It has a slow start since both MC and ML are kids and I almost want to adopt them bcs how poor they are. ML don't really care about MC at the start but gradualy he starts caring for him more and more through the story. MC is not OP but he's really good and make sure to use his knowledge (Spoiler knowledge) to help ML to become powerful and avoid some shitty situations. Both are so good and every move they do have a sense.

I can understand ML too being so mad about MC when he baetrayed him but in the end they all good ahhh

in the end they both comeback where they came from and start again

I think that part left me with deep impression and it's not like any other novels where they just go describing how ill fate the protagonist life is, but the author give us a view of it and I really felt that. imagining Xi Wei carrying baby Zeno without any food to eat, and it's so cold out there It's just heartwrenching. Now I can't really blame Xi Wei for being detached to people. I hate how Hua Li and Xiao Wu calls him bastard when they don't know anything.. I know they are just kids but seriously? ugh oh I still hate them even now. kinda, Xiao Wu Jie Jie is fine but it just throws me off when she curse at Xi Wei.

MC who is addicted to Novels! like me than transport in it. Dream come true!! Zeno is a person who is closest to Xi Wei and I remembered how he sympatized with Xi wei when he's in modern world. I think he's a very nice character, nothing much to say, he's very rational, really great. I'm shocked when he suddenly betrays Xi Wei but not really betray him. lol. he used his knowledge from the book at the end of the story when he tricked bell while other MC who transmigrated in novels really is not able to use it that much.

Our ML. I. WANT. HIM. TO. BE. MY. BROTHER. !! Seriously, he's so soft like when I saw how he treats baby Zeno that time is just- AHHHHHHHH IM CRYING HE'S JUST SO BEAUTIFUL FUDGE YOU AUTHOR OF CURSE! he really doesn't deserve all those scheming things that happened to him. so glad Zeno saved him. he's so distant and you really won't get any reaction from him. so cold but so fragile. the dubcon that happened at the end is really sad but the time he returned and listen to Suji, telling all the achievement of Zeno, I think he's proud of him.. in his lifetime he only trust Zeno then Zeno ended up betraying him it's the biggest blow buT Zeno does it for a reason. they mentioned pandora box, that time, I really felt like zeno betraying xi wei is just right, stimulating him kinda, because tbh if he really trust Zeno? he just won't hurt him and not listen to his explanation. Turning deaf. this time Xi Wei needs to open his eyes and listen or else he'll deeply regret it. in the end he saw everything using this ball, Xi Wei, I hope he heals. not so fast but with Zeno by his side, I know he'll be alright

hmm... Suji is the best waifu lol I wanna see her date Xi Wei's Friend! the villain, Belle, I feel bad for her, I hope she get together with the demon of plague. Xia An, became the king, just like that. I really don't get his character tbh, we didn't get the explanation behind his split personality why is he blind, where did QiQi come from, why is he so hostile to Xi Wei, Why is he cute and as*hole at the same time lol. Princess Asil, is a guy ik there will be a novel for his life and lovelife i'll read that later. I haven't heard anything from Jonia since then tho.. Also until know Xiao Wu doesn't know Zeno is Zeno lol in the end when sheheard about Xi Wei falling, her true nature shine she really didnt hate him even tho she calls him bastard so thats all good lol Hua Li, we knew she like princess asil but I really dont know the story behind that I think it will be mentioned in the other novel.. she's okay, but I really don't get her sometimes anyways idc hahaha... the harem, I only like suji lol Ah the cousin of Zeno, he's cool selfish thinks about shadow race all the time... I really dont care much either tbh

I'm a big fan of "friends suddenly turn into more" trope, especially if it's a sudden development that both parties experience. Also the struggle with ML and the past with his mom and his inability to get intimate really tugged at my heartstrings especially when they had to figure out what that meant for their relationship.

the way the protagonist had no f*cking reason to betray the male lead??? Yeah, yeah, I know it’s because it’s to remove any pretenses or fake masks between them, but that was the most shitty choice ever. I could not fathom how he even thought of that as a conclusion. And the r*pe request too like???? Am I reading that right like did the author actually think that was okay and published it?? Or did the translator put it like that and thought it was okay???

so for explanation to some people as to why it ended that way (and this is what stick to me the most, sorry if it's bad bec it's been so long since ive read it)

it's because MC didnt want both of them to put up some mask between them if theyre gonna start being together. Masks being: MC being this good person who'll do anything/follow anything ML asks he just did it to survive or aka never betray him and ML being this good cool aloof figure wholl be there for MC and protect him.

MC wanted to be open and free with no doubts about their relationship. No doubts with one another.

cause we all know, even tho we all ship them there's this weird layer of them pretending or some sort even tho we know they've catched feelings in the long run.

if you can tell, ML has this thinking of everyone will betray him so he doesnt trust anybody, even MC. There are times he trusts MC more than others but it's not exactly fully trust, I cant explain it well.

it's more like: when there's a couple and one of them is always doubtful or has trust issues. So even if they're getting along, this skeptical person will just wait until something bad happens and then the untrustful person will say "see, this is why I didnt want to trust you because I'll know this will happen" like they're expecting something bad to happen from the start when theyre not exactly fully in the moment in their relationship lol I cant explain well but I hope you get the gist

MC wanted a fresh start, no more masks, no more pretending etc. Just freely and fully trust one another.

and I guess the method author thought of was to break their facade of them being this thing lol. And by MC showing ML that he can break his trust or something but not really (based on the video he saw that showed everything he did for him while he was K.O.) lol idk anymore that part felt rushed but it was a great way to fix it in a fast way cause I was already crying at that point hahaha 😂 bravo for author for saving the end part even tho method felt kinda rushed haha

The relationship initially could be considered wholesome as long as one fools themselves to forget that they're going from a father-son relationship to an inevitable lovers' one. I can stomach a lot of things but I just couldn't for the life of me feel good at any point in the romance, even in those moments that are supposed to be cute/fluffy. So many things unexplained so little transition that I would hope to ease the relationship into a natural romantic one. The characters seem complex, except their complexity is never given any backstory which just makes everyone really unlikable. The MC sucks, he's weird as f*ck and not to mention the ML. Peas in a pod. It takes the route of the typical dog blood drama towards the end. Really doesn't help what the story has become already. Ultimately it's just my opinion which I understand here isn't very objective but I just wanted to put it out there for someone willing to listen.

It's about when Xi Wei asks Zeno what kind of death he (Zeno) wants, Zeno answered that he wants to be raped then killed.

Then on the author's notes, the author said it was the trendy way of dying lmao.