the gong and shou have some chronic diseases respectively. Gu Yun (shou) is half deaf-half blind becoz he was poisoned when he was a child. that's the truth. with some medicine he can see and hear rather well, but not without nasty side effects, like... shortened lifespan and severe headache. and this medicine was losing effectiveness by time to time. he still looks nonchalant about this. damn. Chang Geng (gong) was poisoned by his supposedly-mother in early chapters. well she was not his real mother, she was his aunt actually, she tried to kill him several times till he always gets nightmares every night. by this bad bad aunt, Chang Geng was cursed to be a madman, killing everyone in fit of madness, have unstable mind. Chang Geng is a smart child, he tried to suppress it and find a way to cure this. so, he looks calm and stable, but when his yifu is involved, the calmness was crushed. as far I read, this poison is only affecting the mind. but eh, I may be wrong.
now now i've read about CG's curse and how he got it. GDI XIU NIANG. W-WHAT KIND OF GRIEVANCE YOU HAD TILL YOU DID THAT TO A CHILD WHO MAY BE YOUR OWN OR YOUR SISTER'S ?!! the detail is too grotesque. can't write it here orz
there's part when they must work together to escort country's ambassador. shou suggests they should disguise themselves, which got approval from gong. but then he said that gong has too much appeal so he could attract enemies, he must decrease his handsomeness like dirtying face and hair, wear shabby clothes. as a clean freak, gong is very reluctant. then shou suggests another, if gong don't want to be dirty, he should disguise a woman. and OMG, gong accepts that readily, but he has one condition. he would disguise as woman but must be shou's wife. then shou regrets a bit coz his 'wife' never stops talking and make his head ache. wtf, these guys never stop.
I'm dead every time I read shou thinks gong's face is very beautiful, and perfect as long as he keeps his mouth shut. his talking destroys whatever beauty he has. and how gong always wonders why shou is very interesting though his behavior is too cold, his heart is as hard as steel, his mouth is very poisonous, his face is pale and sickly, his smile is never sincere, either it's sneer or smirk. but they're similarly willing to put their lives at stake for each other. omg yameroo.
I really like the young omyouji. noo don't die pls.....!
MO RAN YOU f**kEN IDIOT. THIS STUPID DOG!! HOW CAN YOU THAT BLIND!!?? ALSO SHIZUN, PLS DON'T HIDE FEELINGS LIKE THIS. YOU BOTH ARE IDIOTS I'M SUFFERING HERE AAAAAAAAA.
oh author-san, just kill me already. I'm dying with the feels.
it turns out shou has anxiety disorder. he looks fine and all but when the attack comes, he becomes flustered, eyes become red, blushes, short breath etc... much like a person who is extremely scared. so yeah, that's what happened between shou and gong. it's not like shou tricked and played gong, he likes gong very much since the beginning! but his anxiety just ruins things okaay. frankly, shou can't take romantic advances readily. he's flustered far too easily. gong finally knows about this and then he tries to get back with shou, little by little.
he's so like a weasel becoz he's actually dead for long and integrated into a weasel. Man I won't forget that this so-unreliable master is very dear to his disciples :' (
the rape part is pitiful tbh. Gong is not slag, he just had disability regarding his cultivation. That's why he became mad. Shou is real softie tbh, he's no good as evil sect leader lmao.
seriously, I did consider to kill the slag gong. but in half till last chapters, he did have remorse and did everything to pay back. that part where he regretted everything and suffered is delicious maaan. this schadenfreude delights me very much. but still, I wanna kick him somehow. eh I'm a bit heartless anyway.
in short it's a mix from Ginga Eiyuu Densetsu (military space opera) + No.6 (dystopia - utopia) + dot hack (AI rampage). the dystopian world later in novel is also a mix between Orwell's 1984 and Huxley's Brave New World. come to think, I should read those before lmao.
but that last smut really scarred me. pls...... I don't want another only-dream-smut scene like Kara no Shoujo 2. err I know I'm ridiculous to compare eroge with danmei. still, that kind of scene really gets me traumatized.