I Don’t Want to Be Loved

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Rihannan Alessin, a queen rotting in prison.

Despaired and without hope, she drank poison and died. But… unbeknownst to her, the deity gave her a second chance at life. She was twelve again. And this time, she would live life differently.

Six years later, she chooses to become Arundell’s queen…

“If you’re asking me to step down from the marriage proposal, I can’t.”

“Marry me and let us divorce after a year.”

And this time, the time limit of their marriage would last a year.

A husband she knew who was different than before… she tried not to love him again, but each time, her heart kept shaking.

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IDWTBL
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kangkong2020
kangkong2020 rated it
July 14, 2020
Status: c133
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At reading some half baked reviews about how ML cheated on FL I'm really hesitant to read this novel. I really hate cheaters! But as I read thru some reviews, I gave it a chance and I was not disappointed, none at all. The concept of this novel is redemption, it's not revenge. The FL is very weak minded, very passive and wants to keep herself in the dark. She is a character that doesn't help herself. She's too weak. I somewhat understand that she just want to forget everything and escape the clutches of the ML, but I cannot blame the ML since I believe that he has a role to play in healing the FL. I haven't finished it yet but I think it's one of the reason I'm okay with it. This is a very complex story, it's not a for faint hearted or readers who just wanted a smart, aggressive and vengeful FL. FL doesn't want to help herself to be a better person but I think it's due her lack of exposure and experiences. We cannot blame her weak minded at all. She has a lot of trust issues, she doesn't even trust herself and own up to her mistake. She wants to live a peaceful and normal life but even if she was already away from ML but she is not yet peaceful. If she haven't met Princess Helena, I think she'll just lock up herself and think sad thoughts and is prone to su*cide. It's really hard to cure PTSD yourself. I think she's prone to self sacrificing cause she doesn't want to cause trouble or burden to others which only backfired. The thing about the ML is if he really loved her and wants to protect her, he needs to let her go. He was selfish on that part knowing that FL is traumatized by her past life, we cannot expect FL to change faster since she is very minded person and sheltered, it's an excuse but it is like a 'cause and effect' thing. There is a reason why she is weak and every person is different, her character change is very slow paced that's why some readers find it annoying and infuriating. If you're a patient reader and broaden your in evey flaw of each character, you'll understand the FL. When ML waged a war, I understood that it's like hitting two birds in one stone, he was kinda cunning on that part when he asked for a marriage, because he knows that Rhia will be used as pawn to be sent to him. BUT he deserved to be redeemed, he is very redeemable character because he genuinely changed and puts a lot of effort in winning her back. ML is very smart and strong minded.

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This is very interesting story, if you don't want a complex story about heartache, betrayal, ANGST like 100% and emotional rollercoaster, this is not for you.
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strongandindie
strongandindie rated it
June 1, 2020
Status: c100
A different and interesting isekai! With fleshed out characters, more imagery and beautiful writing, a different flavour. Highly recommended!
Be patient - it will pay off and the story will be more satisfying and intriguing than if it’d been a simple revenge isekai like the hundreds out there.
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Eurycleia2020
Eurycleia2020 rated it
May 13, 2020
Status: c82
The story is really nice, the foreshadowings are good, the FL is determined after reincarnation... but I don’t like the ML. ... more>>
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In the previous life, there were a lot of miscommunications and he doesn’t try to reach out. He r*ped her many time and one time because he’s jealous. He didn’t let the FL talk to her cousin when he goes around sleeping with her sister. And when things were about to getting good, he just had to f**k her sister while FL was pregnant with his kid. It tore my heart when she saw it. That was no excuse.

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I know he’s giving his best in the next life but, boy it’s gonna take a whole lot of good reasons to save his ass in my eyes. <<less
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Piichannie
Piichannie rated it
May 13, 2020
Status: c82
So far, I'm enjoying this story, even with its somewhat frustrating characters. There is clear development of their personalities and seeing how the characters progress through their past trauma is interesting.

The story itself begins with quite a depressing backstory, and how Rhia ends up being taken back to the past to restart her life before everything went horribly wrong for her due to her relationships with the other characters and twisted misunderstandings.

As for Igor... ... more>>
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He too seems to have been reincarnated to the past, though we don't know how his life ended and led to it. The things he has done to Rhia is clearly justified in the story and even though it seems sad and unfair, there are reasons for everything. No one is flawless after all.

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he is making a conscious effort to be a better person and to treat Rhia with the love she deserves.

Both characters present us with a very frustrating read with the way they both seem to treat each other and their serious lack of communication, but I think that they are going to have a better relationship in the future. I can only guess and hope that they have a happier ending than their tragic past, and hope that they will learn of the truths and overcome their pasts together.

Overall, despite the many frustrating parts of this story, I'm really enjoying it! And hoping for a good ending. <<less
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jeanalvernia
jeanalvernia rated it
May 4, 2020
Status: c77
Thank you very much for translating this novel❤️ The storyi progressing really well and I'm actually considering to spend money for the next chapters.
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yuukii05
yuukii05 rated it
April 21, 2020
Status: c66
I really like this novel. I love how the story is progressing, POV's of both the ML And FL, plot very interesting.

People might think this is novel is no good since it's like any other reincarnation / back in time type of novel. But guys the STORY, enjoy the plot.

i hope this is not considered as a spoiler. (Since I don't it's just a general plot with this kinds of genre.)

I don't know why but personally I love this kinds of plots where people are badmouthing the ML... more>> for doing what he did and me being pissed all the time when he makes an appearance and wish for a chance. Yes his doing something to make up for his shit. I know it's weird but I love stories like this. So that's why I love this novel, not a full 5 stars yet since it's still being translated so I have to wait and see.

Just give it a chance. Be the judge yourself. <<less
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matsurin
matsurin rated it
April 10, 2020
Status: c55
The story is very good. MC really had a depressing past life so she quite struggled to live in the present life.
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bebebisous33
bebebisous33 rated it
April 5, 2020
Status: c52
I like this story, even if the ML seems to be terrible. However, he is trying to redeem himself and I am quite sure that Rihannan doesn't know the whole story. I am not convinced that Igor cheated on her, she could have been tricked by her step-sister.
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Lonewhitewolf
Lonewhitewolf rated it
March 14, 2020
Status: c35
Overall this novel is very intriguing and has you asking "what happens next" with each chapter. The translation is very polished and clear to read which is much appreciated and I thank those translators and editors very much for their hard work. I highly recommend you read this yourself, especially if you like 2nd chance stories!
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Briwilbert
Briwilbert
February 20, 2020
Status: c23
I’m really looking forward to the rest of the book. The translator/editor does an amazing job because it’s such a seamless and easy read. I’m grateful for the translations. THANK YOU!!!!
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Lazil
Lazil rated it
February 18, 2020
Status: c21
I understand many review this negatively as we cannot was put up with double timing but we do have to consider the setup of novel is historic... I personally quite liked this and can see a lot of potential...

Finally thanks for translating this and hope you start releasing soon ?
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kjpo34
kjpo34 rated it
January 1, 2020
Status: c14
I’m really liking this!! Love this MC and her revenge story. The plot is something I love and it’s R18 so hehehe :) can’t wait for more!
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Shiska
Shiska rated it
December 24, 2019
Status: c11
I love this kind of novels. Revenge everywhere, please.
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Litithity
Litithity
November 9, 2023
Status: --
Yep, the title said everything. "I don't want to be loved".

FL "doesn't want to be loved" to the point that she pushed ML away for s*upid reasons. In her past life, at least.

This life, though, it's even worse. She should at least have already known who some of her enemies are, right? She is a regressor, after all. But no. Like a review above stated, she is a pretty doll.
Innocent, quiet, weak, pushover. That's what she seems to me when I read the parts about her past life. After... more>> going through life and death, she kinda becomes fiercer, but that's all. Still s*upid all the same inside. No improvement, no redemption, no development.

Compared to her, ML is a good catch. I meant it. He develops himself well. Even in the past life, he have done so well that he grew up safely under his villainous mother's supervision and not corrupted to become a crazy king. He knows what he can do and must do. ML has always been patient enough to give people beside him, especially FL many 'other chances' (though she betrayed him for who-know many times).
All right, ML is selfish and abusive sometimes. But how can we blame him? He is an unloved, exploited boy. Violence is his only way to cope and survive.
In fact, victims of mistreatment if left alone would find some ways to deal with the crime they suffered. One of the most common ways is to become a criminal themselves, as they will be scared by other people like they were once scared of their billy
Many of the bullied children became perpetrators because of that mental, and ML is no exception. It is in human nature to do everything for the benefit of themselves.
If he does not love himself, then who will love him?

FL? Oh come on, her love only harms him. It's irritating how she acts like a victim all the time when she's the one who makes their relationship go south after taking his mother's side.

Even if ML actually cheats on her, it could be justified. What's a shame that ML is too devoted to doing something terrible.

In other novels of the same kind, Rhea, at most, would only be an executed, traitorous previous wife character. The FL would be another better lady. However, because she is lucky enough to get married to ML, who, obviously, blindly loves her, like crazy, FL gets a HE. TBH, this alone put me off immediately. <<less
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Witchie55
Witchie55 rated it
May 17, 2022
Status: --
The novel actually started out pretty good.... the FL did the most common and obvious thing she could do to avoid her DE*TH.. but rather than that she really doesn't have any developments she is just an annoying character saying she's not the same and she'll not make the same mistake and the making that same mistake😂and only crying as if that'll solve everything. And the most annoying trait she has is communication problem... she thinks that everything she assumes is true and never bothers to see the other person's... more>> circumstances. The ML is the only one putting efforts and trying to solve the misunderstandings. I can't bear with it anymore.

The ML on the other hand has a decent development. Even though he was a jerk in his first life but his actions are somewhat understandable given his situation and his tr*shy mother. He actually learnt from his mistake and did his best. You can't demand anything more from him he's done everything he could for the foolish and annoying FL

Still the FL makes it hard to read and I'm dropping it.... it's unbearable <<less
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NEKO_PLANET
NEKO_PLANET rated it
October 13, 2021
Status: c200
Seriously, I hope that Translators will not drop this : (

This novel is very good.

Yes, the first 30-50 chapters are quite depressing, but after that, it's quite fine.

I dont mind re-reading it.

All translators are doing their great work! Thank you!

I'll still be waiting patiently for this :)
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Burnfavor1
Burnfavor1 rated it
July 1, 2021
Status: c13
I love the FL so far, she is kind, smart, and is not wasting her second chance at life. The plot is addictive. Thank you so much translators and editors.
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Iamnrdypat
Iamnrdypat
March 28, 2021
Status: --
Dropped until ch 130 😣 the story has a promising background but unfortunately the author didn’t really expand her horizons. The title didn’t really live up to its name “ I dont to be loved” hahaha. You would think that the FL is being kind and just but she is ignorant. I dont hate weak FL but she made me do. The only thing I like about this story is the ML mother
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MeineMeow
MeineMeow
July 8, 2020
Status: c165
This novel is one of my fave. The story is kinda cliche, but the one that makes me absorbed into this story is how the female and male lead seems so real. Their pain, and their “heartless” act regarding preventing the same painful past happening again, is on the right amount. Both of them is not s*upid, but both of them also had a lot of trust issues because the family background and how they were raised up. And the romance is just so sweet. The translation is good, made... more>> me enjoy the story flow even more. Definitely 5 star story for me, ans interesting to re-read again and again. <<less
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Yuri1993
Yuri1993 rated it
May 25, 2020
Status: c46
The story started good but it got boring along the way when the FL went back to Arundel — too many insignificant and unnecessary detailed scenes started to build up, when it can actually be shorten up. I skipped many chapters. Hopefully the story will focus more on the progress between the FL and ML in the upcoming chapters. Good to read to past time. I'll give this 3 stars, can't edit the "star" button.
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