Gaze at the Scenes of Debauchery

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They’ve been entangled together for 12 years. A gong whose affairs had become second nature, and a shou who was depressed and liked to torment himself. Cracks cannot be mended, one can only intentionally choose to either ignore or endure it.

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你看那灯红酒绿
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Date Group Release
11/27/18 Exiled Rebels Scanlations extras
10/01/18 Exiled Rebels Scanlations c50-53 (end)
09/23/18 Exiled Rebels Scanlations c47-49
09/16/18 Exiled Rebels Scanlations c43-46
09/05/18 Exiled Rebels Scanlations c38-42
08/31/18 Exiled Rebels Scanlations c34-37
08/23/18 Exiled Rebels Scanlations c32-33
08/17/18 Exiled Rebels Scanlations c29-30
08/13/18 Exiled Rebels Scanlations c25-28
08/08/18 Exiled Rebels Scanlations c21-24
08/04/18 Exiled Rebels Scanlations c18-20
07/30/18 Exiled Rebels Scanlations c14-17
07/26/18 Exiled Rebels Scanlations c11-13
07/21/18 Exiled Rebels Scanlations c7-10
07/17/18 Exiled Rebels Scanlations c4-6
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Cham
Cham
September 21, 2021
Status: --
Love this. Love the pain. Love the angst. Another classic example of MCs falling for scum ml, when another good ML is just beside.

Totally agree with Berlin’s review
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Lea168
Lea168 rated it
May 10, 2021
Status: Completed
3.0/5 rating

I read this story curious because of the high rating and reviews. However, I had a hard time to feel anything whilst reading up until the final 2 chapters. I was glad the story is really short.

I felt indifferent and somewhat numb. Maybe that feeling is also the feeling that the reader should have as that is how I interpreted MC's feelings throughout the story?

If it weren't for the final 2 chapters and the extras I would have rated this a 2/5, as the style that it was written... more>> in made it hard for me to feel anything for ML/MC or the side character.

The final chapters and extras made me (finally) grab a tissue. <<less
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Ronit
Ronit rated it
May 3, 2021
Status: Completed
I usually don't comment but this novel made me do it although it didn't made me cry as much as I cried reading Repentance but I felt the heart ache I felt sorry for Wen Qing I hate su*cide but here I can't blame him I couldn't find myself to blame him.. and it is selfish but I wanted Wen Bian to love him forever I wanted someone to remember him forever....

I really don't like Tragedy novel yet I torture myself reading it..
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BeneathAHibiscusCanopysWarmth
BeneathAHibiscusCanopysWarmth rated it
December 28, 2020
Status: Completed
To be honest, the only emotions I felt while reading this were numbness coupled with faint sparks of melancholy.

An atmosphere of unfeeling tranquility permeates this novel's relatively short entirety. It's as if, like the MC, we the Readers are also exhausted with everything, and therefore like him we view all the events through the lense of someone who does care about and feels what happens, but also someone who has grown too tired to really worry about anything.

For all the sorrow this story contains, peace is the feeling it leaves... more>> us Readers with.

So many reviews described this book as beautifully written, and I have to say I agree with them.

Unlike other stories with plots similar to this where the main purpose is to give the Reader a sense of catharsis as the scum gong grovels while kneeling in front of the pitiful, long-suffering shou, this one doesn't.

I can't really pinpoint what exactly the author aims to do, but what I do know is that while I do like indulging in the kind of stories I mentioned in the paragraph above (because hey, catharsis is f*cking sweet), what this book gave me is better than that.

It wasn't catharsis, it was closure.

I may not make sense to people who are reading this review, and I'm sorry about that 😅. I'm writing this with only pure emotion.

Read this, please. It's an incredibly beautiful work.

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While I do feel for the Second Male Lead, I also understand why the MC didn't go with him. It was cynical and unfair to not give him a chance solely because he resembles the young ML and the MC thinks his love too will also eventually fade and be replaced by an endless string of affairs, but it must not be forgotten that the MC had spent 12 years with the ML and he owes the Second Male Lead nothing.

While courtesy is something that should be given to all, and it is something that the MC gave the Second Male Lead, feelings are another matter. Just because the Second Male Lead loved him doesn't mean he has to love the Second Male Lead back.

It's debatable if MC really felt some romantic sentiment for him or if he only got closer because he saw the younger ML he loved so much in him, but what is sure is that that feeling was not enough for him to wade through the ocean of his woes to be with the Second Male Lead, and it's not like he should have forced himself to do so.

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Why did I not give this five stars? I didn't really think the characters were fleshed out enough to feel like real human beings, but that doesn't mean they're completely two-dimensional.

This is a short novel, and it's only my pickiness that leads me to see the lack of character backstory as a problem, so by no means let it hinder you from enjoying or rating this with five stars. <<less
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Blubeagle
Blubeagle
December 7, 2020
Status: c3
Stories with mental and emotional health issues are never easy reads, and especially when one is a serial cheater.

The ending is a given. You expect it. You see it coming from miles away with florescent colored warning flags. You know that one is a selfish person and the other has become so caught up in his emotions that he has pretty much forgotten himself.

The ending--the true ending is fascinating. Make sure you read everything maybe even more than once because the information we're given in the extras says everything we,... more>> the readers, really need to know about their true feelings.

I promise you won't forget this for a long, long time afterwards.

Give it a go if you're an emotional masochist. <<less
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ChronoH0
ChronoH0
October 24, 2020
Status: --
This is a rather depressing piece since it also depicts depression and also it's a bad end well depend how you look at it.

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I feel like ML is a character that takes things for granted. He has everything and doesn't think to give back. Because of his overflowing confidence that it would go his way that he forgot that MC is human. For many years of accustomed to the ML behaviors MC became traumatized because at that point that's how he knew how the ML would react or respond. But at the same time he's not an esper. Becoming so tired of it he wants to be free from it. But being mentally exhausted he's rather end it all.

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I guess I sympathize the ML and MC but really I can't put myself in their shoes.

Perhaps you could save this relationship but it would need not only counseling but also therapy. With only love you can't restore what's been damaged. <<less
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Cocole
Cocole rated it
September 17, 2020
Status: Completed
Emotional story. It is sad to say that there are people who feel so helpless and can’t see a way out of their situation. Unfortunately there is these types of suffering in life.

translation was great. 5/5 thank you
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maelynn
maelynn rated it
August 31, 2020
Status: Completed
The story was ok but Wen Qing made me cryyyyyy. My poor baby. I’m glad that there were extras though
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To see Yan and Wen Bai’s life afterwards

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puririnpa
puririnpa rated it
August 21, 2020
Status: Completed
This kind of novel always make me wonder what will happen if the 2nd ML reborn or transmigrated back to the past timeline before the MC and the main ML got together.

Our lovely MC's ending might be different, but it must be a lot better than when he got together with the main ML.

But this kind of ending is fine, too. At least he finally got what he want and deserve,

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A freedom.

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King of No Killing
King of No Killing rated it
August 20, 2020
Status: Completed
It's the middle of the night and I'm fckng crying and contemplating in life! Ha. I guess I'll be in my office later with red puffy eyes. I thought after reading the novel 10 Years Where I Loved You the Most I'm already very familiar with the flow of the story of GATSOD especially with all the angsts. Boiii, I was royally fcked. This was similar but very different from 10 Years. It depicted a tragedy that thousands and millions of people went through: getting drunk in love, continuing to... more>> walk that path to ruins, seeking freedom, and getting tangled with it all over again. Life.

I eally love this story and will remember it years after years. It really showed the ugly truth and beautiful side of life. The author's notes really chose the right words to cheer his/her readers. I started calming down when I learned that I shared the same thought as her/him. Happiness and sadness really depend on how you view things.

so~

You. Yes, you! I highly recommend this novel and am encouraging you to give it a try. 2-3 hrs or so won't hurt (well I can't promise that you won't cry though).

PS: When I was done crying after reader the extra chapters and returned here on the main page to leave a comment I stopped scrolling down and just stared at the cover photo of the novel. Ahhh. Fck. Another tissue box had been wasted. <<less
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AsTheNameDictates
AsTheNameDictates rated it
June 20, 2020
Status: Completed
I wasted my time reading this novel.

I don't like the MC nor the ML at all. Funny enough, I hate the MC more than the ML.

???
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bellek
bellek rated it
May 22, 2020
Status: Completed
An absolutely beautiful and tragic story. If you're looking for a tearjerking story, you've come to the right place. The author is an absolute genius. The way she describes the MC's emotions is so detailed and brimming with emotions, that I could even put myself in the MC's shoes. I honestly can't 100% love the MC because
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he did nothing to stop the ML or fight to protect their relationship, he chose to cheat on the ML as revenge, created a misunderstanding that caused the ML to cheat again.

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but the ML is still the ultimate scum and harbringer. He's an absolute ahole. But that goes to show how good this story is... that it manages to evoke such strong emotions in its reader.

I still rate this story a 5/5. Please give it a go!!
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olive_bl_garden
olive_bl_garden rated it
January 15, 2020
Status: Completed
Beautiful and tragic... the story is realistically written and now I just feel like dying. The MC needs help, okay. He is suffering from depression and succumbs to this unhealthy relationship of codependence with the ML because he feels like he already wasted more than a decade with the ML so he just have to keep enduring it but no...I just wished Wenbai would've care enough to realize that MC suffers from depression and finds him the right help. The ending was inevitable.
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Salt turtle
Salt turtle rated it
December 19, 2019
Status: Completed
I made an account just to write a review on this story. I went in the story in a happy mood trying to read some good bl and ignoring the tragedy tag because I am an idiot, I left in tears. It's because of this story that I got into angsty novels, I really love the characters. And I ugly cried from the beginning to the end.

It's really unfortunate how everything turned out and MC's fate. I'm still annoyed but at least our MC got a good ending (kind... more>> of) I honestly wouldn't want him to end up with both of the guys. Still, I feel bad for the second guy but the first one can absolutely suck it. He can die in regret forever (but honestly the last part made me feel kind of bad for him).

I 100% recommend this story if you want to cry and feel angry. It was a nice experience and the author is really good! <<less
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otomezone
otomezone rated it
August 19, 2019
Status: Completed
I cried T.T but it got a little weird around ... more>>
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when he was back with ML... I guess he had some mental disorder at that point when he kept thinking he can't escape ML... because when he escaped before, all he wanted was to LIVE (ranting it to Wen Bai, and Wen Bai accepting his decision), I think the last line when he left the MLs place was "This time I'm going to be happy" and I can't believe he committed su*cide after that... though I'm glad Wen Bai moved on, kinda disappointed ML didn't die from lung cancer or smth

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Dipu
Dipu rated it
February 15, 2019
Status: --
This one is a really very good story. l like the MC so much. He is strong and sensible but he loves the ML too much, which I don't like. I rarely find this kind of MC in BL novels. You'll understand how deep is love is as the story goes on. I don't like tragedy, but this one is an exception. The characters are very well written, I don't really understand the ML but MC and the other ML is just too good. The translator did a fantastic job,... more>> you can literally feel the depth of the story. You'll understand the helplessness that MC felt at times, you'll want to hug him and say everything will be alright. Even if you don't like tragedy, give this a chance.? <<less
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LiliChan
LiliChan rated it
December 10, 2018
Status: Completed
Definitely one of the most tragic and heart-aching yaoi novel I've ever read. I already know that it's tragic but it still came crashing my emotion.

And yep, it's realistic and that's why it hurts. I just hated the ML til the end. I hope he was the one suffered more than the MC.
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sleepy_chelsy
sleepy_chelsy rated it
November 28, 2018
Status: Completed
I can't stop crying. It's so beautiful and painful but worth the read. I definitely recommend it to everyone who likes angst. I'm emotionally devastated after reading this short novel. 50 chapters may look a lil bit long for some of you guys but every chapter is shorter than your usual chapters, so it's not a lot to read at all.
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lilricegrain
lilricegrain rated it
January 6, 2024
Status: --
yan han is so selfish istg I want to smack him myself.. Well this story is super realistic that it hurts me so bad ;;-;; if you want to read something that is so sad and depressing I 100% recommend this story !!
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well I still hope wen bai lives a good life and yan han regretted forever

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i think what makes this story is so depressing is the way wen qing thinks, he actually thinks what's the best for him even though it keeps hurting him.. Well at first I thought wen qing is dumb but if I am in his shoes I would think that leaving someone that has been with me for 12 years is hard too.. Well he's better than me because I would've smack the shts out of yan han :)) still sad for wei ban..

and the ending depends on yourself, personally I think the ending is a happy ending for wen qing and idgaf about anyone else besides him
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Scar21
Scar21 rated it
May 21, 2023
Status: --
If talking about the novel itself.... there are people in the world who read sad stories because they secretly enjoy the feeling of despair that is so well depicted in certain stories. You could day, these are guilty pleasures in a way. If you are one such person, definitely read this one.

If a story is well written, no matter how short, it can arouse feelings that the author wants to convey.

End of the review.

Now, I shall rant about this novel with my genuine thoughts.

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Yan Han, that unforgivable f*cker! He could just leave the poor guy be! Just leave him be! It was all your fault, Yan Han, you a**hole! Why drag Wen Qing with you!? He didn't even look for love again, he just wanted freedom! Nothing else!nAnd you claim to love him but just let him leave like that! He was such a tough person too!!!! WHY!? Damnit!

I am well aware that there might be people who might question why it had to end like that. But it's human psychology....... if a person holds it in for too long and have no place to vent, they explode like Wen Qing did. Their outlook and priorities in life are different from the likes of you or me, during these times. I just hate this person/character named f*cking as*hole Han....... that's all I have to say.

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