I Have a Secret


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Huang Dan’s sensation of pain is innately different from ordinary people. The littlest tear in his skin can cause him to sweat all over his body in pain, to the point where he is unable to say a word.

Somehow, he began to cross through different worlds, following Mr. System to complete tasks…

In the first world, Huang Dan realizes what it means to be in such pain as to die, live, and die again.

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New earlgreyt rated it
January 15, 2020
Status: Completed
I give very few 5 stars on this site... this is probably one of the best QT novels I've read on this site.

Some of it has to do with the different worlds. Unlike every other QT novels, in this one there isn't a lot of fantasy/magical type events. It reads more like the magical realism genre or historical with a bit of ancient Chinese mythology (for example, the existence of yao who can cultivate into human beings).

Because of that, with the premise that the MC is there to solve a... more>> mystery, the characters, events, and setting are extraordinarily thorough and fleshed out.

Most QT novels like to summarize; this doesn't.

You get a very fulfilling and vivid description of the situation, circumstances, and side-characters. The mysteries or "catching the culprit" are also done very well. It's not always a murder, sometimes the problem is "who is the voyeur" or "who are the thieves"?

The main character isn't particularly special. His expertise is the sciences (he's basically a math/computing genius), but he gave that up when he was younger to become an architect. So other than being able to do accurate accounting or step in for a concept art, he has no real "skill" in detective work, which is what his assignments are made of.

He has to use his "regular person" observation skills and negative EQ (he's basically this unfeeling, awkward, antisocial guy) in order to complete his tasks. Extremely difficult!!

The character development for this main character is incredibly amazing. The relationship progression is really well done and I love that the ML isn't your cliched "best-at-everything/wealthy/deep-background/secret-prince/etc."


They start out closer to enemies/rivals/fellow suspects in each world and the MC frequently has to be the one to court the ML because the ML has no memory of the past.


Anyway, other than the sliiiiightly off-kilter epilogue, the main story and worlds are amazing. Each one builds upon the next because the MC learns more and more from each world and becomes transformed by his experiences.

Highly recommend if you like stories with character depth, character development, and very interesting plots revolved around mystery-solving a la police detectives!

Translation: unfortunately, the translator feels rather new, I had to stop reading after a few chapters because stuff didn't make sense and the flow was off (and the translation was super super literal which messed with the original writing's meaning). I ended up reading the raws, which I know not everyone can do... unfortunately I can only say that the author's writing is fantastic, so don't judge the book by the translation! <<less
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New lukibunny rated it
December 28, 2019
Status: c1
The stories are really interesting. They are all mysteries. Each arc is very long. The love story between the MC and the ML is very sweet and makes me cry every time because of how sweet it is. All the arcs are very well written. The only problem I find is that sometimes the MC just excepts things too easily. Like how he just went with it when the ML confesses to him.. or like how he suddenly got binded with a system and transmigrated. His reaction to both is... more>> like, Okay... Besides that the novel is really worth a read.

The worlds in this novel is really different from every transmigration I have ever read. The first 4 arcs (where I'm reading now) all take place in really poor conditions in china. It reminds me of all the old Chinese drama about poor chinese farmers. Also.. the author... seems to like to write about poop... every arc... someone is pooping or there is poop somewhere... it's odd.. <<less
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Whitesky rated it
April 1, 2019
Status: Completed
I only recently finished reading this novel in Chinese and its still fresh in my mind.

This is one of the best danmei novels I have read and one of the reasons is its very atypical.

It is a quick transmigration novel but different from all other ones I have seen. In each the MC has to solve a mystery: usually murders, robberies etc. The MC is extremely calm and seemingly emotionless but in fact isn't at all. Please read on as I explain.

All the way until maybe the very last arc,... more>> the storylines are quite realistic... in the first arc both MC and ML are ordinary villagers, in another they're housemates in a shared house, even the one where the MC is a rich young master in a historical setting he doesn't have much power and is restrained by the realities of his time. Hence there is no overpowered MC and ML in any of the arcs. The only one approaching the unrealistic setting of most danmei is perhaps the last arc and their real lives howver even that is more realistic than most.

Because of this realism, the writers writing style is the closest approaching literary that I have seen in a BL novel. Her style is extremely restrained but at the same time makes the emotions stronger. Ill give you an example. In the entire first arc the MC's feelings for the ML are never described. Its clear that the ML is desperately in love with the MC but MC who is lacking in emotions just seems to be going along with it. But in the second arc when MC constantly recalls things about the ML such as the brand of cigarettes that he used, you come to realize through his actions how deep his love was.

The love story between the two is super super epic. All the more so because they are ordinary people. Oh the MC is always described as extremely good looking if that helps haha, but his position in life is ordinary mostly. However his love for MC isn't and as you keep reading, you find out how much the MC loves him too.

Sometimes the mystery each arc is a bit mundane and resolved somewhat quickly but doesnt detract from the atmospheric strength of the novel. The secondary characters are all sooo realistic and I have to give props for the realistic portrayal of women: from the sister-in-law with a university education trapped in a village, to the prostitute with a seemingly careless attitude towards her life.

Warning that I think 70% of the arcs have sad endings as MC cannot control when/how he exits each world, and several of them had me breaking down in tears. The final ending is very happy though and the last parts/arc are probably the only fairytale/unrealistic parts of the novel. But thats okay. Who doesnt love a happy ending. Particularly with how gruelling it was to get there.

Please give this novel a chance. Its extremely atmospheric and for those who enjoy light/fluffy/fairytale type BL may find it hard to digest at first. But if you give it a chance you will find a hidden gem that you will come back to time and time again. <<less
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redxx rated it
April 1, 2019
Status: c50
A more realistic BL world hopping with no OP MC and likeable ML.

Story started with MC being transmigrated into another world where he took on the body of a farmer and tries to solve who murdered his fellow villager. There's something wrong with MC's nervous system so he tends to experience more pain then the rest if he ever get injured.

MC's bland reactions will be explained.

... more>>

and I thought it will be very angsty due to his nervous system but I was wrong !!! MC is such a tease.


So far until chapter 25 in term of the story (no spoilers) :

Story's quite paced, not too rush nor exceeding slow as each chapter revealed different possibilities.

The author did a fantastic job of writing each characters! Really brings me so feels? Especially ML, I am not even sure why but his character is really appealing. One of the best ML I ever read. (My humble opinion)

In term of romance,

Currently 2 arcs in, MC and ML's interactions being adorable and real. No straightaway falling in love and jumping to bed, but though cause and effect, especially in the case of ML.

But somehow, to me, it give of the feeling of eating a candy laced with blades in it. Especially

When it so obvious ML loved MC, you can really see it in both arcs but what bout MC? But author havent never written any obvious signs of MC loving ML, feel like MC is loving for the sake of loving. Thats what the first 2 arcs revealed. But, in the end, I am pretty sure MC love ML alot. Like how he thought about ML's smell, and how he stayed by ML's side til he die, very subtle hints hanging in the writing.


The ending of the second arc.........

reminds me of ending of the second arc in how to die as heavy as mount tai ahahahahaha WTF why is it so sad..


PLUS POINT : text always describe ML as a hottie %

I love this story alot. <<less
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DhiVhi rated it
May 17, 2019
Status: Completed
This is one of the most amazing fast wear danmei that I've read.

Just like the reviewer before me, there is no OP MC/ML. So, MC really used his brain to solve the misteries. In here ML doesnt act as golden finger but a great supporting role in helping MC. Really satisfying and somewhat cute seeing MC & ML interaction and how MC always like to see ML butt every first time they met 😂. Not all of the arc is HE but the way the author conclude each arc is... more>> really good & I also crying so hard in some moment where MC & ML has to separate.

All in all, this is a really great danmei & I think one of the danmei who worthy to have a title 'Must Read' for every danmei sect <<less
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ylial rated it
May 16, 2019
Status: c25
Great story. MC has hyperalgesia. The task given to him by system is to solve d cases on each arcs. I like the ML too, not the usual overbearing president that can be found in every danmei stories but is still reliable and good looking 💕🤣

The story arc1 killer is somewhat predictable except

cousin zhang is accomplice of cui Ling. Also the mc's mother past in the arc1

and the "past stories".

will rerate after I finish the story
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Doytch Magient rated it
September 3, 2019
Status: --
I simply love the cp, ML was so sweet and shameless lol a lil bit tsundere too. The system didn't require MC to die after he finished his job, and didn't tell him not to love ML as long as he didn't OOC. The part I love the most is the lewd scene was written very ero-ero well, and it's cute everytime MC told ML not to hm hm.... (lol it's kiss what did you think;3) too hard and started dropping tears bcs it's very painful to him. Aaaaagh too... more>> cute. Too sweet. Simply Pit of dog foods🌈. <<less
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Saikick rated it
December 20, 2019
Status: c5
The novel style is very different from what I'm used to, and kind of coarse and crude in its language - but one thing I can say is that the translation is rather bad and difficult to follow. It reads more like a cleaned up MTL than an actual translation, and I wouldn't be at all surprised to learn that that's what it is. (Or, perhaps, that the English comprehension level of the translator is low)

Aside from the translation and reading issues, the different style is refreshingly down to... more>> earth and reminds me more of books like Huckleberry Finn than the usual Chinese BL novels. It's a bit dry and straightforward, with little description or stream of consciousness. The mystery, as well, isn't a grand supernatural undertaking but a regular realistic incident.

I'll have to update the review when I manage to read further; hopefully the translation quality improves in later chapters. <<less
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hakuna matata rated it
December 11, 2019
Status: c24
So cute love this novel for everyone out there you must try read this story it's so realistic ML and MC not ur topical op couple but still so cute and lots of fluff
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