, anyone?), and single-minded about work (hyper-fixation) l to the point of missing out on social activities like having a girlfriend or attending his parent's anniversary blowout (adherence to routine! Difficulty with crowds! Showing still-limited attachment to caregivers!). Even when he sees Zhizhi again/for the first time, he still takes his time to drive the car into the garage, and only after a little while (once he finishes executing the normal routine!) does the penny drop and he goes after her. Am I reading too much into this? Probably. Am I tailoring my reading to my bottomless desire to see neurodivergence presented well in romantic fiction? Definitely. Does knowing this change how much I like this story as it lives in my head? Abso-f*cking-lutely not.

Also worth noting is the bonus chapter at the very end, where we see Zhizhi and Lu Jue from the original story, after "our" Ning Zhi has saved him from his terrible fate. He's still autistic (or brian damaged, if you prefer my reading (which you should)) ! They still fall in love!! There's no cure, there's no magic. There's just a happily ever after, and I am beyond glad about it.

child abuse

someone gets drugged

drinking/drunk characters

bullying

self-harming behavior

mentions of suicide

Orphan (MC is an orphan from the very beginning; no one is actively orphaned during this story)

blood (I'd say mild, but that's just me)

Attempted murder

Stabbing

Kidnapping

Car crash

Ableist language/Autism-specific abuse

Death of loved ones

A character is restrained/medicated against their will

There is a building fire

There is a character mentioned to have r*pe-y/predatory tendencies (only alluded to; never overtly stated and not at all shown)

Sexual content

actually his selective memory loss of the MC. He hadn't changed much. It was his behavior towards her that had changed even if it didn't last long.

Ning Zhi completed her missions and wakes up six months in the past before her and ML have 'met'. Note that the first meeting has changed since it can only occur at the Lu Family Banquet now that the villain's marriage was ruined. The villain is no longer willing to bring along Ning Zhi since Lu Jue has recovered and she is eyeing him for herself now. She and her mother will again try to set her up in marriage with a stranger they view as undesirable. He might be an okay guy just like Xiaojue, not that it matters since MC already has someone she loves. The point is that the villain has not had the time or mindset to commit identity fraud yet unlike the previous timeline changes that were shown via a ripple effect in the 'present time'.