I feel very sorry to Mu Yu Cheng though. His wife and both of his son died (Well I guess it's three of his sons?) I want to cry, he is a good father for me, I don't know why both of his sons are like that. Both Mu Yi Hang and Mu Yi Fan are so black. They are really evil.

From chapter 354 to chapter 360, you should honestly prepare your tissue. I cried to hard 😭 The ML is just really pitiful... he loves MC very much to the point that it's already crazy. When the MC died, he did not let go of him, and he even fulfilled the MC's wish of going around the world and looking at the sunshine everyday 😭 He is doing these things together with the cold dead body of MC. When he buried MC, he made the location very special. It even became something like a special place in their city. He's really devoted, imagine not being with your lover for 60 years but still continued to be very loyal. He even tried everything so that he and the MC will be together again. Fortunately, he succeeded. I already read in some spoiler that these thing would happen but I did not really expect it to be like this. I really cried because of it. 🤧

The MC truly believing his pregnancy was just gas was a little too unbelievable for me and the ending with the IRL pregnancy made me lose my mind. I had to put this book down a lot and stare at the ceiling to gather myself.

I did like the fact that MC accepted that he was actually gay towards the second half and realized he only thought he liked that girl in high school because he appreciated how pretty and nice she was. I felt like that was pretty realistic. A lot of BL will do the whole "I'm straight except when it comes to you!" explanation, so seeing this was a pleasant surprise. As someone who's gay, I've also mistaken appreciation as attraction in the past, so it was relatable. It was nice to see him figure out his sexuality and be accepted by his IRL friends when he explained and came out to them. Thumbs up on that part, author!

Side note: was anyone else pretty concerned about the fact that IRL Zhan Bei Tian's soul ended up being the same as Novel ZBT? Was IRL ZBT ever a separate person?? Did the IRL ZBT cease to exist once Novel ZBT's soul went into the mother's body and became him? It's confusing to even think about. They emphasize that they're one in the same but can't we agree that before MC wrote his novel, that would be impossible? This timeline is so messed up... My head hurts if I think too much about it.

I also would've liked if we got some kind of explanation as to WHY their child was so all-knowing. How did he know that MC wasn't the zombie king MYF??? Why does he have time-travel powers? Why did he specifically choose to go into MYF's body to become a fetus and be born? I still don't understand that. Like, yeah, I loved the kid. He was funny. But (insert that one 'laughs nervously hahaha wtf' meme here) at least explain it a little more!

So it was there that the soul of his body may be possessed in others body (the Mu Yi Fan in novel)

The MC died in the apocalypse world cause his cancer came back when He got cured from the zombie virus. ML made our MC wishes come true before leaving that world and finding the MC soul for thousand of years- how?? Read it?

also, can we just talk about the twists? Like, the main villain Zhan Nantian was unexpectedly the original Mu Yifan. And what was even more interesting was that this villain Mu Yifan came from the second life[aka the novel timeline with rebirth!Zhan Beitian]

and GOD, the ending nearly broke my heart. Like, when Mu Yifan became human again and died and his last words were that he didn’t want to die and leave Zhan Beitian and his son, , , god that broke me. And what broke me even more was that his son could save him, but in turn has to die so he didnt save him and Mu Yifan died and went back to his original world

and when they started saying that novel!Zhan Beitian was just a guide for Mu Yifan to childhood friend!Zhan Beitian, I was so sad. Because in my mind, they are two seperate people. But then they revealed that the two are actually the same people and novel!Zhan Beitian actually crossed over to the real world and reincarnated as Zhan Beitian.

DAMN IT, I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN WELL JUST READ THE NOVEL

the way MC openly and shamelessly accepts his relationship with ML in bed. Usually it's all sorts of "ah so embarassing", "i must be on top", "do I want to or not, oh no, no, don't touch aaah". MC? MC is perfectly okay and very proactive. And there's no robo-ML that can keep going for three days straight even after bottom is unconcious already. Bless.