The Decade of Deep Love

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They had been together since high school. Together, they faced the cold faces of their parents and the satirical or disdainful eyes of others, started a business and experienced all kinds of ups and downs. When their company was on the right track, He Zhishu was asked to give up his career to stay at home, while Jiang Wenxu gradually changed and began to indulge in merry-making. However, Zhishu chose to forgive him. Zhishu got an incurable disease, while Jiang Wenxu was still indifferent. Zhishu still chose to forgive him. Love had become a kind of habit, which was equal to an incurable disease.

In a peaceful sunny day, Zhishu quietly left Jiang Wenxu and the house in which they had lived for a long time without an advance notice.

Soon he was gone. A man with pure spirit and deep love for Jiang Wenxu disappeared from this world forever…

Sometimes love cannot stand the test of time. Someone will not know how to cherish the love until he loses it…

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Mười năm yêu anh nhất
The Ten Years That I Loved You The Most
The Ten Years When I Loved You So
最爱你的那十年
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AllShipper
AllShipper rated it
October 2, 2021
Status: Completed
I'm so week and numb emotionally rn. I actually never thought I would cry from the story starting, but towards the ending? Damnn. I feel so sorry for ZH, but I'm glad he at least had someone to love him towards the his end. Feel sorry for ZA too, ZH never loved him but I'm glad he stood by him. JH was too oblivious and too late. I actually never felt pity for him till towards the end, I grew numb from loathing him. I was actually planning to rant... more>> here about my thoughts while reading, but I was drained towards the end, I cried so I'm pretty numbly tired rn. JH did many mistakes, but I guess, no matter what happened between them, we outsiders could maybe never understand their love. They did love each other, just a lot of regrets in it. I never felt sorry for JH but at the end, I realized we all make mistakes and gave regrets, he's actually sowing what he reaped. I cried for ZH because I knew him a while before his death, I cried like I would when I lost someone I love, my heart was broken. I learnt a lot, most glaring one; show love while you can, excuses have no place in the regret realm. This was an heartbreaking masterpiece. <<less
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Sxav
Sxav rated it
April 19, 2021
Status: Completed
Translation is okay. Definitely needed to adjust my brain in the first couple of chapters but it was fine after I was immersed in the story.

This is a good piece of angst and the only issue is that it felt dragged out in the latter part although that may just be because I was binge reading this.

I have no sympathy for the ML and the little scenes in the early parts of the story showing that the ML wasn't irredeemable just made me hate him more. I understand that the... more>> author needed to do it to make ML's grief and regret at the latter part more realistic but I personally just got irritated by it. ML's self awareness felt shallow and sometimes just plain hypocritical and his "love" is really just obsession and a need to posses the MC.

The title definitely reffered to the MC's deep love (dependency) for the ML. I'm just happy the MC got the courage to decide for himself in the last few months of his life because not everyone irl gets to have that.

Overall, this is a good story if you want something to cry to or to be angry about. Just beware of the tags since there's r*pe and other heavy stuff.

To the people that thought that the ML was "redeemed" and felt that he and the MC should've been together in the end, I just hope that thinking only exists for fictional stories and not irl. Abusers and rapists MAY repent and change but the victims are always justified in hating and never wanting to meet them again. It doesn't matter if the abusers and rapists cry their eyes out or not function due to guilt and grief. It doesn't matter if they suddenly get a disease. Whatever reasons those people may have for doing what they did doesn't make any victim obligated to forgive them or see things from their abusers and rapist's point of view.

Anyway, I wouldn't recommend this to people not used to reading angst but yeah, this is a 4/5. This is a good one. <<less
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wolf.prince
wolf.prince rated it
July 16, 2019
Status: c0
I am giving this novel a 5 star because I read a few chapters of the manhua and it made me cry and depressed. When I thought the fact that the manhua can do that to me, I have no idea how badly it would make me brawl my eye out so I will just give a warning to those who are looking for something cheery because they forgot to look at the genre or the tags. The tragedy genre tag for this novel is not there as a decoration!... more>> I would definitely recommend this to anyone looking for a tearjerker though. <<less
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Tutubitter
Tutubitter rated it
June 12, 2022
Status: --
Hate both ML and MC honesty. ML's tr*sh to the bones but no one else is gonna top MC from being a f*cking doormat. At first I was relishing in the heartbreak (I like feeling pain in my heart) and pity MC so much. But then MC actually indulged ML through and through, blindly hoping scum ML to stop being scummy while he just let everything pass.

I'm not saying MC deserves being cheated on by the scum ML but MC's just so wrong for letting himself be trampled on... more>> "in the name of love". Hell, he did not even stand up for himself until he's at death's door and finally snapped out of it.

I was looking for heartache but got served with frustration and disgust. <<less
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Nah
Nah rated it
March 9, 2022
Status: Completed
I'm in anger and pain reading this. I'm glad Zishu spend his last days in the embrace of someone who is truly, honestly, and sincerely love him.

No excuse for Wenxu. One may felt bored in long relationship, and it is he reap what he sow for his lost. He was given the most pure love, yet he can't cherish it. No excuse at all, let the pain rip him apart.

I hope somewhere in the next life Ziyu meets the love he deserves. Someone he spend the lifetime together with.
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fireflying
fireflying
December 16, 2020
Status: emotional wreck
I read the manhua and cried.

Then I read the ending of the novel, then cried again. Guess who's an emotional wreck? :D

I read it a while ago, and didn't bother to read the beginning and middle. Only the end, so I could see the f*cking bastard feel bad and repent. All in all: not a fluff and happy read. There is no happy ending. Read if you want to torture yourself. That was such a horrible masterpiece I need to go read some fluff
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yang_Icy
yang_Icy rated it
August 13, 2019
Status: --
I have a conflicting feeling about this novel. I know this book is heart-wrenching, but can’t stop myself from reading it. This is not like online novels that can fulfil ordinary people’s fantasies. This book is more realistic. In daily life, Zhishu He and Wenxu Jiang are everywhere. Love is never equal. The one who loves more always get hurt first.
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Nanaruru
Nanaruru rated it
April 19, 2022
Status: Completed
This is my first time putting up a review and I just really have to do this.

I’d say, what happened all the way was very realistic. I’ve never gotten myself to finish angsty stories, but this one really made me go through all the pain and I think the ending was very solid, although very painful to me T_T

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I also love the fact that there’s no second chance and shit. That Jiang scum, he really deserves to suffer. I’d never forgive him. I know that their love in the past was geniune. However, as time passed, unfortunately, their love just made a turn for the worst—to the point that it’s irredeemable.

I’d never see him as an ML. He doesn’t deserve the MC at all. To me, the real ML is really the doctor. He really took care of MC all the way to the end, even knowing that MC can’t reciprocate his feelings in full, and having to see the one he loves slowly die—gosshhhh I just wish that in their next lives Dr. Ai and MC will be together. Though I think that if they had more time, the MC will move on from the scum, and will learn to love the doctor as they spend more time together. Still, that’s not what happened. But at the very least MC got to spend his remaining time in peace, without being hurt.

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dee_ism
dee_ism rated it
July 12, 2020
Status: --
I finished the whole novel in 4 hours and I cried a waterfall.

The story is full of heartache for every characters.

The ML is a deep boned scum and bastard. And MC seriously doesn't deserve to waste his youth to be with ML for 14 years.

... more>> Our MC is kind hearted, brilliant, warm, smart, and loyal. Yet he fall in love to a wrong man. For the man he basically threw everything: his education, his career, his family, his friend, and his own health.

The think that I'm thankful is at least the MC found happiness in second ML, but still I feel pain for the doctor. <<less
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Suibian Muah
Suibian Muah rated it
April 8, 2020
Status: Completed
My heart is bleeding after finished this novel. I feel resentful toward Jiang at first but at the end, I cannot help but feel so miserable. He repents but it's too late. I hate myself that I cannot hold any grudge toward Jiang after I read his POV. Also, my heart feel so much pain for Ziyu, a kind soul that deserve the whole world. I cannot think of anything now, I want Zhishu to die so that he can ease his pain, on the other hand, I don't want... more>> him to die because he deserve all the sweetness in this whole universe. Does dying is the only path for him to forget all the pain? Can't he just stay alive and live happily ever after with Ziyu? Does he deserve this kind of life after he scarified so much, so much that the words cannot be described? I am so low-key thinking, I only see dots all over my head after I finish this novel.

After all, This novel is not for the weak heart. The strong heart is also can't bear the consequences of this novel. Don;t read it in public if you don't want to ruin your image. <<less
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Emma-watson
Emma-watson
December 17, 2019
Status: --
Even when I looked the cover, I feel like my heart is breaking!! This story is full of feel and... I can't find the right word but, I -one person who know the plot- must alert the people whose planning the read this series. If you under 19, please don't read it. It doesn't about smut or etc. It is about depression, sadness, r*pe...
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Ravenexe
Ravenexe rated it
April 6, 2019
Status: Completed
My eyes hurt reading this novel. ???It was such a tear inducing read.???

For those tired of the usual fluff and happy endings, this is a good one to read for a change.???
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ftzyx
ftzyx rated it
August 11, 2021
Status: Completed
I've read this novel so many times since it was first translated, but somehow I still end up crying throughout the entire thing. So I've finally decided that after reading this 100 times, I'll give it a review.

This story doesn't have a happy ending, which makes this novel so good. Watching JWX suffer because of the way he treated HZS (MC) and how he didn't cherish him makes all the pain worth it.

I'd say that HZS is the only one who got a happy ending. He was not only tired... more>> of loving someone (JWX) who didn't love him like they once did, but he was physically ill and I think him passing away peacefully was probably the best thing that happened to him throughout the story.

Dr. Ai (AZY) - you can call him the Second ML but I like to think he's the only ML in this story because JWX is nothing more than a scum gong - definitely has the bad ending. He has that typical Second Male Lead syndrome where he has a chance with the MC but it doesn't work out -
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in this case it's because HZS dies.

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I'd like to think that in another life HZS and AZY get in a happy and loving relationship together.

I have no feelings for JWX besides that I despise him and I hope he never has another chance to be happy, because he doesn't deserve it.
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I also don't like his side lover - not just because he's helping JXW to cheat (we all know JWX would just find another side lover anyways), but because he deliberately wants to pull JWX away from HZS and also because he confronts HZS in his own home to rub it in his face that JWX has been cheating on HZS with him.

Him and JWX are truly a match made in scum heaven.

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I think reviewers who are complaining about HZS being "weak" and wondering why he continues to love JWX even though he's scum don't realise that these kind of relationships exist in real life. There are so many people in abusive relationships where they're manipulated by their S/O to the point that they can't find the power to stand up for themselves and to leave that toxic relationship. It's extremely hard for people to leave relationships with someone they love, even if that relationship is breaking that person apart. I think this story portrays this theme extremely well and the sorrow we as readers feel for HZS (and AZY) summarises up the pain and anguish that people will feel by being in these relationships.

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It doesn't help HZS's case that he's terminally ill and on the verge of death, but you can realise that HZS does actually start living his life when he truly understands how sick he is. He finally gets the animals he's always wanted that JWX never allowed him to have. He finally moves out of the home that fostered his love for JWX for over a decade. This might seem pointless since HZS is about to die, but it truly shows that since being with JWX, he finally wants to take control of his life for once, even if it's before his death.

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hidden_fujoshi
hidden_fujoshi rated it
June 2, 2021
Status: Completed
If you like to see big a*s adults making choices that leaves them in regret and pity this novel is for you... Honestly I could not cry, maybe my tear ducts are dysfuntional, idk but I could not... infact this novel left me annoyed and frustrated, all the characters were pitiful even the side lover because he was young, freshly graduated intern, I pity his s*upidity and naiveness for getting manipulated by a 31 yr old piece of sh*t and the other reason ... more>>
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Zhu Shen die and obliviated (an aspect of death that also scares me) and will never be remembered unlike Zhishu He who have two lovers even though one of them is a lying, ungrateful, piece of sh*t

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The MC I guess just likes to torture himself though the writer has tried to justify his actions but God whats wrong with having a healty communication and confrontation with your partner who has been with you for more than 10 yrs, just because your afraid he will leave you, if he has to leave you he will anyways... And finally he gets a chance to be happy with the doctor he tries to throw it away
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So it takes Zhushu He freaking 3-4 years, physical abuse and r**e and a terminal illness to finally confront that freaking a***ole and liar of a partner

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The ML I have no words he is straight up annoying and a prime example of men who think with their di**s.....i have no words for him, nothing can justify his actions towards MC or his side lover....

Zhi yi is the hopeless lover...
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he a doctor is in love with MC who he just met for check-up and for chemotherapy and gives his all to the MC then after, even though MC does not reciprocate... my mate I wish love worked that way, I wouldn't be single..... But he still continues to try but its all his efforts

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Basically this story is "Hey we are bored millenials so we would do things that would make our life more complicated and tragic, because who likes to keep it simple, not us hahahah!!"

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BTW the only true tragedy is MC dies of cancer and Zhu Shen in an accident

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It was a good read though! I think author tried really hard to make the MC pitiful, there was a lot of justification to why he made that choices and some were acceptable but some were just forceful, like author wants you to pity them...I love the translations, it was well done.... <<less
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Sakura Dream
Sakura Dream rated it
March 2, 2021
Status: c86
So many tears shed for this, really heart-wrenching. So tragic and depressed. Fate likes to trick people huh, meet the wrong people at the right time when meeting the right people at the wrong time. Regrets always come last and there's nothing you can fix by then. Reality is cruel and human are crueler, only comes to realize one's importance after losing it. Really sad after reading it.

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They should never be met in the very first place. The mutual deep love that lasted for only 10 years, then everything changed, not to mention a fragile human heart. At last, ML got what he deserves, it's karma (just want to use a kitchen knife and stab him several times and it is still not enough)

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Overall, if you want to cry then give this a try :))))) Not recommended for those who cannot stand it, it really depressed.

P.S: Time tests TRUE LOVE. <<less
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mochispinky
mochispinky rated it
January 27, 2021
Status: --
Its heartbreaking.

The first time I read, I felt so disturbed.. Second time it pained me and now everytime I remember the scene of an young ML protecting flowers and giving to MC and all those innocent ways he tried to win MC and how it later changed, it all breaks my heart.

Its particularly gutting to read the secretary's PoV as he describes.. How he saw ML loving MC beyond everything and how he could never guess the same person to betray him.

On a deeper level, this narration is pretty disturbing... more>> on, no matter how strong the relationship is or how many tribulations one go through, it cant stand the challenges of time.

Till date, this story haunts me and if you are someone who is very triggered by the concept of betrayal, then no matter how curious you are, do NOT read this. It will hurt.

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rotten_trash
rotten_trash
July 5, 2020
Status: Completed
I just wanna say that this novel hits diff f*ck I can't describe how good is this, tbh angst is not really my cup of tea but somehow my instinct told me to read this anddd--- I've been crying all day ಥ‿ಥ, the uke deserves someone better

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like I mean the seme cheated, r*ped him and all, and since that event his image went downhill for me, the uke is an adorable bean and I can't blame him for still having a lingering feelings for the seme because they have been together for a decade but dang the scene where the uke is pronounced as dead hit me so hard like why would you do this to my heart

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so all in all, I rlly recommend this <<less
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qpzmal
qpzmal rated it
April 25, 2020
Status: Completed
it’s beautiful. I’m crying on my bed right now and there’s a pile of used tissues next to me. Do not recommend to read when around other people. If you want major angst this is it.
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PawsAndClaws
PawsAndClaws rated it
August 6, 2019
Status: --
So good. A tearful and heartbreaking story that I recommend but also a beautiful one too.
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Natural_Sapphire
Natural_Sapphire rated it
July 10, 2019
Status: Completed
After reading this, I suddenly remembered a line from one of translarion; the writer wants to take revenge on people. I'm giving this five stars because I got a good cry (the whole time) and the story hold a hope that push me till the end.

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and I cried a lot more for that hope being just a hope and never came ture at the end

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I had read a similer story before with the same type scum gong and over ten years of relationship and that one also make me cried a lot. I think, compared to that disgusting scum gong, jing here is a little less hateful. So at the end of the story, I'm not as disappointed as the first one. That make me felt a lot better about this story.

This story is very good for whoever looking for a good cry, or else you're just being getting revenged by the writer. <<less
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