A list to keep track of the novels that hurt my heart... and/or hurt the MC/ML hehehehehe the more suffering, the better. Self sacrifice (SS) is always welcome. Recs appreciated! Some novels have not been read yet and are added due to the recommendations of others.... more>>

Includes novels with empty protagonists, broken protagonists, and sick protagonists

Stories differentiated by my own terms:

[Apathetic], [Sick], [Tragedy], [SS] [Depressed], [Transmigration], [Revenge]

Also: [Unread], [Reread-> read multiple times]

Organized so my favorites (tragic quick transmigrations where MC breaks ML's heart repeatedly) are at the top, then all the death craving characters, then the mistreated and sick villainesses, then the apathetic and SS children appear <<less

here comes the rain again~~... more>>

quote of the day

"Tragedy is like bitter coffee.Childs can't take it.But those who can,become addicted to it"

"War is Peace, Freedom is s*avery, and Ignorance is Strength"-George orwell who was so much ahead of his time <<less

Tragedies. Stories when you need something sad or want something to make you cry. All completed stories.... more>>

*sorted by rating <<less

BL tales that are set during the apocalypse or deal with the undead, zombies, plague, etc.

For the nights where we lay down the bed, seeking solace in angst stories.

Angsty BL in no particular order.... more>>

Feel free to recommend me similar reads fellow sadomasochists. Enjoy~ <<less

A collection of series and one-shots that include horror and s*xual themes for those of us that enjoy many kinds of thrilling reads. Note! The s*xual theme doesn't automatically refer to smut. Any form of s*xual behaviour (including on- and off-screen interc**rse, s**tty thoughts, s*xual tension, etc.) counts and appears on this list.... more>>

WARNING: some novels include themes of r*pe and have non-con acts. Make sure to read the tags carefully in case these things make you feel uncomfortable. 

If you have any suggestions for novels that could be on this list, then please, let me know. Happy reading! <<less

no romance/harem, just stories with good world and no Cliché stories with repetitive storylines.... more>>

each novel has a short description for better understanding.

please tell me in the comments if you have a recommendation. <<less

Well written and translated horror stories of the BL persuasion.

some unlimited flow danmei novels i am currently reading or have read. ... more>>

(self-indulgence galore)

(no r*pe, in*est, black belly, abuse) <<less

*in no particular order*... more>>

-pain

-BE or HE is fine but there must be obstacles in the middle...., angsty

-crematorium

-ML doesn't care about the MC from the start (or ML does care but doesn't know how to express it) but once MC is gone from their grasp (death/ coma/ near-death experience/ breakup?) they finally realize what they let slip from their fingertips. 

-or after all the disappointment and hurt, MC doesn't care anymore and it's the emotionally constipated ML's turn to chase.

*recommendations are appreciated (very) <<less

*sigh* here we go again

the title is what this list about :')... more>>

only BG  <<less

Former Title: Human-Non Human (Undead) Relationship... more>>

"Human × Supernatural Entity Relationships"

(1) Ghost Love  

a. Falling in love inside a Horror *** (Unlimited Flow)

(2) Undead Love  

a. Falling In Love in Ancient Tombs

- Ancient Tombs
- Historical Treasures & Artifacts
- Tomb Raiders, Treasure Hunters, Archeologist
- Undead (Jiangshi etc.)

b. Western Zombie <<less

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Likes to torture yourself by angsty plot and dog-blood drama? Come here baby, it's free real-estate.... more>>

I'll update this list periodically so don't be afraid of missing out!

Last update: Jul 21st, 2021 <<less

♣️ A collection of completed (and some updating) BL novels with strong horror elements that I have read... more>>

♣️ Some may leen more psychological/thriller and or gore/body horror

♣️ Always being updated with new novels! (If you have any suggestions please leave a comment!)

❗️TW❗️ Many of these contain potentially triggering content such as; sexual/physical abuse, mental illness, su*cide, and gore. Please read the tags to make sure you are comfortable with the topics being presented! <<less

This list has both BL and BG novels. ... more>>

Beware that not all novels have the satisfying groveling scenes from ML. 

I included some BE novels where I felt that the decisions MC took was very fitting even if there is no groveling from the ML or if the MC is dead to see that part. 

You’ll find most of Shui Qian Cheng’s novels who is well known for her 188cm group of novels featuring angsty novels about scum going groveling for their mistakes.

I only included the novels I was satisfied with.

Caution: Enjoy these novels, but avoid romanticizing the ML or fantasizing them as great lovers. Most of the MLs are just awful people, except for my beloved Lan Zhan, who is the epitome of kindness, Justice & all the good things. Remember, in real life, those who treat others poorly are likely to treat you the same way or mistreat you repeatedly will continue to mistreat you. Those who are controlling, manipulative, and obsessive never end with happy endings. Change in adults is difficult, even with love. Look into real-life cases of abusive partners to get a reality check.

Do keep that in mind. Hope you enjoy the novels below. <<less

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This list contains everything from unrequired love to death of loved ones to sadistic tendencies, violence, r*pe, betrayal, love-hate and any other possible way to... more>> make your heart bleed. Trauma and psychological conditions included.  <<less

My list in order of the best In BL(Shounen Ai/Yaoi), Light Comedy, And horror combined. 

if u want a good cry for whatever reasons— here take a bite of angst. bg & bl.

Depressed, suicidal or detached fl. Recommendations are well appreciated;)

cry with me please

basically its short and it hurts