ML started off as a scum in his previous life, with his mother treating him as an object, a tool for power. He liked MC but hid his affections because he was afraid of his mother manipulating him using his affections towards the MC. It didn't help that MC always chose her mother over him and didn't try to understand him at all. His only fault is not doing his proper research about MC's family condition and not trying to understand MC. There are questionable aspects like r*pe, but it is dubcon rather than r*pe. They are not an ordinary couple, they had to produce an heir to stabilize the throne. If she didn't like it, she could have rejected the marriage. She had all the chances to cancel her marriage to him after she misheard his conversation with his mother. The whole cheating scandal was made by him to attack the queen and he didn't bother explaining it to MC because she gave the impression of wanting him to take her half sister as a mistress to produce an heir. He didn't cheat on her and treated her well during her pregnancy. Her death was not caused by him at all and if he didn't prevent her deathly fall she could have died early. After her death he did all things in his power to give her justice and gave a second chance to both of them. In second life, he tries his best to redeem himself but the only thing I'm unsatisfied with him is forcing her to marry him, although he didn't try to force the physical act with her like other MLs. He gets better, ultimately respecting her choise to leave him with their baby.

I don't get her past obsession over her father's love. She is not a poor child who was completely neglected in her childhood. She had a loving, caring and strong mother who completely protected her from all of the harm, in addition to her affectionate maternal relatives. Normally a child who receives tons of love from one parent while his/her other parent completely neglected him/her would naturally be more biased towards the loving person while developing resentment or indifference towards the other. Her father didn't gave a rat's ass about her since the beginning, she knows about the crumbled relashionship of her parents, so I don't understand why she desperately longed for her father's affection even after he brought his illegitimate daughter home the moment his wife died? Even after she became an adult she did really s*upid things for the sake of that "toxic" paternal love. Asking her husband to dance with her gorgeous half sister at a prestigious event while their relashionship was not at the best was a really s*upid decision of hers. No wonder ML was disgusted with her, he would have thought she is a power hungry person who wanted to keep her position as a queen in any and every way possible since they really needed an heir at that time and sending your own sister to palace to produce an heir in her place is a common move used to protect the position as the queen.

She is very gullible, another damsel in distress, that kind of woman who need the constant monitoring of the ML to stay alive. Isolating herself besides a lake which allows any enemy to attack her, chasing after her villainous half sister who tried to kill her, mistaking a kidnapper as her cousin just because he knew their childhood song and going alone to meet her half sister who is in the death raw with her weak pregnant body, well only our dear MC would do it. Honestly ML is doing her a favour by taking her to his side, otherwise she would have ended up dead in a few days. It is understandable that she was poisoned to death while ML was simply unconscious for few days because she is a s*upid puppet queen with extremely low IQ.

both FL and ML (unfortunately, it's the douchebag husband) are reincarnated. The reason for the title is because the ML regretted the FLs death and treatment so much that when he got reincarnated too, he vowed to love her the way he couldn't do in the first life without asking for her heart in return.

I especially liked how Igor realized that his past behavior really was abuse and r*pe, and that it genuinely was his fault for Rihannan not understanding what was going on behind the scenes because he never told her what their families were doing. Rihannan's reaction to being married (again) to her rapist and her determination to move forward with her life as a person who could feel love and enjoy s*x despite her past was a visceral gut punch for me, as a fellow r*pe survivor who was also married to their rapist.

The author did a good job with shaking up the reader. To the point where the readers were giving me a headache. The story has an interesting theme of communication and trust. If those aren't present, a relationship is doomed to fail, which is exactly what happened with Rihannan's first marriage. Communication is key.

It's one of the things that had me skeptic from the beginning. As we only had Rhia's pov and I remember watching a programme about eyewitness and how the program mentioned that eyewitness aren't the most reliable sources. For an obvious reason. People are too clouded by their emotions and interest to make a proper judgement and that was exactly what happened here too.

I liked the idea how Rhia immediately kicked out her ungrateful father and twisted half-sister from her property and decided to live in a healthier environment. Aka her relatives, but thats as far as character development goes for this protagonist. She did not learn from her mistakes at all and keeps everything to herself, jumping to conclusions without solid proof, only for the ML to clear them up. I feel like their relationship this time is only one sided with Igor being the only one who tries to put effort in it and what gets he in return? Nothing? Well until the end of the story, but for the biggest part Rhia has not been conscious of the feelings of others at all, only living in her own world where she is the endless victim of her past and past relations without trying to make an active change. It makes me feel like like Igor is the main character instead of Rhia, since he is the only one who went through a proper character development and when he gave her the choice to leave with their unborn child or stay with him she didn't even took into account that she was going to prevent the father of her child from raising and loving their kid. She took the people around her who were supporting her for granted the moment she felt like things could turn to how they used to be back in the other timeline. Instead of trying to fight for her future she unjustifiably pushed people away who have been helping her. Princess Helena was given the cold shoulder when she assumed that she would sacrifice her own friend for her own freedom, while the girl ended up breaking her own foot while trying to contact Rhia. Before that she didn't even bother to trust her completely as a friend, because she assumed everything would repeat anyway. She wasn't any better to her family either. She created more trouble instead. This utter selfishness and lack of respect those who tried to help her frustrated me to no end, she keeps going back about how her other life was so awful and how she was depraved of love, while ignore the ones who currently want to be her support. As a main character She is extremely lacking, she does not advance the plot at all, it's the other characters that do. Her whole personality revolves around her victim mentality, being so called nice to everyone and her bias on her past life.

Even the queen ended up being a better woman in her second life. She ended up living quietly instead of trying to get in her son's way. While she had been awful as a mother, in-law and wife, she did came to accept her wrongdoings in her previous life and lamented over her mistakes, while accepting her punishment and lived quietly in her second life.

Both FL and ML are to be blamed. It takes two to make a relationship work. But FL believes it is the responsibility of ML to shoulder their relationship. She blames every person's mistake on the ML. She doesn't stand up to save her only friend's family. Who in their right mind will not tell their friend about the impending danger to their family. She is just alive and is emotionally numb. She should first focus on getting into right mindset and focus on why she should live.

Then we have the ML who shoulders the blame of every character and loves the FL more than himself. He is trying to make the relationship work by giving her everything. He forces the FL to accept him which irks me. He knows he is at fault. He knows that he indirectly caused her death. Yet he goes again and pushes her to dire circumstances to accept him. Honestly she isn't that special. She isn't suitable to be a queen. So he could have let her live her second life instead of forcing her to marry him. But anyway, due to the untiring efforts of ML they finally have a happy relationship by the end.

I loved the boat? shore, deck, what was it- reunion scene. It was such a good reference to their second life's beginning and a lovely way of showing what had changed since then.