Killing the Same Person Every Time


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How do you kill a villain that is better than you in every aspect?

According to Bu Bai, there is only one step: Make him fall in love with you.

But, what he had never thought about was that there was still another step: Letting yourself fall in love with him.

Bu Bai: “I came to kill you.”

Villain: “I came because I love you.”

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New Oxbaris rated it
June 4, 2020
Status: Completed
I was honestly worried reading the avarage rating and some of the reviews, then I understood that the people who gave a low rating shouldn't have read the book in the first place. Don't like don't read - it's a very simple principle.

Yes, it is a messed up story: that's the whole point. The main pairing is MC/Villain, did you expect rainbow and sunshines? The title is self explanatory of what happens...

Now, the book is not without its flaws: the first chapters are really confusing and the end is the... more>> least satisfying element of the book (which is why I gave 4 stars and not 5)

But the middle? The middle is fantastic. We have 3 story arcs (+ the ending) which are a delight on their own.
If you like angst and complex dynamics (including the Protagonist loving MC in every world as well -a strangely well done love triangle.) you will like this story. <<less
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New yumenokotoba rated it
June 3, 2020
Status: c3
Okay. I had to stop at chapter 3.

The beginning is confusing. Things, events, and people seem to come together suddenly and events just happen.

I feel zero emotions from any character and sympathize with no one.

Even the villain's (QMR) interest in Bu Bai seems to come out of nowhere?

Someone commented during one of the chapters to say QMR was particularly creepy. I happen to agree.

Dropping this story but as always, I thank the translators for their hard work. Unfortunately the story itself wasn't appealing enough to me.
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Hals rated it
April 11, 2018
Status: c3
Okay hooooooly sh*t where do I even start. It's been only 3 chapters so far but I'm already shitting myself because of how immediately the writing is engaging, the characterisations are realistic and the emotion is so prevalent that I feel my heart ache alongside our cute MC.

The MC, Bu Bai, has a system who isn't like those cold detatched ones. Well, he was like, initially but he quickly grows on our MC and acts like a father. He has a body in the subconcious/space which takes on whatever the... more>> Host usually desires. It's both funny and cute because

he takes on the body of a small white fluff ball which greatly disorientates him since he's used to mature Hosts and being like, a rugged dude. He doesnt mind eventually and cuddles Bu Bai when he's feeling down and supports him emotionally haha


Idk if this counts as a spoiler cause its like, in the first chapter but Ill put it under that anyway haha

Bu Bai was initally a child that the system picked at random to fulfill a difficult, I think kinda emergency, task. System (whos name is Lao Da) is first sceptical as he's picked up a completely pure child, but uses The Powers That Be to make him mature physically.

Then they enter the world to start their task and we find out that Bu Bai is given a random identity in the world, which is quite believable.

I may be overexaggerating or overreacting but that isn't even when things get good like, things happen and Bu Bai eventually becomes

more and more jaded, unlike his previous innocent countenance. And his system notices this but cant rlly do anything about it except emotionsl support and stuff but system is sad too and ARGHH SO AM I But it hurts so good just read the story not this review huhu quick quick go go

He's not completely oblivious or ignorant, but he knows what he has to do, saying things like, he wants to listen to what Lao Da, the system, says as he is his first friend, despite the situation being scary. It's honestly super cute ♡

This is getting long and I like, never write reviews so im afraid this is gonna come off as more just gushing than anything, but I get a sense that perhaps

Bu Bai and the Villain he's supposed to kill may have a past? Maybe like their own selves were lovers or smth before hand bUT IDK ITS A GUESS since Bu Bai was introduced as a kiddo haha


And also (now this is kinda a spoiler but I mean, its 3 chapters like)


"Life and death had always been decided by God's will. He had killed Bu Bai four times, yet as before, he was still alive. Qi Mo Ran believed that this was a kind predestined relationship, he had been brought to his side due to fate.

Since it was like that, then he would receive it. Demons had always been about doing as they please. The first time he saw him, he realised that he desired this person. After several tries of being unsuccessful in controlling him, how should he treat him?"

Its the whole predestined thing im like omg is that foreshadowing??? And the "The first time he saw him, he realised that he desired this person." line I mean, I hope thats not love/lust at first sight bc is2g I was so over that back in like, 1932 but even if it is hnngh this translation and writing has me so unusually pumped this storyline is so fxking A++

Update: chapter 4 istg I rlly feel like this more and more and if im wrong pls forgive me Sleepy Ant but this is so good thank u for picking this up //sobs


I mean, just f*cking read this:


"This is your residence?" Bu Bai looked uncertainly at the scene that was inconsistent with the rumours.

"This was also not my desire. However, when the building was being constructed, I thought that the appearance ought to be this way. It was as if there was a oath carved into my soul, and I didn't dare go against it." When Qi Mo Ran said these words, his icy exterior seemed to crack open, a gentle and soft feeling coming out in torrents instead.

"Do you like it?" Turning around suddenly, he asked Bu Bai this sentence.

"I like it." Evolving from the fondness in his heart, Bu Bai blurted it out without thinking.

"I knew you would." The words were as soft as a passing breeze. In an instant, they vanished between his lips and teeth.

"Did you say something just now?" Bu Bai fufilled his duty as a male consort by paying attention to his master's every word.

"No." After he turned around, the omipotent demonic energy that normally surrounded Qi Mo Ran reappeared. Even if the distance between the two of them was less than a metre, the misunderstandings between them were as deep as a thousand metres.

IM DECEASED I CANT HANDLE THEM I SWEAR AMNESIA TAG IM WATCHING YOUUUU 👀 THEYRE DESTINED OR EACH OTHER I love this novel so much every update is like getting a drop of water in a desert im dying


For those who opened the (not even) spoilers - did you get a glimpse of the great writing and excellent translation???? Im so fuxking dead yo There are loads more instances but like, its only chapter 3 and I dont want to end up quoting the whole novel in this little monster "review'" of mine haha

But I can greatly appreciate their dynamics more if my speculation is the case. Especially because, as you can tell from just the damn summary, this is painnnn but in the best way possibleee

There are SO many things I didn't mention which are incredibly important (like the whole ressurection tag, how the ML cultivates his feelings and the MLs feelings, ALL THE CHESTPAIN AND SO MUCH MORE YOU HAVE NO IDEA) but I don't want to give everything away lol so even of you didn't read all of my incoherent rambling, my TL;DR would be to defo give this a shot. Im not a friggin clairvoyant so I dont know what direction this will take in the future, but read it for a new interesting take on our beloved system novels, as well as the BL, fantastic writing and translation, and what seems like a reallllly good storyline.

(During chapter 3 I really just couldnt help going back to the summary and rereading it, especially the last two lines because holy mother of fuxking sh*t everything falls into place so well and its been 3 chapters but im fuxkin doneee man im in pain I love this already)

Thank you for putting up with my long-windedness I really hope this "review" (lol) did the novel justice so far it really was just me going off but this is my second time writing one lol please be easy on me haha And I'll be delighted if you choose to give this a read because so far, it is incredibleeee ☆☆☆☆☆ <<less
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AkritiGurung12 rated it
September 9, 2019
Status: --
Hello to you

Yes you who came to check the reviews

People are telling that it is good novel but sorry I don't think so

... more>> It's a messed up story.

MC is f*cked up when transmigrating to the world he got into the character too quickly (so disturbing)

It's like MC is a sl*t kissing the protagonist and ML the same time

He acts cute but I feel like he is a whore

If I knew someone like love me to the point of their death I would love them

But MC is so ass like never cared about ML

Always f*ckingly loving some sh*t bastard kissing hugging sleeping with them

So disgusting

Its for you guys who don't like harem

Thank you


Sorry for being rude <<less
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rhianirory rated it
May 17, 2019
Status: c14
this is an interesting story even if I find it disturbing on many levels. my biggest hang up has to do with my real world work experience. about the host being a child; I'm so not OK with it.

... more>>

first off, I know from some of the foreshadowing that he's probably not really a child just a soul that's lost all it's memories, but it still creeped me out big time. I worked with adults with severe developmental disabilities for five years so mother-hen protective mode kicked in with a vengeance.

it helps that his intelligence isn't really that of a little kid, but my brain couldn't let go of the knowledge that he was a child in an adults body and while his body was forcefully grown, his mental strength, emotional growth and life experience would be that of the kid and not the adult body. in fact, the more I read the more I felt horrified; the story is fast paced and he gets together (reluctantly) with the ML in the first world which made me queasy, and I was already uncomfortable with the ML killing him over and over again. almost everything about the first two worlds had all my professional and personal instincts screaming NO! to the point where I guess I found my bottom line for BL....


I'm not sure if I will stick to this novel to the end or not. I'm going to try to be as fair as I can but I really wish the author had gone with a simple mind wiped amnesiac rather than a child. <<less
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srrrahim rated it
August 28, 2018
Status: Completed
I sarcrifice my brain and went to read the raw. hahhhh.... this novel so good. The plot is good. When I read the last chapter, I don`t know what I trully feel. This is HE, so dont be afraid and read it.

Oh. I will give some spoiler that maybe can motivate you all 😋
... more>>

In the 1st world, he become a weak mob chara. He can ressurected every single time he died. The villain is a crazy bastard who keep killing him every single f*cking time. But when the villain hold him for a year and suicide while holding his intact body, I felt troubled. I don`t know wheter I love this villain or not. His character is too complicacted to me. Love, hate, and regret (Chapter 1-7)
In the 2nd world, MC is the ruler of demon sect. Strong and love to foce himself to a young boy (aka pedhophile). It shocked me that this world ending is the same as the 1st world. Villain died by suicied while holding his body (Villain give him a 7 day poison. On the 7 day, he died). (Chapter 8-16)
In the 3rd world, MC is the wife of the regent. The regent, is the villain in this world (The protagonist is the new emperor). The unique plot is, , actually the current regent is reborn on the day his lover died. Whithout explaining anything, he make MC his wife. And after a lot of torture and misunderstanding, MC is too tired to life, so he want to sleep for awhile under the tree. When the villan saw MC died under the tree, he felt so sad. He actually remember all of his life as a villain who always fall in love with MC and end up killing MC. (Chapter 17-25)


I wont spoil the reason behind the villain crazy destructive power and his red string with MC. But trust me. This novel deserve applause for the angst and twist. Try this. You Wont regret it <<less
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Shan Shan
Shan Shan rated it
April 28, 2018
Status: Completed
This is good! I just wish there were (more) fluff and cute moments for MC and ML in the end because a lot of scenes made me really sad...
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xjayx rated it
January 11, 2020
Status: c28
I did not enjoy reading this at all. I came here for romance as the genre is romance but there was just something suspiciously like Stockholm Syndrome going on.

But I read to the end and was disappointed some more. The ending did not fix anything.

... more>>

It was like the author tried to justify all the torture and sexual assault with the ending. Like it was okay because they knew each other before the MC lost his memories. I would also like to know what happened to all of the MC psychological issues that the ML caused, they seem to just disappear.


The translators did an amazing job, at some points throughout the story it got a bit confusing but thanks to the translators I was able to get the gist of everything. Which is why this gets 2 stars instead of 1. <<less
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Hweianime rated it
September 1, 2019
Status: Completed
It is honestly quite a painfully angsty qt, like, more than I thought it would be. However in a good way.

The story is very well written, and the themes are definitely dark so if you’re not cool with the MC getting hella bullied (imprisoned, some mention of torture, imprisoned again) then this is probably not for you. The ML is totally the yandere type, with typical yandere properties and the MC is a naive soul whose memories have been wiped (no he’s not an actual child and his thinking is... more>> very unchildlike as well. Honestly I don’t know why they even bothered to describe him having a young appearance in the first place really, I chose to ignore that bit of info since it literally does nothing but hurt the story- it does get explained in the end tho)

Anyway, I do recommend this to anyone interested. The arcs are great but pretty much all BE but the story in the end is a HE (if a bit abrupt lol). 5/5 <<less
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stardustmist rated it
February 21, 2020
Status: Completed
Some gave it 5 stars while other gave it 1 and 2, I just wasn't expecting much, but it was kinda disappointing. I wanted to stop reading it after a few chapters, but it's so unlike me to not finish the books I have started. So, I read it and the ending was good and why the MC has to kill the villian is nicely explained.

The fault lies in the plot development, I felt like the MC could have driven the plot elsewhere instead of entangling it more and more.... more>> Yes, the MC is naive and innocent, but sometimes he's a literal airhead. I have read a fair share of dense MC and it's adorable when not prolonged for such a long time.

You can give it a try, cause everyone's preferences are different. What I like, you may not like it and vice versa. However, this just wasn't in my preference. Maybe I thought the plot could be saved, but it goes downhill instead. <<less
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earlgreyt rated it
December 14, 2019
Status: Completed
It's not bad for a break-type read. The backstory & setting reminded me of Gu Bai from [Holding onto My Man] (even the names are similar!), so it's pretty unoriginal. (Actually if this was fanfiction of that one, I wouldn't be surprised...)

If you like deity!backstory MCs, I recommend [Need to Propose 7 Men, What do Do!] as it's done much better.

Anyway, this isn't bad. It passes the time if you have nothing else to do.

I have to say that the author isn't really great at making the premise clear.

... more>>

For example, Bu Bai's acting vs. his real feelings are completely mixed together without any transitions, so it's pretty weird to see him suddenly get "in-character" without context.

Another issue is the backstory. You're randomly dropped into system world/space that is somehow connected to cultivation xianxia stories with immortals, but none of that is mentioned at all until the very last part.


Translation gets better (Chrysanthemum Garden!) so it reads well. <<less
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mmem rated it
October 16, 2019
Status: c3
I hate this story. It's pretty f-ed up. The MC is unbelievably cruel. To be fair the plot lost me to the point I just didn't understand what was even going on anymore. Mostly I regret reading this story. Just if you aren't feeling the first few chapters it's probably best to stop, the ending wasn't worth it.
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Rustle silver butterflies rated it
March 4, 2020
Status: Completed
It's doubtful novel I even don't know what to write. It's cruel tragic and abusive. Of course I don't advise read this novel If you don't like r*pe and gore. (That is, no one) If honestly I can't advise this at all. I also don't see good sides and reasons to read.
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Foreveralone rated it
April 24, 2020
Status: c24
Ok, so, first of, I really feel like the tragedy genre should be in here. I couldn't really find the romance of it at all, as it felt more guilt-trippy/stalkholm syndrome than anything. The novel essentially breaks into three arcs, but in my personal opinion, the amount of chapters made all three feel a bit rushed.
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SayMrrp rated it
December 5, 2019
Status: c28
Kinda illogical? A bit random? Not that realistic?

But the feeling of angst are the whole point, and that's there, so I guess we're good. Read it if you want to feel angst, not to find high quality plot and character development.
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Natural_Sapphire rated it
October 11, 2019
Status: c28
A good story and the starting arc hooked me up till the end. I wish the author made it longer. Even though I don't want to say much about arc 3, I liked other arcs.

I think the ending is a bit rushed and I had to spend some time to understand it. In general, I would give four stars to it but I liked MC so much, so 5 stars from me.
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October 10, 2019
Status: Completed
I haven't read how others rate or commented in this novel.🤔 So, lazy.😋 I have others in my queue reading list waiting.

All in all it's a good read 👍. Tottaly love it. Especially the ending. Just short is very good to me. Tired of a thousand chapter read really. I like this book so Im gonna check other works of this author. ❤️❤️❤️ I'm the Queen of laziness if I bother to comment and votes this book really 💘 win my heart. Love, love this. Please read you won't... more>> be disappointed. 😘 <<less
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Staringatastar rated it
September 17, 2019
Status: Completed
Such a sweet, heart aching story. There's lots of misunderstanding at first, but eventually the guy realizes who he really loves. I also thought the arcs were interesting, if also a bit unsatisfying since the main guy keeps failing to recognize his true love. I could see how people might dislike the book because the relationship is a bit complicated and dark - but I do like the timelessness of it.

I thought the ending felt a bit abrupt and slightly confusing (I wasn't sure of the timeline), but all in... more>> all, a nice romance. <<less
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nixxara rated it
July 3, 2018
Status: --
I have no clue how this relationship is going to end up, MC has to kill the villain who is in love with him. This is a task given by the system.

The Mc's a little kid but system changed his body into an adult. Though he still lowkey has the mindset of a child.

This story contains immortals that create systems and gives them tasks to give to their hosts.
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