For Zhang Han, his relationship with Jiang Yu was only a past fling, like a book he finished reading, never opened again once it was closed. But Jiang Yu wrote every verse in his heart and kept it for a lifetime.

There went my faint hope that Zhang Han broke up with him for a reason like wanting Jiang Yu to grow up, etc., etc. It's unexpectedly fresh, out of the usual trope, but my heart is aching. He looked like a scum, but it's realistic, isn't it.

They were together in highschool. It's not completely unexpected if it were only a frivolous kind of teenagers love. But Jiang Yu took it seriously because it was the only light he could see in this total darkness.

It was like seeing the trope of MC with low self-esteem keep making excuses about ML's care for him because he didn't want to believe that ML did everything out of love.

Zhang Han is a man completely out of his league, who, in a strange hiccup of the universe requited his love once upon a time. Jiang Yu held on to it. His infatuation is the last rope he's holding on to. Hoping for years that the other end was also still being held on even just a little bit. But not only was it not held but the rope he thought was given to him by the other person was actually only his own and everything was a made up illusion. Zhang Han never liked him, never hold him dear at all. How worthless was he in Zhang Han's eyes if Zhang Han didn't even remember much about the time he spent with Jiang Yu.

I can understand Zhang Han being the type that goes into relationships casually. The type of person who maybe we can meet in real life, entering relationships as flings for present enjoyment, never taking them seriously, backing out after they are asked to promise the rest of their life.

Yes he plopped himself into the lake along with the fishes.

yes, he died by jumping into a lake, and I feellikeit was the happiest ending he could've gotten.

after his death

drunk/crazy MC tries to force ML, but he knows deep inside that he's not going to do anything to ML, it's just like fulfilling a last wish before dying.

On the other hand, there's some non-graphic info about the repeated assault on MC while he's in the torture dungeon, also known as tbe institute of 'conversion therapy' [side note, but yes, places like that really do exist, if you're wondering]

His parents threw him into some rehab facility, where he gets sexually abused and forced to under go electric shocks, to hopefully come out "normal"??? Then they try to set him up with a girl only to find out afterwards that his parents already knew what kind of facility they threw him into. He kinda goes crazy and starts laughing hysterically. He then break ties with his parents.

He attempts to r*pe the ML only to be rejected again. Then shows the ML the abuse he's gone through and the scars on his body, reminding himself of how broken he is and how no one he loves want him for who he really is. In the end, he buys himself a bouquet of flowers and drowned himself in a lake.

The ML approached the MC because the later seemed to need someone by his side, and got into a relationship with him afterwards but then broke up with him, without any explanation, while the MC had fallen deeply for him and for his care, and even unassumingly suggested they just stay friends after the break up, "it turned out it was just a spur of the thing relationship, he had never really loved him"

Years after their separation, at their first reunion the ML went looking for the MC first still unassumingly, and went following him while not really caring to ask questions even when it was obvious that many things had happened to the MC, that mattered to the MC

The ML suggested meeting for dinner, cohabitating, and revisting their high school where they had their romance in an atittude of neither setting clear boundaries as just old friends, nor giving clear advances as an old lover you want to rekindle things with

When the MC opened up to the ML about his fight with his parents concerning his sexuality, all he got in response was a "i figured you would have gotten a girlfriend already" whilst dissociating himself from him

And many small things the ML did that seem harmless but in fact just kept on piling up and eventually broke the MC, especially so since the ML was precisely that last straw that the MC was clutching at to keep himself going