So much angst! Still could like it if the wicked got punished. But it never happened so -10000 for me.

My Thoughts:

As belonging to a such family, I found the FL selfish for giving up her love for someone who never cared for her. Though she regretted it later, her lover suffered all his life. All characters here are inhumane, heinous, and selfish except FL's lover (ML). This 1 star was also for him. If those pieces of sh*t suffered it would have been a 3-star for me at most. But for this reason, it's a minus for me. Will not recommend but if you still wanna read it's your choice.

Hi! I'm the translator for this novel.

So, the novel focuses on Kilianerisa, albeit indirectly. It has multiple POVs, where every person who became a part of or involved in Kilia's life has a POV. Each POV focuses on the thoughts and feelings they had before and after Kilia's death, hence the angst.

And this is where I fell in love with the story. The way the author articulated everything made me understand and even sympathize with the characters' feelings, thoughts, and decisions. I think the novel even has a little touch... more>> of mystery. As you read further, you will start questioning and speculating how such a situation came to be.

Moving on~

First, I want to say that those who gave a low rating didn't give justice to this novel.

Second, this novel dove deep into the angst.

Some reviews were bad, probably because there was a lot of angst in the novel. However, imo, it is unfair for this novel to be rated low just because it has "too much angst". Despite having too much angst, the author was able to compensate for it by being able to portray characters that readers can sympathize with. The characters indeed have negative traits, but they also have positive traits in them. All of these made them more human.

Again, as you read further, you will come to understand why they acted the way they acted.

For example, Kilianerisa:

Spoiler

She is seen as a villain, and yes, she is a villain. However, she chose to be a villain.

She left her lover just to gain the love and acknowledgement of her father [the thing], which she had been seeking all her life.

She was s*upid and selfish, both of which made her human. All her life, she'd been wanting this thing. Then, one day, she was given a chance to get it. She took the chance, knowing well that she had to throw away her lover. Since she grew up chasing the "thing, " she also grew up believing that that was her reason for being. That's why in the end, she chose his father over her lover.

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Anyway, I won't elaborate further because I don't want you guys to miss out on feeling with the characters as you read the novel.

Overall, this novel is very well-written. It's one of the novels that almost made me cry. (Fyi, I don't cry easily)

Note: if you're not into angst, then this is not for you. But you will be missing out a lot. <<less

This is the second time I'm reading the novel and it's still as gut-wrenching as ever. Super thank you to Cookie for picking up this novel after months and months of begging on the forum. Thank you for making the translation so smooth that my one brain cell could actually pick up ❤️
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I'm not going to talk about the characters whether they are good or bad because this novel isn't about "best ML" and "best FL" award.

In a way, you can think of the characters as a bunch of anti-heroes meshed together. The characters here aren't heroic characters who are the epitome of goodness and love. Instead, the characters are the type of people you would meet in the street, the kind you hear in the news or social media or the maybe the type of people that looks at you when you look at the mirror.

So no, there are no nice characters in here. Just characters with reasons.

This so far my most recommendable korean novel because in the sea of villainess-centric novels here in NU, this novel was able to capture the essence of regret in a villainess story that I've been so desperate to find.

The way this was written was also something I definitely love.

The ending.

The possibilities.

The pain that lingers.

And you know what, I'm a firm believer that a really memorable story leaves a little bit of itself in us after we read them.

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I've read this story (in a crude MTL copy) way before Everything Everywhere All At Once was released but I think this quote perfectly sums up two characters in the story. IFYKYK.

"In another life, I would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with you.

Read at your own risk. The synopsis shows what you should expect, a purposely tragic story. It lived up to my expectations of a story without a good end for anyone, only in the what-if side stories that each take different paths.

This is angst, no he but you kind of get a he in an extra of some sort. If you like yo make yourself suffer emotionally like me then I recommend this.

Some may think the method of the FL is extreme and too much but I get it, especially when you are hungry to beloved, you will end up doing anything to get it and if you add desperation and hopelessness then you got a futile combination.

I cried for several minutes due to this, it's really good and I do... more>> believe someone needs to pick it up. <<less

A very beautiful story where it focuses on the remorse of the characters after someone's death and how they discover their feelings but it's too late

100% you're going to cry in every chapter you're going to feel a lot of sadness and a lump in your throat I love it a very unique story if you want something new and cry read this ❤️🥹