What is true love? Is it forcing him to be intimate even when he says no? Is it being overbearingly possessive all the time? Is it manipulating him to love you the way you want him to?
I find a lot of BL novels involve possessive MLs that are borderline psychos when it comes to expressing their "love" for MC. While it's not entirely off-putting, it's certainly a breath of fresh air to have an ML that is different. ZZ, being from the fanfic, is written to be exactly that way, but when he transmigrates into the "real" world, he starts to think a lot about the motivations behind his actions in the world he left behind. As it is, his love for YX is so much stronger than his desire to possess YX. We get a glimpse of how much he really cares for YX through his actions and how he considers the situation from YX's POV. He's constantly turned on, and it's unbearable, but he refuses to give in because he wants YX to feel the same way before they get intimate. Both YX and ZZ never invade the other person' sea of consciousness to try and find out what the other person is unwilling to talk about because they trust and respect each other.
Going through the worst thing you thought could happen and then finding out that it's not as bad as you thought after all, and gaining the strength to deal with your fears in the future is a gift that not everyone has the good fortune of receiving. MC knew that by "betraying" ML, the outcome could go either way; he could end up losing ML or he could finally gain ML's unconditional love and trust. By betting so, MC essentially shows his own trust in ML, because he believes strongly in ML's character and their relationship. This is definitely one of the best written endings I've come across for this type of novel.
I hated how Cheng Nuo was completely biased towards Bai Rui. Sure, the author tried to balance out the time spent between Bai Rui and Liu Guang, but it's clear Cheng Nuo was more into Bai Rui based on their interactions. I feel like the author should've just let Cheng Nuo end up with Bai Rui to make Cheng Nuo's character less detestable. He just seems selfish and greedy.
I love how we get a glimpse into Li Yue's character. Even in the main story, I found it hard to completely hate him. I, too, felt that he deserved a second chance at life to experience the warmth of Cheng Nuo's love. Cheng Nuo's character and interations with Li Yue were much more lovable. In fact, among the three MLs I feel like Li Yue was the gentlest and most sincere. Imo, Bai Rui only claimed to love Cheng Nuo, but he never truly warmed up to Cheng Nuo, perhaps only during the papapa scenes. It felt more like lust than love.
I wanted to know more about his past when he was known as Danwen.
This story has made it clearer than ever, how one tiny misstep/ misunderstanding can change your whole life and how easy it can be to lose somebody because of that. Whether it is for the better or worse in this story, I guess that's up to each person's interpretation. At first, I felt like I wanted MH to be with MC but upon thinking it over, I realized that the kind of trust and tacit understanding MC and ML have is something that is very rare. ML may not be perfect but he is perfect for MC. Sure, MH is very devoted to MC and it's not MH's fault that they fell out BUT I think when it comes to loving someone, ML has the upper hand. It's too easy to argue that MH couldn't reach MC and there was "nothing" much he could do. If his feelings were stronger, he wouldn't have waited six months to find him. What, you're telling me he can't ask his parents where MC lives and crash into his dorm and clear the misunderstanding? If you love someone, you'll try harder. ML may have only known MC for a short while but he is very clear about his feelings and what he has to do (even with all the lies between MC and ML)