Perfect for us masochistic fools who just wants to experience pain 'cause thus is living *sigh*

Therapy costs more than these novels.... more>>

**A better name for this list would be Tragic Romance Novels (18+) but I wanted to emphasize on the process of grief I regularly experience while reading this stuff. 

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I'll still be implementing a rating system from **1-5 with 1 being just sad at some parts to 5 being downright horrific**

**In addition, rather than the summaries I put short explanations for the rating. In all honesty, it's better for you to ignore them. Protect your mental well-being from my inane babbling and mild spoilers. <<less

My favorite Novels where mc is being loved by one or many yandere chracters
?! QAQ

Ancient or Cultivation BL reads that will make you feel you didn't waste your time. This list is apart of a series classified by genre; other lists of this series include Thriller/Action, Fluff, and Modern/Transmigration novels. I tried to include both known and unknown novels to give more diversity to the reading list. Honest note--not a big fan of ancient settings. I've judged quality by reviews and seeming plot. ... more>>

So what is my subjective version of a quality BL of this list?

-No/little plot holes & well developed plot

Capable MC and ML  (not aggravatingly s*upid and knows when to respect each other but also put their foot down at the right moments). 

 -Lasting impression. I made this list by memory so if it's not on here...Chances are it's not worth remembering for the list.

-Makes me think--especially applies to this genre since I usually read this genre for the court schemes and palace intrigues. 

-Make me cry, laugh, yell or gasp. Perhaps all at the same  time. 

*****I have also included BL novels that have high expectations from me. The higher the expectations, the higher the stars. Hence, "***, **, *."

PS. Novels I've read are the only ones rated according to number. The rest (unread) are just listed randomly.

 PSS. There are always exceptions on this list that don't fit the requirements. But it's not bad to explore out of your comfort zone.  <<less

A lot of good dog blood is buried below the ratings bcos it's an unfortunate fact that a lot of NU users only rate novels according to fluff amount w/c made it harder for drama fans to look for good angst.  Common tropes: #wife/husband-chasing crematorium#angst #drama #torture #regret #character development #grovelling #(some)redemption  #(some)tragedy and other triggering issues. ... more>>

#REAL Crematorium. Just search around for full explanation but impt. point is: THEY ENDED UP WITH ANOTHER PERSON. For those who had a sadistic liking seeing a scum ML grovelling but still fail to take MC back, THIS IS FOR YOU.

 Warning: Most stories here are only for the strong-hearted. However, those I regard as "bad (or messily-written) dog blood" that I really cannot tolerate will not be included here  

I will indicate if it's bad ending. If it doesn't have the #BE tag, it's automatically a happy ending.
If you wanted to cleanse your tear duct every now and then, check the ones tagged with #tearjerker. You're welcome.

PM me for raw/MTL links <<less

why do you even look for knife bro. treasure your life more. treasure your kokoro more. QAQ... more>>

Warning:
- I don't read BE (some might be BE-ish tho :haroldface:)
- I only add titles where I've experienced the knife, or know there would be knife for sure (ex: mudaoli's novel)
- degree of knife sharpness varies for each person. you might agree with this list, you might not. 
- I have low pain tolerance :haroldface: 

my scale of pain, ranged from 'not really hurts' to 'it haunts me every time I see kite': 
1-3: wooden rice spoon (getting hit by one hurts okay)
4-6: paper cut (hidden but suddenly you feel pain)
7-8: knife. be wary. 
9: you're almost ascending via 刀道
10: machete. you've already reached godhood of 刀道. congratulations.  <<less

Aka (ex)scum gongs chasing wife to crematorium collection OR a collection of knives cause... I love abusing my heart ಥ‿ಥ... more>>

The usual recipe(variations may occur) for delicious dogblood plot is: Be a scum, Break a heart, Late realisation, Regrets, +/-Rebirth/Second chances, +++Chase wife to crematorium. 

Includes tragedies.

⚠️ Warning ⚠️: Som-*cough* Most of em contains 'Rape' and 'r*pe victim becomes lover' tags. And few include 'su*cide' tag so please read the tags before you proceed. <<less

i am very picky and particular about characters, the story, and translation quality so you can trust my recommendations
( this list is not structured or orgainzed from my fav to least fav or something, just the first 5 are some of my favs )... more>>

https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/80301/?ft=yes (pt. 2 of this list) <<less

Only danmei.... more>>

Novels in the comments are the ones that are not here in NU <<less

All BL stories with extreme amount of angst. You know, just in case you woke up today and was like “I feel like hurting and crying over fictional characters”. ... more>>

AND BEWARE 

Some are HE and some are BE. But like a villain, I’m not going to tell you which is which  <<less

These are collection of tragic novels associated with unrequited love, betrayal, tragic fate, abusive character, and inhuman treatment. Most novels is about MC who find their misery is enough, want to get away from toxicity, and cherish what their tattered soul left. Not an easy journey ofc, since these worlds were created for MC to suffer. However, MC's spirit to be free is what highly valued. ... more>>

The other novels are purely angst that hurting the heart and shivering the bone.

There are many more heart wrenching novels i've read but not listed in here. I can't stand humiliation without victim ability to prevail it over and preperator's redemption. So this type of angst not listed in this list.

ATTENTION
⚠️Descriptions cointain spoilers⚠️ <<less

some of the novels i’ve read and my thoughts on them

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Keep in mind that I also have finished many thai novels that aren't available on this site ! 

*Danmei/ Chinese BL. *Listed in the order of which I finished reading them, tho I'm not sure about the ones in between TGCF and Copper... more>> coins, I don't remember anymore :')   <<less

a list of crematorium/wife-chasing/gong regret/scum gong novels ft. some with misunderstandings! i wanted an angst tag but there isn't one ;; if you have any suggestions, i'd love to hear them in the comments! included are also some novels that aren't necessarily crematorium but may still make your heart hurt (in a good way) from the misunderstandings and relationships!... more>>

the wife-chasing novels follow a general pattern of: MC loves ML but ML treats MC badly and/or does not reciprocate > something happens to MC, such as death, amnesia, sickness, or he falls out of love with ML > ML belatedly realizes his feelings > ML tries to chase the MC and win him back

please do mind the tags of some of the novels, as some of them are BE! <<less

*in no particular order*... more>>

-pain

-BE or HE is fine but there must be obstacles in the middle...., angsty

-crematorium

-ML doesn't care about the MC from the start (or ML does care but doesn't know how to express it) but once MC is gone from their grasp (death/ coma/ near-death experience/ breakup?) they finally realize what they let slip from their fingertips. 

-or after all the disappointment and hurt, MC doesn't care anymore and it's the emotionally constipated ML's turn to chase.

*recommendations are appreciated (very) <<less

When the gong has to chase his little wife back... more>>

Extremely dog blood  <<less

90%read. They are here 'cause I found the synopsis angsty or some chapters in the novels i've read made me cry and sad. Anyway sadness is there.... more>>

Includes: psychological, tragedy, abuse, unrequited love, depression, complex family relations, hated protagonist, child abuse, sickly characters, i-love-you-and-so-if-you-use-me-i-don't-mind type, etc... among others

Most of then are really short (<100) and though many of them have tragedy, many have happy endings too.  <<less

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if u are tired from waiting in on going novels, this one’s for u ! ෆ╹ .̮ ╹ෆ... more>>

༉‧☼ not ranked / not added based on their ratings ~

༉‧☼ various genres are here ~

KUDOS TO THE AUTHORS & TRANSLATORS! T___T ♡y’all are amazing and heaven-sent!

part 1 = https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/25724/ <<less

BL novels i've finished reading

I like Tragedy novels and like to cry a lot while reading. Becuz i cry, i feel relieved all my stresses

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My favorite webnovels That i highly recommend reading ( ~°♡°~)/ And uhh also this is my reading list so everything  here are novels that i have read/started reading/think abt reading... more>>

Every novel here is considered as "good" bl based on majority opinions
So if you had problem with finding good bl this is a list for you

(Also i think most negative comments of mine here can be summed up with "i dont like this gong/ relationship between main characters" bc i have way too high expectations and also hate "cold, strong, cool, quiet gong " and "naive, ignorant, weak shou" so im going to degrade novels with this overused and shitty dynamics yeah have funn reasing this list)

So enjoy

♡-my favorite

☆-Completed reading

◇-reading (have read more than 30ch)

□-started reading (have read less than 30ch)

●-wants to read the most at the moment

$-GL

₩-not BL 

♧-not sure whatever its worth reading yet :/// <<less