I Don’t Want to Be Loved

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Rihannan Alessin, a queen rotting in prison.

Despaired and without hope, she drank poison and died. But… unbeknownst to her, the deity gave her a second chance at life. She was twelve again. And this time, she would live life differently.

Six years later, she chooses to become Arundell’s queen…

“If you’re asking me to step down from the marriage proposal, I can’t.”

“Marry me and let us divorce after a year.”

And this time, the time limit of their marriage would last a year.

A husband she knew who was different than before… she tried not to love him again, but each time, her heart kept shaking.

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사랑받기 원하지 않는다
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nuyanata
nuyanata rated it
April 6, 2020
Status: c52
it's nice but the chapters are too short. Should wait more and come back to read later
50 chapters but nothing excited happen. Plot flow's slow as snail.

I like that, ML is rebirth and remember the past too.
it's boring if only victim remember the cruel past while abuser know nothing and use as excuse -I'm not the guy who abuse, I'm nicer now etc.

and I worn you this. ML still selfish jerk. He chase after MC and force her stay with him against her wills without explanation or talk.

it's really annoyed and even made me want to cussed 'f*ck off' to him.

they do contact marriage for 1 years so I think all bad memory will be nothing within this time haha.
i didn't aspect much (wait for smut LOL)
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reapples
reapples
March 27, 2020
Status: c21
Wow. I'm usually all for second changes for both the MC and ML, but I can't with this story. I literally have no words for the ML. Also, I agree with Skyhighxx in that the flashbacks can be kind of confusing -- they randomly disrupt the pace of the story. Besides that, the story seems to have potential and the translation is very well done.
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lan2001h
lan2001h rated it
February 3, 2020
Status: c10
Again a "reborn" novel but this time the MC has to fight back from the moment she opens her eyes. This story is really pleasant and mesmerize so far with a lot of potential. Can't wait for more
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akera93
akera93 rated it
January 22, 2020
Status: c19
I wanted to hold my review until they meet again because my rating highly depends on how she interacts with him this time. I almost didn't read this because from the summary, we know they'll be married again before they resolve everything and I'm not a fan of that but I like the chapters so far so I don't regret giving this a shot. I hope this doesn't disappoint when the real plot starts developing
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Babystories1503
Babystories1503 rated it
January 19, 2020
Status: v1c16
It's really an interesting novel.....

I love the way MC settled down her selfish father and stepsister?. And that foolish impulsive king, like really he can't even judge a person right or wrong.....

I mean if u hate Rihanna so much that practically marital reped her, then why don't u divorce her, but no u keep her like a unfavourable queen doll, and go to that white lotus stepsister. ??

I really admire the queen (king's mother). I don't know her full character but till now her how she Handel those greedy nobles... more>> and keep the throne for her son. She's truly a strong woman. I don't know her reason to keep all power in her control, but I personally think, the reason why she keep the power in her control even after her son become king, is to safeguard her son become a puppet king of those greedy nobles (as he is a child, can be manipulate by anyone). Hmm let's see what happened, and I really support mc's decision to leave Arundel,... she really deserves a better environment..... I'm really excited for the future chapter.....

Great work author and translators..... loveeee this novel.... excited to know the future chapters,

(P.s. Sorry don't be offend by my comments, but to tell u truth, this plot line and the characters of this novel is what makes this story interesting. As a reader little complaining is fair ??.. hope u don't mind..... and don't let this affected ur original thought of the story line......?) <<less
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Hanukalka
Hanukalka rated it
January 1, 2020
Status: c12
Wow. I'm new in reading novels so I don't have much experience with this. But from mine point of view is this novel amazing.

I like the moments when the author shows inner thoughts of MC and her memories from the past. Somehow is very satisfying to see her how she changed from her past self. She is amazing and I can't wait to know what is going to happened next.

I like it and I would like to thanks all groups and people that are translating this and of course the... more>> author is brilliant to write something so captivating. I recommend it for everyone even thou I don't know much myself, but I already fall into this exciting story. <<less
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Sukuku
Sukuku rated it
December 28, 2019
Status: c14
Maybe it's too early to judge this novel, but I like it. Thanks for the translate, and the translator did a great job too!
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Shiro Ni Kuro
Shiro Ni Kuro rated it
December 24, 2019
Status: --
I am loving this story right now it is interesting MC is smart has a good storyline and is not that bad MC is smart and very lovable

But is interested in the R 18 tag?
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loly_machado
loly_machado rated it
December 23, 2019
Status: c10
In general this one is a classic of the genre of rebirth and revenge (betrayal of the loved ones, jealous sister, MC that wished to be loved and acknowledged...), but this don't take the merit of the novel. I'm enjoying the plot, and I like that the MC is taking action to accomplish her revenge even when she is just a "child". The story is good and is really easy to root for the MC and hate her scum sis and father after we read how they treated her. I... more>> don't know how things will go when MC past lover make his appearance but at least for now I'm having a good time, and think the fans of the genre definitely should give a try! Thanks to the translation team, you guys are doing a great job! <<less
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sarrieta90
sarrieta90 rated it
December 23, 2019
Status: c10
So far loving this series, loving the MC no bullsh*t attitude. Here's hoping to see more of this novel's characterzation grow in this new life and how it may effect the others. My only hope is the progression of the character and the plot do not stagnate or progress to fast.
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rrsg76
rrsg76 rated it
July 8, 2022
Status: c18
Ok, So I have only read 18 chapters so my review won't be that accurate. Then why am I dropping after just 18 chapters? The ML Rs the FL. When I was reading the chapter which had the physical violence, I saw comments with people complaining about her sister being jealous then her husband being a R. I don't understand. I get she has gone back in time and that the ML is not the same. He probably won't commit any crimes against her. BUT her trauma is real. It... more>> happened to her. I don't mind the ML being a better person but I can't read a story where his victim falls in love with him. As he is on the cover I am guessing she ends up with him. I know in real life these things happen. I personally don't want to read about it. It like the abandoned empress all over again. Not going to do it. I am sorry but a women can be ALONE in life. A FAIRYTAIL ENDING DOESN"T ALWAYS MEAN A WOMEN SHOULD BE WITH A PARTNER let alone one who is her abuser! Choose noone. <<less
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Fantasy-Magician
Fantasy-Magician rated it
May 23, 2022
Status: c219
Whoaa cool down guys- gotta agree this is a novel I feel is purposely have crappy side intentionally from the author because this is the realistic. Not everyone in the world have what it takes to take extreme revenge to everyone that wrong her or dig themselves out from trauma easily.

It's just how it is- this story is NOT for those who wants happy go lucky or sweet revenge stories. it's not for you then.

About FL

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I feel peoples are too harsh on her, and didn't really consider her position in both first and second life. First of all... why Rhia in first life choose her mother in law over her husband. Well, we know the MIL is a bit*h but she don't. Also... from Rhia's perspective, it makes a lot of sense for her to feel more at ease with someone who treat her gently and also a mother at that. While ML outright r*pe her during their wedding night, no consideration for her comfort whatsoever.

Rhia is a weak and meek woman in the first place, this is how she is raised. Of course she would be traumatized and think the worst of her rapist. I am not excusing her mistakes but with this kind of setting in first life, I can't see how she would trust Igor over her mother in law.

Also even bigger mistake in second life, Rhia seek peaceful life overseas. Away from pain in the past as best as she could, then he goes and "force" her to return as his queen again. This is the same as forcing trauma victim to relieve the worst time in their life. It's weirder for her to not regress. Rhia even mocked herself to do worse than animal, as even beast wouldn't go to the same path that almost killed them. This is not about her pride, ego or pettiness, it's simply primal fear of death for her to loath being Igor's wife and queen.
Also don't forget Igor, in spite of his 'kind' intention and love for her is still the "king" and she is "hostage"- queen. The position between this pairing is skewed against Rhia, he has power over her but she doesn't. Just like in their past life, she is in no position to defend herself from him in her head. That contract barely works as warranty for her safety.

See her wish after leaving Arundell, peaceful life with no marriage, no kids- and he shatter all that plans. Even by the end ML himself admit, he is the one who drag her back to royal life she never wanted.

by latest chap I read, Rhia didn't blame Igor but she still want to leave. This is nothing against him, yeah- it's selfish and not considerate for him at all. However Rihanna's mental calculation at that moment really give me a pause, there's no justification she is doing the right thing even in her head. It's blatantly, "I don't know if I can survive more political mishap and danger if I stay with him as queen."

It's plain fear for her life and her baby. She does want to stay by his side basked in his love, but she also feel the need to be free and not fear the danger of being his queen and traumatized all over again by their past life.

This is not justifying right or wrong Rhia did, I just wish my fellow reader try to make sense of her emotional turmoil and why she do what she did.

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Also those comment about MC can only live because of ML, erm... she survive the years overseas without ML didn't she? To be honest I think plot aside MC would be better off in distant land and not as queen if you all think she is so incapable. <<less
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SamS
SamS
November 9, 2021
Status: --
I dont understand why there are so many negative remarks on this novel and especially towards the FL without even reading the chapters properly. There's many comments despising the FL and blaming her for being useless in the new life and doing nothing to change her fate. What they forgot is ... more>>
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this is actually the second chance for Igor, not Rihannan. He is the one who should be and is changing their fate. It was he who wanted a second chance to atone for his sins and mend the wrongdoings of the past. Not Rihannan. Rihannan does nothing wrong in wanting to live a peaceful and happy second life. She never wanted a second chance, but when she got it, she just wanted to forget the past and live in peace but Igor brought her back and changed their fate. She tried changing fates by driving out his father and step sister but what happened? The step sister still came to haunt her with malicious intentions.

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And many blamed her for going back to Igor even though he had hurt her before. No she didn't go back to Igor of the past, she truely thought that this Igor is a different person and she was just willing to go on with the marriage for cousin's sake and thought she doesn't need to hate THIS Igor because he didn't do anything wrong to her in this life. Had she known it was the same Igor she would never had gone to him, and it was also mentioned by Igor himself. So guys don't give bad reviews without properly reading the book. There are places the writing is a tad sloppy and the plot has loopholes but apart from that the story is well written. It's just a tragic story of two unfortunate souls in love but in unfavorable situations that caused their broken hearts and relationship. Nobody is wrong or right. Everyone has their perspective that led to such circumstances. <<less
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Chaku
Chaku
October 5, 2021
Status: c33
I'm not even gonna rate it be cause I dropped this not at CHP 33... I managed to read till triple digits at least lol, seriously far to much drama in the comments to have a proper outlook on this story, you will get the "She deserved it crowd coz they're on team MLs side" "Victim blaming is wrong side defending the FL"

It gets tiring that you have to drag yourself out of comments section to find value in what youre reading anymore, honestly it's difficult because at some point... more>> the comments on the forum and in the story was more compelling lol, that is problematic in itself...

So what would my review entail? Hmmm a warning... Read the tags on this story carefully if you struggle with anything listed please do yourself a favour and avoid reading this story...

If you don't, then give it a try, please avoid reading comments or the forums, it will only give you either rage or fuel you to enrage others, just read... As for myself I had enough and rode on my horse to better stories... yehaw! <<less
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MiharuA
MiharuA
July 19, 2021
Status: c177
It’s okay... ?

The plot seems to occasionally go on incoherent tangents, the FL gets absolutely screwed over in the first life yet still falls in love with ML again for almost no reason, and the ML sucks at communicating. A lot.

Honestly I’m just waiting to see him suffer at this point, either in the current life, or in flashbacks from his POV.

What can I say, I’m a very vindictive bit*h when I want to be lmao 🤣
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Arekushieru
Arekushieru
February 21, 2021
Status: --
I would like to give my own review of this novel by making a couple points clear: Just because I don't expect the FL to do more of the heavy lifting in a relationship both before and after her rebirth (as was expected of the respective FLs in the cases of Perfect Secret Love: The Bad New Wife is a Little Sweet or Rebirth of the Tyrant's Pet: Regent Prince is too Fierce), it doesn't mean I'm biased towards her or biased against the ML. Nor does it mean that... more>> I'm the one unable to analyze the characters in depth (in fact, I'm pretty sure it means quite the opposite). The ML, before his rebirth, personally chose to treat the FL like sh!t because of rumour and hearsay. Yet the FL managed, somehow, not to do the same despite also being subjected to rumours and hearsay as WELL as *actual* evidence. It seems such a thing as personal responsibility has been forgotten in the rush to defend the ML, however. After all, unless you are a puppet with a hand literally stuck up it's butt, how you respond to rumours and hearsay are. Entirely. Your. Choice. Plus the ML is the only one who knows that the both of them are reborn yet he takes an eternity to inform the FL? But somehow this is a-ok with others. Yet in other novels where only the FL is reborn people wonder why the FL doesn't immediately rush to inform the ML of it? So yeah similar to what I said in another review you will hate this if you like tr*shy MLs like him but will probably have mixed feelings about it if you side with the FL (the victim). <<less
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naviet
naviet rated it
November 9, 2020
Status: c100
FL killed herself by poison after misscariage and see ML do affair with her cousin --> then on second life she kindda normal already (from her attitude and speech when with ML) -- I thought she got PTSD/ major depression.

ML become kindda psycopath after FL death (on ch 70 s) then he become good person on second life. Well not so good on my opinion because he coup her mother / old Queen and her followers for reason clash with ML and problem that havent happen.

I dropped this novel because... more>> inappropriate respond between FL and ML relationship and most content romance and smut. FL kindda dense because she marry again ML on second life with mindset that she will divorce after 1 year and she think ML's action like renovate from bedroom to palace (also ML action like give her food and flower) to please another princess that he will marry. Anyway its fantasy with happy ending so it might be good for others. <<less
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namjkm
namjkm rated it
August 15, 2020
Status: c159
Angsty, smutty, redemption-y. Good stuff. May cause you to pull your hair at times. But you'll definitely feel for the characters.
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Saorihirai
Saorihirai
July 23, 2020
Status: --
Tbh, I don't like this story at all though I can see how some people may like it. When you first read it, I guess it's ok but it gets annoying real fast. The only that made me attracted to it in the beginning was the fact that both of them had their memories which was interesting, but other than that there's nothing to it. The MC is useless, annoying, and very cringe worthy. The ML is an idiot, petty, and boring like any other male lead. But... it has... more>> smut, romance, and angst so I can see how people may like it, though it's not my cup of tea. <<less
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Pffftttt
Pffftttt rated it
July 21, 2020
Status: c102
Another second chance novel..... Both FL and ML have regrets and a LOADS OF Misunderstandings... at the beginning you'll probably hate the ML to death (cz I did too.. hehe) but it'll keep getting better.....I think its worth reading (for me...i wait for the updates daily!)
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