The Obsessive Shou Moves On

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In his previous life, Yun Qingci loved the Emperor more than life and death. When he was alive, he made soup and clothes for him, and in politics, he helped monitor his officials, even his family.

He was solely dedicated to the emperor, and all his scheming strategies were used to gain favour. He never borrowed his power as the Lord Empress to seek employment for his relatives, and he did not show favoritism. He can be said to be strictly impartial and incorruptible, not even recognizing his own family.

Outsiders were terrified of him, and relatives hated him, but Yun Qingci didn’t care. However, in the end, he was thrown into the cold palace by the only person he cared about and his whole family imprisoned.

Finally, he committed su*cide on that snowy day, and fell down that gilded tower.

Reincarnated, Yun Qingci retracted his claws, picked up the glass pieces of his heart, and conducted himself evasively in society. Acting as an escort to the Emperor for his relatives, he decided to become a proud Lord Empress that doesn’t need to be treasured or can have his status shaken.

Unexpectedly, the emperor who abandoned him like a shoe, praised by countless courtiers for both his virtue and kindness, suddenly changed his temper. He became cold and harsh, paranoid and cruel.

The servants who confronted Yun Qingci? He would beat them. The imperial concubines that provoked Yun Qingci? He’d punish them. A small person who framed Yun Qingci? He would kill him. When someone tries to approach Yun Qingci, he would become jealous to the extreme.

Soon everyone knew that Empress Yun was the emperor’s inverse scale. He was not allowed to be hurt, touched, or even looked at.

Yun Qingci, the fairy man, is speechless: So you like me not loving you, why didn’t you say that sooner?

Gong: ……

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moominmammamia
moominmammamia rated it
November 22, 2021
Status: Completed
Excellent, dark and very sad in parts, in the end this is about the MC daring to trust the ML after the trauma of their previous life and the ML trying to fight through the restrictions his position as Emperor has put on him to find his way back to the only person he has ever loved. Even in MTL this is a really good read and I look forward to the proper translation
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monokuma_xd
monokuma_xd rated it
February 12, 2022
Status: Completed
My first time actually enjoying a heavy and angst filled story. The happy ending was very sweet and after so much drama it was extremely satisfying to come to a beautiful conclusion. The way all the decisions ML made during the first life start making sense and the manipulation from the Empress Dowager being exposed were really great.

9/10 AMAZING STORY 💙💙
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Sevenice
Sevenice
August 8, 2023
Status: --
This is one of the good reads I would say, it is tearjerking especially when mentioning their suffering, nonetheless, this is the only wife chasing in the crematorium-esque novel that I never blamed either the main character or the male lead. Their actions are to be expected once you read about their past, their actions complement what the author describes them to be. Their personalities and attitude stay firm throughout the novel, the psychopathic decisions.

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The story is well-written, and the story flow is very good. Some might not understand it, but you can't expect the main character to be a saint after all his past; being unloved, condemned, and seeing the important people in your life die one by one.

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Both characters encountered despair and there's no one to call out upon them, their actions coincide with how they should be, unlike other novels that always have genius-saint shou. This is refreshing so far, to say the least.

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The main character shou was instigated by the witch, his further actions were on point within the story as aside from his mom and the male lead, he's not aware of any other else that would treat him well, with him trusting the witch too much. The misunderstanding between the two is on point, if you know ERHA which quotes something about "misunderstandings" this story is another example of it. Every action of shou is always backed up by something, he's at fault for doing disgusting things to others, but he grew up in a bad environment (the witch's) most influential teaching.

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As I said, both the main character and the male lead are firm in personality and attitude, which makes me expect that every action the shou does- it's aligned with his personality. He may be petty, he may be rude, he may be stubborn, that's what he is. The male lead on the other hand, I won't say he's blackened like the stereotyped yandere, he's desperate to keep the shou, but compared to the generic style of being a yandere I wouldn't count him as one, I can't find the whole blackened aura on him, just suffering and despair.

I would say this, don't expect the main character and male lead to be sane, they are crazy, psychopaths. But their background is written well which one would just go, "No wonder they're crazy."

Good read! 4 stars, kudos to the translator for doing their utmost best, the translated story was executed and delivered well. It was not lacking in information and the feels are just right. There are no unnecessary actions that would annoy you, but just "It is what it is." <<less
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Ugly Squid
Ugly Squid rated it
May 12, 2023
Status: c46
This novel is super extreme which is why I think a lot of people might not like it.

If the MC loved you, his love will reach the extremes and he'll do anything for you. If he hates you, he'll continuously stab you, no matter how many times you apologise. In the story the MC really hated the ML for a while and a lot of people thought he is being a bit too dramatic and stubborn, especially since it wasn't just the ML's fault, but also his. And I agree... more>> to some extant. The ML tried his best and its hard to love someone like the MC who is extremely obsessive, paranoid and crazy. However, since the ML knew the MC was like this, he should have tried harder to comfort him and give him a sense of security instead of continuously agitating him.

The MC is also at fault and he is in no means a good person, but some people forget that even though he was crazy and extremely paranoid, he sincerely loved the ML. He did everything for him and he has the right to hate the ML. Although the ML was trying to help the MC, he never told the MC his intention and to an outsider, it looks like he is doing more harm than good.

This novel shows how two crazy people that have extreme emotions work through their misunderstandings and accept eachother. Although it may not be everyone's cup of tea, I think it is truly a good novel <<less
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milkydaddy
milkydaddy rated it
January 27, 2023
Status: Completed
I don't normally write reviews, but after literally four months, I still cant stop thinking about this book.

I love this book. It is dramatic, heart-wrenching, and so rich in nuances and I just know that when I eventually reread this book, I will notice and pick up on things I did not previously. The characters, are pretty three-dimensional, considering the length of the book. The outcomes and retributions to those who deserved it are relatively realistic (it is fiction after all), and this book has one of the sweetest gongs... more>> I've ever read. I think the prose is so smooth and so nice to read - it was so rich with feelings and meanings. The plot-twist surprised me - I think it was because I read this book before I went to sleep so there were probably hints of it but I was pretty shocked, which was rare for me.

I don't know why there are so many bad reviews (to each their own), but honestly, you can't expect the main characters to change all that much. It is their personality; I guess you can dislike their personality though. All in all, I enjoyed this book, and I wish for an adaptation of some sort. <<less
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iamblair
iamblair rated it
September 17, 2022
Status: Completed
This novel is brilliant.

There were times when I found things excessive and was very close to dropping this novel but I thank myself for not giving up because this turned out to be an amazing one.

I only realized the extent that both MC and ML went through for their love in the later parts. The extras made me understand what made the MC almost obsessive and possessive with the ML, why he was heavily dependent, and how he ended up committing su*cide when he thought that the ML abandoned him.

The... more>> later chapters showed the ML's pain and sacrifices in order to be with the MC again. The clarifications of his decisions were also revealed in these parts.

If you find the MC or ML annoying and is thinking of dropping this, I suggest that you persevere because things will get better (probably ch 50s). <<less
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jinxygol
jinxygol rated it
August 7, 2022
Status: Completed
This is by far the best rebirth novel I've read. I already finished this thrice and everytime, I can feel my heart breaking. I’ll be honest, I read the reviews before diving in so I wasn’t that mad towards the ML. But still, it was nice to see for myself all the twist, since after all, we can have varying opinions on the characters.

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MC is... yeah, as the title says, obsessive. Or rather, was obsessive. There’s no justification with how crazy he acted, that’s true, but I feel like it could have been avoided if the ML was truthful and confided in him. Which brings us to the second point: the ML. In his pov, we can get that he can’t bring himself to trust the MC with his plans, hence why all the secrets. Maybe there’s the fear that MC will be uncooperative, go crazier, won’t understand him, etc. But they’re married, and marriage is supposed to be a unification process. They were in it together, but instead, the marriage became more of a reason for them to drift from one another. Which is the wrong of ML

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But all I can say is ML really did love MC

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His biggest mistake is not communicating his worries to the MC. He should have shared his burden with his empress. He should have communicated his plans, cause that would avoid misunderstandings, and maybe then the MC wouldn’t have become so overbearing. His major flaw is how he kept his mouth shut in moments the MC needed the reassurance the most. MC is smart, I wish the ML saw that and how they could have solved the problems together— both the country’s/court’s problems and their personal ones. But alas, he chose to be secretive and alienated his beloved.

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i can’t fully justify MC, because after all, he was indeed crazy. the lack of trust led him to do all that, but he didn’t have to go that extreme. But moving further, despite knowing that there were misunderstandings, I still liked how he schemed. Maybe I am just really into strong-willed MC who are cunning. I personally like morally gray characters. He was never a push over, both in the past and present life. His flaw is... well he loved too much. Too much to the point that he let himself go. He allowed love, or rather obsession, to win over his rationality in the past life. And when he was reborn, even tho he realized that, somehow the blame was still on the emperor. “I was obsessive and you didn’t like me then” felt like he didn’t really reflect on his actions as HIS but rather he only acknowledged it as somehow a weapon against ML.

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overall I really love this story. it’s angst cover to cover lol. there are twists, heartbreaking moments, scenes that will make you hold over the edge of your seat. definitely a 5/5. <<less
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LadySayuri
LadySayuri rated it
August 7, 2022
Status: Completed
Wife Chasing Crematorium ☑

Abuse the Scum Gong ☑

Character Dev ☑

Heart-wrenching twist ☑

Acceptable Redemption ☑

Forgiveness & Love ☑

I just love this story and how it turned out 💕

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I like how even the ML waited for a long time to achieve sincerity, there's more to the price that has to be paid, so being reborn isnt just an easy as a few spells & magic. And not only that even tho he suffered more than enough, it doesnt automatically exempts him from working his a off earning MC's forgiveness.

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It completely fulfilled my 'what you did to me, I'll throw it back to you' revenge fantasy and satisfied my scum gong abuse craving that I have 😆 <<less
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AneeChan
AneeChan rated it
July 18, 2022
Status: Completed
Actual rating- 4.1

My thoughts about the story could be summed up perfectly by the words of a comment I came across in the translator's site:

"The first couple ever to have me thinking " they're so bad for each other they should break up, but it's better to stay together than to thrust someone else into this mess at least they know why they're in this position."

... more>> This is it. This is my summation of the entire thing.

It was like watching a train wreck happening in slow motion knowing the consequences but you're helpless to do anything about it and can only watch the horror unfold.

The MC- I have read different types and levels of scum but he is one of the most unique types; The type of scum to contradict himself. If somebody should find him a name other than Yun Qingci it should be I N S E C U R I T Y. He's a bag of insecurity engulfed by victim mentality and also a hypocrite at the same time. The result? An absolute piece of sh*t who comes across as internally bipolar and continuously blames the ML for things he may or may not be responsible.

The ML- A decent guy really (compared to the MC anyway) and has a scum level of a good 0.5% compared to the MC. Because of his atrocious and absolutely unthinkable villainous action of ignoring the MC and his goodwill (and his killing antics) he had to pay and atone beyond what was humanely capable. What other unbelievably shocking wrong doings did he do? Oh yeah. He also
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played chess with one of his concubines that he absolutely had no feelings for

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. Hardly anything justifiable for what he was put through really. People can tr*sh talk all they want about ML telling "But he didn't communicate well". Pls, the MC was hardly sensible or in this case sane for somebody to hold an intelligent conversation with him. He wasn't someone reliable enough for the ML (or anybody) to be vulnerable with. The MC was childish and naive in every sense of the word in his previous life and in the current life though he might come across as smart he's still very petty-minded and rash (in his speech, actions and even his flirting was super aggressive and disrespectful/rude)

In all truth though? s*upid. Both the mains were at some point or another s*upidly, foolishly, blindly in love. So if that kind of love makes you cringe, you may back out now.

The MC also had this mis-assumption that the reborn ML was the same, obsessive, mentally haphazardous lover that he was in his past life. At the beginning maybe he was. But with time especially in the last few chapters ML's love though was obsessive was so glaringly mellow and full of silent yearning - that one might even call it unconditional. It was a beautiful love- what he harboured for the MC and cannot be compared to the harmful, selfish emotion the MC held in the name of 'love' in his past life.

It also has to reminded that no matter who provoked or offended a person - su*cide is not a crime that can be evicted through another person. su*cide is instigated by oneself and if doesn't have the external physical involvement in the matter, I do not believe the death or any damage of such an attempt can be persecuted through an external party.

Therefore the ML doesn't have to be responsible for MC's death.

And yet ML had to go through that hell in both his previous life and the current one... And I feel bad for him.

After doing all that when the MC got all lovedovey with him I visibly cringed. I was never this disgusted at two fictional characters flirting with eachother.

ML absolutely deserved better. I wished he'd break it off with this human scum and find somebody else. The ending I wanted was Li Ying transferring his throne to somebody else, relieving his burdens, leaving the MC and living life making merry by playing games, travelling the world and learning crafts (basically everything the MC was given but the ML wasn't). But of course that's not what happened because our ML is a lovesick fool.

Ultimately would I recommend this? Yes, but only to those who have a thing for "wife chasing crematorium" and "gong abuse"/"gong regrets" to extreme levels.

For those looking for regular, lowkey or sensible angst it would simply make your blood boil. <<less
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Vanlatte
Vanlatte rated it
June 30, 2022
Status: Completed
A great novel. It focuses more on healing. Well, the face-slapping is there and very apparent, but it's not the usual face-slapping.

The wife chasing actually not that bad or exaggerated. ML knows when to back down but also knows when he needs to persist. Anyway, he doesn't force MC.

Even the misunderstanding that I usually hate is not that annoying here... ... more>>
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Because it's not a s*upid misunderstanding that makes you want to bang their heads, but misunderstanding because of one's schemes.

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It's a unique angst novel, quite different than others with same genre.

  • MC is not entirely blameless nor a gary stu.
  • ML is not really a scum either. Although he sure is to blame.
  • It starts with MC's rebirth so we don't need to bleed our heart by reading how our MC is bullied by the scum.
  • MC is definitely not a soft persimmon, both before and after rebirth.
  • The story tells more about how they amend their relationship (healing, like I said before). Of course there is still angst :)
  • I can relate MC and ML's choices. In other words, logical. This point is important because sometimes I usually don't understand how the characters can make this/that choice because it doesn't make sense and seems fake. Not in this novel. Even the love words that usually only make me deadpan (and sometimes make me want to roll my eyes) are placed nicely and not exaggerated. Why so? Because I can feel the characters are really sincere in saying them. [FYI, not just the love words that are said sincerely 'tho. The angst words are too]
  • No long flashbacks. Just saying in passing.
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    There's one, but I don't think it's a flashback. It's more like an out of body experience. Flashbacks are in extras.

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  • Their characters are realistic. Not 2D where one is too good and the other is too worse.
There's a disadvantage. MC's change of heart is too abrupt. Although I understand that he truly doesn't resent ML anymore and his reason is conclusive enough, MC doesn't give a sign that he can forgive ML before. None at all. Author likes to state that MC loves hard and also hates hard, which maybe author wants to use it as an explanation of MC's change of heart. However, I still find it too sudden.

It doesn't affect me much. The reasoning and the explanation that makes me understand MC's choice are enough to offset that disadvantage. Why? Because some novels don't even give reason nor explanation. Even if they do, some don't make sense...

Overall, it's a good (angst) novel. <<less
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Chenqing
Chenqing rated it
May 26, 2022
Status: Completed
I don't read a lot of wife chasing crematorium novels, but this is pretty good.

A lot of people say that the main problem with their relationship is lack of communication; but I don't think that's all. Some people might say that MC or ML are unreasonable and they should just communicate, but in fact, they are both extremely complex characters put in such a difficult situation that their tragic ending in the first life was not surprising.

At the start I also think that the MC is too extreme while the... more>> ML comes across as general scum gong who only thinks about himself, but actually their personalities and issues start to make sense when their past was slowly revealed. They came from two completely different circumstances, giving birth to two completely opposing personalities.

MC's view about love, his deep fear of abandonment, and his idealization of the ML came from the way he was raised by his mother, the bad relationship with his father since young age, and how he grew up nearly alone with practically no one he was willing to trust aside from the ML. He was a traumatized child who latched on to the young ML who treated him well, and had a black-or-white extreme views towards people due to the trauma of the assassin attack and subsequently losing his mother.

On the other hand, ML was an abused child, who grew up in a culture extremely emphasizing filial piety. He was only ever rewarded for his discipline and accomplishments since he was young, and growing up in the palace, had to be constantly restrained and taught to put the country first before himself. As a young emperor who is constantly under scrutiny of the public and power hungry individuals, his pride was a defense mechanism to protect his sense of self worth, and it led him to hurt the MC many times. After the MC's death, he casted away his pride, and also lost his sense of self worth as seen by his following actions.

Lots of dog blood, and MC was extremely cruel as he convinced himself that he hated ML and ML deserved it. It was very realistic that he became cruel and unforgiving, as it was never easy to get over a past with self harm and suicidal thoughts.

At the end, both MC and ML finally understood each other. MC finally learnt restraint, and while seeing the ML hurting he let go of his hatred and wanted him to live well. His love had matured. As for the ML, with the experiences of his past life, he naturally had advantage of previous knowledge and could become a decisive ruler and willingly let go of his pride in order to make the MC happy.

Would their ending in the previous life had been better if they had communicated and trusted each other more? Perhaps. But I also don't think it could have been as good as their reincarnated life. <<less
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Lea168
Lea168 rated it
May 19, 2022
Status: Completed
4.5/5*

A while ago that I finished this story, so I forgot some details.

Overall feeling was very good. The story is captivating and made me binge the most part. The rebirth, angst and regret is always a trope that I really love.

... more>> What I liked and made it more interesting is that things are not what it seems. MC's POV is not reliable. He learns slowly about it after his rebirth.

ML seemed not so likeable at the start. He did a lot of things wrong, but he truly suffered in the end. He loved MC deeply and sacrificed and suffered tremendously to make him come back. There was a scene in the end that made me feel so incredibly sad for the original ML. The author is truly super cruel. You'll know when you reach that part. <<less
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Alexm3991
Alexm3991 rated it
March 12, 2022
Status: Completed
The emperor and empress are truly a well matched couple that loved each other deeply. This story is filled with misunderstandings and angst that covers both lifetime.

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In the first lifetime the over protection and secrets kept from Yun Qingci (empress) which lead him to misunderstand the emperor and finally commit su*cide. The double rebirth of the emperor and empress is all about getting revenge its not until the emperor stops keeping secrets from the empress are all the misunderstandings cleared. I like how the reason behind their rebirth is also explained even if it was kinda sad😭.

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praises4allBLauthors
praises4allBLauthors rated it
February 28, 2022
Status: Completed
At the start, the MC just wants to stay away from the ML to prevent those things from happening again, he didn't want to get revenge, he just wants to make up with his family whom he neglected and misunderstood in the previous timeline.

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the shou may seem childish and unreasonable but when you think about how he was raised you would understand that he didn't really understand how to control his own emotion. His mother coddled and pampered him since young while being isolated from his father and siblings, then when his mother died when he was just seven he turned everyone away until the time when ml, who was also still a child, persistently wanted to be close to him so the MC could be happy again. That was why the MC became so attached to ml, because he was there when MC was at his lowest. When he was just seventeen, he married the ML who also became the emperor three years back after his emperor father died.

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Before the time regressed for them, there are only two people in the most part of mc's life, his mother and ml. He met ML when he was seven, married when he was seventeen then died twelve years later. Can you imagine the betrayal he felt when he was sent to the cold palace by the only one he truly cared about all those years. Although it was all just a ruse to confuse the enemy, the ML didn't explain nor say anything to the MC and thought everything would be fine after, the MC didn't know anything that's why he thought ML didn't really love him and only used him to bring down mc's family.

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I especially like the added extras, it really adds to the feeling of heartache at what happened in their last life, it will make you think of why did they end up like that when their love started out as young, innocent and pure then suddenly those things happened.

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The real villain here is the empress dowager who brainwashed the MC into thinking that everyone in the palace are scheming against him and seducing the ml, she was the one who made the MC into a paranoid, obsessive and cruel person that everyone viewed him as in the previous timeline. She even encourage MC to hurt himself so ML would notice him.

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MC doesn't really know how to scheme so he was always straight forward when punishing people he thought were going against him, that's also why everyone was afraid of him.

Although I wish I could read more of their story, I also don't want to stretch their suffering further. It is already enough to know they had their happy ending together <<less
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AppleIsForYou
AppleIsForYou rated it
January 28, 2022
Status: Completed
I gave this my heart.

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It's all misunderstanding and was cleared in the end. It should have an angsty or psychological genre to it. First of all, both have faults in their way of portraying love. Don't completely judge the ML or the MC. They are seriously not perfect. Both suffered to their own medicine and learned from it. In reality, this will not work because we don'tget second chances. But they did by going back to the past. All their suffering was instigated too. The quote in the end where the brother said... "one has brain but doesn't use it and one has no brain at all. Speaks a thousand word. The ML do is the one who have a brain but because of his position and receiving obsession from MC. He couldn't communicate properly. He just want to make the MC learn more. MC completely one sided thinking led to his obsessions too. Mind you they really are inlove to each other when they lost it they fell madly in the pit of dispair.

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I had fun reading this. I just hope to find the extras.

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The ML suffered after the MC killed himself in the tower. His obsession spurted out after the su*cide. His regret increasingly grew. He really was innocent, too. Well, moreon oblivious of the mc's feeling of heartache. ML went mad. He tried to go back in the past by feeding his flesh to the snakes and making a blood wax to lit up when the white lamp turn red. ML was cleaning the mc's unchanged dead body. Until in the end where the lamp finally went red. ML realized he couldnt go back and still thinks one of his version went back. MC watched this while his soul went to the future. The last part where the ML was eatin by the thousand snakes till only his bone left made the MC realized that both of them love each other

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even MC think that he doesn't know if he really was in love or he was just obsessed

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The misunderstanding were slowly uprooted. And both of them realized their love, obsession, and regrets

I couldn't judge both of them as they suffered enough.
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both gave up their lives which became balanced

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WallEyeKnee
WallEyeKnee rated it
May 17, 2023
Status: Completed
So much angst that I find torturing to read.

Both MC and ML had their wrongs. But I just can't blame them, they weren't the root of their problems.

It was just tragic fate and a scumbag biatch causing drama and problems.

... more>> I love their sweet moments much more and we got only grains of it.

You find yourself hating either side at one point before knowing everything

They deserve each other and are made for each other, call them psychopath and what not. No one can understand them better besides themselves. I would read a modern day version of them, MC being a young master wanting to be a food streamer, and ML being a young CEO with an evil step mother and we have love rivals, brother wars, mum wars etc ha

I love them both, being crazy for each other it is not sin. Just find the right balance and never forget what your true intentions are. Go for it <<less
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Shotoxoxokawai
Shotoxoxokawai rated it
June 12, 2022
Status: --
It's funny how some reviews finds the MC problematic..

1) first of all the MC gv his everythin for tht scum nevertheless the ML took it all 4 granted

2) if the MC didn't stop him from having sextual affair with his concubine.. Then we all know wht the result will be

... more>> 3) It's hilarious how the ML expects the MC to love him once again after his shitty behavior in the past

Wish the MC left him all by himself..

Away from his friends, family n tht s*upid emperor

Wish there was a prominent love interest <<less
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Yosituna
Yosituna rated it
April 30, 2022
Status: extra 8
So I absolutely loved this in a guilty-pleasure kind of way. I have a fondness for crematorium novels, especially when they're combined with harem intrigue stories - the self-righteousness! The repentance! The melodrama! The groveling! - So this was definitely up my alley, in spite of the MC's and ML's relationship being horribly unhealthy, even at its "better" points.

The MC (Yun Qingci) is 100% the pettiest and most vengeful of b*tches for most of the story, and I loved it! It helped that the ML (Li Ying) had treated him... more>> like garbage in their previous life, making the choice to privilege his status as emperor over his status as YQC's husband; of course, this was to LY's great regret when his sh*t treatment of YQC (as well as various other characters' manipulations, and YQC's own obsession and not-unjustified paranoia) led YQC to commit su*cide in despair. Only then did LY realize how much he loved YQC and how little anything else mattered if he didn't have him, and he lives the rest of his life trying to find some way to make things right.

The story begins with both YQC and LY reincarnating, but each thinks they're the only one who's reincarnated; therefore YQC, who's determined to withdraw himself from LY and live his own life for himself rather than for his ungrateful husband, is wondering why LY is suddenly pathetically eager for his approval and love when he often disregarded it before, while LY is so happy that he can go back and do things right to treat the man he loves properly, only to discover that the unconditionally loving Lord Empress he remembers is now distant and even bringing up the idea of separation. Eventually, of course, they realize their mutual reincarnation, which is where the story really starts.

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I liked how even though YQC and YL's relationship is horribly toxic at its worst and unhealthy at best, they are both working to make it better. On YL's part, he recognizes that he privileged things (his rule, political harmony, toxic manipulators) over YQC that he didn't actually care about as much as YQC, and that he needs his Lord Empress much more than he thought he did and should have treated him better and communicated with him more. On YQC's part, he recognizes that he was unhealthily attached/codependent with YL, and that he needs to maintain some level of independence and healthy relationships with others, so he rebuilds relationship with his family (who genuinely loved him before, but he threw it away for LY; in fact, his family is pushing for YQC and LY to separate because they want him back and they recognize how bad this has been for YQC).

So they both grow, while also still being recognizably themselves: YQC is healthier in the way he lives his life but still a petty-ass, jealous, somewhat paranoid bit*h who's more than a little obsessed with LY, while LY still sublimates and subordinates himself to what he finds important, it's just that he now recognizes what is genuinely more important to him personally and that, unlike the emperorship, YQC can be reciprocal in that devotion and care. (LY is also as petty and jealous now as YQC used to be; in the next-to-last chapter, the reveal that he stole the ear mufflers YQC made for the second male lead was both horrifying and hilarious. These psychos are both petty and jealous and obsessive, and it shows just how much these two deserve each other!)

I also think the novel did well in keeping me 100% behind YQC until he sees LY's future, and the over-the-top suffering he does to get his second chance with YQC (which admittedly is 100% a gutpunch, with the "two" Li Yings), and so I began thinking "OK, LY has suffered enough, I think I like him now" at the same time as YQC did (which is hard, to ensure your reader has that switch in feeling at the same time the protagonist does!).

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I did also like the secondary characters, especially LY's and YQC's servants, YQC's dad and brothers, and the brothers' friends (especially the second male lead, Lin Huaijan).

That said, some of the extras at the end about the youthful relationship of YQC and LY are hard to read; they're set before it all gets bad, so they're very adorable even as you're constantly conscious of the meat grinder this sweet relationship is about to get fed into.

So basically, a very well-done version of a very problematic relationship between two very problematic characters, and while I recognize that problematicness (problematicity?) I also 100% loved it, lol. <<less
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Sandikay0
Sandikay0 rated it
April 28, 2022
Status: extra 8
This was a very satisfying read. There was honest character development.

When you realize that they were a part of each other lives for so long, and the pain they caused to each other because they weren't mature enough to communicate. They grew up and changed not for the better, but it was realistic. It was so rewarding to see them get their second chance and actually be able live together once they got the toxicity out of their second lives.
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marsGF
marsGF rated it
February 19, 2022
Status: Completed
THEY ARE BOTH CRAZY!

Good Lord, the drama in this one is so vicious that my heart is abused. Please read this with caution because there are themes that might be uncomfortable for some readers.

How to say it... I wasn't expecting that much abuse to the reader from just reading the summary and the tags. There had been times when I wanted to pause reading the novel to recuperate from the viciousness of the story, but I never had the thought of dropping it.

It's a beautiful novel in a certain way... more>> that I cannot clearly describe. Maybe it's something like the feeling you get when appreciating a good tragedy? It's also like you, the reader, are helpless to do anything but you want to cheer them on even when they're being pathetic.

The MC and the ML's relationship aren't perfect and it's so flawed that you can't help but want to smack their heads, especially the MC's head.

When everything was revealed, I was shocked as well. It was really shocking and
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morbid 😣!!!

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And then when they were at the reconciliation stage, it wasn't smooth sailing.
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They know what was already wrong and they can just heal like an ideal couple BUT NOOOOO THE MC'S PRIDE HAD TO BE THERE. f*ckING HELL, I know couples don't reconcile smoothly because of their individual prides, but damn, seeing it in a novel gives me flashbacks on irl couples and their s*upidity.

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But it is understandable in a way.
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They both suffered because of miscommunication and manipulation from third parties. There's a villain here but there wasn't much detail on how the villain was defeated. Although it has been implied that the ML really made that person suffer.

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In my opening sentence for this review, I said that they were both crazy. They were and you can't help but scream that as you delve more into the novel. One theme of this novel is obsessive love and you can really get a glimpse on the consequences of obsession.

Again, ⚠️READ WITH CAUTION because there are sensitive topics!!! It is all throughout the novel so if you're fainthearted, I suggest moving on to another novel. BUT IF YOU LIKE DRAMA, this is really good. The reading experience is also good and the translator did a good job on it. <<less
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