Major hurt/comfort simp. ... more>>

Been hurting all my life with no one to comfort me so reading a hurt/sickly MC being worried/doted/cared for/loved on really soothes my soul or something twisted like that. I'm trying to find meaning behind all the suffering. Hmnn yeah that sounds about right, I wanna read meaningful suffering.

SSSSE (Self Sacrifice= sacrificing themselves for others/a greater good) (Self Suffering= is hurting/carrying burden/enduring hardship on their own) (Exposed= other people find out leading in increased positive action/attention towards them and or it affects other people in some way so there is meaning to the suffering)

Absolutely love the vomiting blood and everybody worries trope. MC in pain? It's okay baby it's all worth it there will be people that will take care of you or make up for it. Fluff stuff. Spurting blood is fun and all but psychological hurt also rubs me right, stuff like taking blame then the other party regretting and making up for it? Angst stuff. Mmm working too hard or getting hurt in place of others is also nice.

Romance. No romance. Straight. BL. Some I read using mtl.

tl;dr I just wanna talk about the novels I've read but highlight the heart abuse scenes :)

*Recommendations are welcomed but not always accepted to the list ∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿

If you decide to follow, I'll warmly say; Welcome to the cult  <( ⓛ ω ⓛ *)> <<less

Angsty BL in no particular order.... more>>

Feel free to recommend me similar reads fellow sadomasochists. Enjoy~ <<less

CN where the ML is the one with disabilities, or sickly characters or past trauma, or those sorts. Novels for MC is on another list.... more>> Contain spoiler 
BG/BL. Not much xianxia or world hopping. 
Feel free to recommend any :D <<less

Romance that gratify my soul. They are super sweet novels that give me a dopamine rush. Novels that make you crave for that kind of love. In addition to underrated gems, I have tried to include various fluffy, BG novels of different genres. Enjoy!! :)... more>>

-Not ranked in order; highly rated novels; BG; 1v1 (no harem), HE, lots of fluff <<less

Feel free to recommend me things in the comment^^

CN novels where the MC has disabilities or sickly characters, or past trauma. Novels for MLs are in a different list. Contains spoiler. ... more>>

BG/BL. Not much world hopping or historical novels. 

Feel free to recommend any others :D <<less

Male lead has either obvious or hidden illness/disability/sickness/is dying and this is significant to the plot. Let waifu take care of you! (idk why I love this trope so much). 
Also check out my other list "My Waifu is Sick" for MC's with illness/disabilities... more>>

BG - Rom <<less

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MC's sick! Deadly illnesses galore! Inherited via genetics, acquired by poisoning? Possible death, definite death, time travel, and hopefully angst!

These are romance novels with various kinds of varieties that I have read and have not read that I find interesting and happen to have the urge to share it to you guys just bc I find it a waste to haggle all of these treasures for myself. ... more>>

The novels you're gonna be seeing here are of course, romance novels, that are straight and are either realistic, fluffy, no dog-blood drama and 109876 chapters spent to resolve misunderstandings, no 5 men chasing after the protagonist, no male lead with 1000 concubines, makes sense to at least at the bear minimum, light-hearted, or some philosophical really deep stuff(though rarely). But mostly, it's gonna be more about fluff, light-hearted and more focused on romance.

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Found out there's a limit on how much you could add on the list so... I'm gonna be making a Recommendation list no. 2! 

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STRAIGHT ROMANCE NOVELS I 

STRAIGHT ROMANCE NOVELS II - https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/45480/

STRAIGHT ROMANCE NOVELS III - https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/45549/ <<less

> either currently or in the past (ex. transmigration)... more>>

 ⭐️ ratings are based on how relevant the illness is to the story!! 7 and above are usually tear jerkers (either from the novel or my own imagination)

 i like melodramatic cheap angst as much as i do well thought out soul crushers so this will be a mixed bag lol, will add more as i recall what i’ve read 

 (recommend me any terminal illness angst <3) <<less

Works where mc has an unhealthy body/symptoms and causes concern to those around but does not know that these symptoms are caused by the system/other... more>> being/temporary or curable condition of the body. <<less

A list to keep track of the novels that hurt my heart... and/or hurt the MC/ML hehehehehe the more suffering, the better. Self sacrifice (SS) is always welcome. Recs appreciated! Some novels have not been read yet and are added due to the recommendations of others.... more>>

Includes novels with empty protagonists, broken protagonists, and sick protagonists

Stories differentiated by my own terms:

[Apathetic], [Sick], [Tragedy], [SS] [Depressed], [Transmigration], [Revenge]

Also: [Unread], [Reread-> read multiple times]

Organized so my favorites (tragic quick transmigrations where MC breaks ML's heart repeatedly) are at the top, then all the death craving characters, then the mistreated and sick villainesses, then the apathetic and SS children appear <<less

I want these novels translated immediately. they look very interesting and I'm sure I will love these novels !!! I hope all of them are... more>> translated as soon as possible! T ^ TI say: NO HAREM NOVEL! (I hate them!) <<less

To keep track and reminisce. Putting here only those that left a good taste and lasting impression, except the ones not read yet(its so I can read em later). If we have the same taste, please reco me some (≧▽≦). Hard to find good chinese novels, but when you do its quite addicting to read. I'm a sucker for respectful, polite, and elegant mc's who are misunderstood to be amazingly good or amazingly evil or just pure op.( I do mass cleansing from time to time, cause some are not as good as i thought)... more>>

These are random but usually have emotionally and mentally strong mc's. It's also arranged randomly(rank doesn't matter).

Random:#Op mc#Strong mc mentally&emotionally#Transmigration#Sickly mc#Funny misunderstandings#I dunna like scenes#No dumb romance, just smart and simple ones#Wholesome#Fun fun fun <<less

Sweet cinnamon roll MLs and FLs whom you’ll want to hug.... more>>

BL at the end of the list <<less

Started in dec of 2020... more>>

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This is my personal top picks. If you can get the gist my taste through this list, please feel free to comment down below some of your recommendations too! Thank you and Happy reading!... more>>

What constitutes a good story for me?

PLOT. It must not stray away from its intended plot. No unrelevant arcs just for the sake of DRAGGING the story. THERE MUST BE SUBSTANCE. 

As much as possible, NO RUSH ENDING. The conclusion is the most important. If the story ended with some questions unresolve, the story is a failure. Open endings are acceptable, since it is closest to reality you can get. 

CHARACTER GROWTH. I believe it's one of the essential part of the story. I can stomach s*upid and naive characters, ONLY, if they showed character development along the way. 

LOGIC. No one wants to proceed on reading if they couldn't understand nor make sense out of anything. I'm willing to make an exceptions for WORLD-BUILDING. But there's what you call an out-of-this-world logic and an out-of-this-world s*upidity. The former I can accept, the latter, thanks but no thanks.

ENJOYMENT FACTOR. A STORY MUST EVOKE EMOTIONS OUT OF ME. If I couldn't feel anything while reading, then the writer failed to connect to their readers. Even if the genre isn't my cup of tea, it should be able to convince me otherwise. That's what it means by a good writing.

Thank you. (This list is subject to change) <<less

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sickly male leads x female leads  ꈍᴗꈍ

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Where mc cross-dresses due to family circumstances or for survival.

Bl novels that made me cry sad tears. Tho I am a cry baby lol so this list will prob eventually become longer lol ***!!!***... more>> there are most probably spoilers in my notes read with caution ***!!!*** <<less

Novels where there isn't any reincarnation, time-travel, or anything like that. Tbh this list might not be that long since most novels I read are... more>> where mc has some kinda magical time-travel/reincarnation/travelling to another world/wtv, but the rare ones I read are mostly gems in my opinion, personally! <<less

For the MC we have, cry babies, shy babies, blushing babies, timid babies, stuttering babies, mute babies and sickly babies