Cry, Even Better if you Beg


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The Herhardt household’s masterpiece.

The young owner of a heaven-like place called Arvis.

The beautiful bird slaughterer.

Matthias von Herhardt.

His perfect life- completely swallowed, crushed, and shaken-

by his lovely bird.

Leyla Lewellin.

Cut, locked, and tamed her wings.

In order to keep Leyla Lewellin in custody, Matthias did not hesitate in his actions.

Because he did not hesitate, he did not regret.

Because he did not regret, he did not reflect.

Because he did not reflect, he did not apologize.

When his beautiful bird, Leyla Lewellin, opened her cage and flew away, Matthias decided.

“If I am to lose her forever and can’t get her back, I’d rather kill her.”

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13 Reviews

New Sailor113
Nov 12, 2021
Status: c26
The story is well written and easy to get into. It’s also very enjoyable, and I never get bored reading this. The translations are also really professional. Whoever did the translating did a really good job!

The female lead is really likeable, even though she isn’t fantastic. She isn’t annoying and she isn’t too dumb. If you don’t like characters that cry a lot you might not like her, but I think it’s realistic that she would cry in her situations.

The male lead doesn’t just have sadistic tendencies, he’s actually evil.... more>> He does everything he can to make the female lead cry, and just treats her like shit. The female lead deserves so much better than him, and I honestly can’t imagine how she’s going to fall in love with him, because so far the only way he have made her heart beat is because of fear.

Even if I gave it a high rating I can see why others gave it a low rating. This might not be for evryone. <<less
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Aug 05, 2020
Status: c3
Literally know this is going to be an absolute favorite of mine after only 3 chapters, yup it's that great of a setup, translation and potential. Much Thanks to the translator for her hard work!
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Aug 15, 2020
Status: c15
Same as akane09! The translation is really good!!


plot wise so far I can’t accept it if Matthias is ML. He’s rude and he totally doesn’t respect Leyla. The only redeeming fact about him is the fact that he’s p good looking but his personality is total shit. There’s a way to flirtatiously tease someone without making the person feel like total tr*sh but he doesn’t know how to do that.

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Aug 11, 2020
Status: c20
Wow! This review is primarily for the translator. The story is easy to follow and the translations are regularly updated. I feel spoiled. Thank you for your wonderful work. It's appreciated and enjoyed!

As for the story, I'm not too far into it but I'm already hooked. I'm a sucker for the yandere ML stories and this one doesn't look like it's going to disappoint.
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Aug 22, 2020
Status: --
I did read this one sadly. I wasn't able to finish it. Since my dumb ass wanted to read many chapters and then when I got back it's been deleted. I have already guess that what happened. I do understand the authors and hope for their success. But I also hope they release an official english translation. Overall I am thanking the translator even though it wasn't finish I was able to read a interesting story. Thank you for the hard work :)
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Sep 27, 2021
Status: Completed
I just finished reading this novel and all I have to say is...I am so unsatisfied. The depth of sorrow and desperation to escape that the MC has is so high that for a moment..I thought I was actually feeling these emotions. At one point I didn't think it was possible for MC to have a happy ending as she kept facing impossible situations. The novel does end with a happy ending but to me it leaves a bitter taste in my mouth.

Why is it that every Korean novel I... more>> read, the ML is so awful... it's to the point of insanity.

If you decide to read this, make sure you get your tissues ready once you hit the halfway point of this novel. I should have read the tags carefully because now I'm gonna need to detox heavily after finishing this. <<less
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Oct 28, 2021
Status: c55
I absolutely love this novel. And I love all three main characters but.. Obviously I love Matthias the most. He is kinda crazy but he is just so interesting. I can think about the reasons behind his actions all day long.

And the translation is SO good! The best that I have read so far. The plot is so well written and emotions well described. This is definitely my most favourite novel of recent times.

Please suggest similar novels if there's any :))
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Mar 18, 2021
Status: --
I'm reading the MTL version of this novel so I was having a lack of comprehension for this one. But I will be honest with my review.

The title itself is a proof that this is a drama. But when you read it the phase is just hmmm... Just average feel. It's like when you read your typical historical english romance novel. That's where am I getting on this one.

The story started when the FL Leila/Leyla been adopted by his far relative uncle Bill. And how she wants to be a... more>> good daughter figure to his uncle. But due to some coincidence he always get entangled with the ML Matthias or Matthius in the MTL version.

I will warn you on this one because the ML has a case of bullying the FL so much. As the title itself. He always did something bad to the FL because he wants to see a reaction from her. And that is to make her cry resulted to bullying and also sexual assault.


He felt an attraction to the FL. Sexual attraction that he wants to claim her so badly.


The female lead wants to avoid the ML so much but the ML itself don't want to stop and his making a round on the FL.

Actually the FL is mature and a fighter even at a young age. And she is also a lovable and adorable character. Maybe the reason I'm still reading it until now.

ML have a crappy personality. He is not just a perfectionist but also has a case of obsession towards our FL. This results to our FL being suffocated already. The ML is also hot headed and he is the type that 'whatever it is, I get it' guy. The most despicable type of personality. Like I'm already turn off so badly.

I agree with other who review this. I want the ML to crumble and beg our FL.

Spoiler below read at your own risk.


I read some few chapters accidentally and it has mature content. And FL being pregnant and running away.


All and all I give this 3 stars. I'm still not finish I'm still on chapter 60 or 64. Not so sure lol. But this rating will be enough because I'm still not finish.

If you want a roller coaster ride of feels. This story will be good for you. Like you will be totally gets frustrated so badly and pity the FL lots of times. Why ML do this and that. Why! Wanna kill that jerk already lol.

P.S I really recommend this if you read the story whole I guess. Because if you read it and look forward for every update the feels of the story will be gone. So full story reading is better on my opinion. <<less
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Oct 15, 2021
Status: c1 part1
This novel is absolutely one of my favourite korean novel like woooowww. The plot is well written and the emotions are overflowing. A lot of readers seems to hate the ml, and sure because of that they end up giving this masterpiece a low rating that's why I decided to make an account and give this a 5 star rating. It's a good read, definitely recommend this.
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Jan 13, 2021
Status: c21
dropped it at chapter 21. props to the translator for translating it very well! I really, really, reaaaaaaaaally tried hard to get into it, but I just couldn't bring myself to condone any of the bullying the poor MC has to submit herself to - even if it's for plot purposes urgh... also can't bring myself to feel any sympathies for the ML, he speaks like an a**hole, behaves like an a**hole, is an a**hole. I don't think I can hold on for so long to see him unravel for... more>> the MC either, so... yep dropped it. that's just my two cents though, so everyone else reading it, have fun! <<less
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Oct 23, 2020
Status: --
The ambiance in the story is really good. About the main characters...

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I really like Leyla. She is naive, but not dumb. She loves birds and flowers, and curious about the world, I find that really lovely. She is also considerate and kind.

The duke is the type that dominates. I find him quite a sadist. He is obsessive and just... Crazy. And hot and perfect type of man. Typical character in novels but I like how the author writes him. Not that usual yandere who spoils rotten only to someone they love and cold towards anyone else. I'm not sure what he feels toward Leyla is love or just obsession. Honestly, I kind of hate him but I love the story.

Ohh and my favorite character is Uncle Bill! He is such a tsunderee I love him.

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Mar 23, 2021
Status: Completed
Everything is just so amazing! The metaphors are just brilliantly put. The uses of birds and flowers to describe Leila! I mean the way the author has written the book is just amazing!

Even though I don't like this character Matthias Von Herhardt at all but I can only grumble about it. I'm truly at awe at the author's writing rn. The epilogue + side stories are just beautiful. The author just blended the Male Lead so well that you can't really refute the pairing in the end, and it isn't... more>> even forced or just for the sake of male and female lead being together out of the blue. But I'll be honest, I don't like Matthias at all. I'll always choose Kyle over him. <<less
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Dec 25, 2020
Status: --
When I read the synopsis, I was really tempted to read it thus I read it. Its good. Too good. But too heartbreaking. You can really feel the emotions on the story specially when the FL was treated harshly by the ML himself, or whenever someone was bullying her. Its really sad that I don't have courage to finish it. But its really a good story. Its just my heart can't take this kind of story. 💜
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